Chapter 385: Dark mories (Ch.385)
narx’s right hand moved to stroke Neveah’s hair in a slow, calming manner.
He was patient and did not push for Neveah to say anymore, even though Neveah could practically sense his deep concern and rage.
"Do you really want us to go down this path?" Neveah asked, glancing up at narx.
"Only if you’re comfortable with it. I can wait, I always will." narx assured.
Neveah sighed quietly, there was so much she was not ready to talk about, things Neveah did not think she would ever be ready to speak of.
But Neveah did want to share sothing with narx, sothing she had never told anyone... sothing that would make him truly understand the kind of life she had lived.
"I still rember the very first ti I killed a man, as vivid as though it was just yesterday." Neveah began after a long silence.
"I had just turned fourteen and my fath... Lothaire threw a large ball in my honor, to celebrate his daughter and introduce
to society."
"It was a grand affair, with all the Eclipse Alphas in attendance and even Alphas from the other domains who had good relations with the Eclipse Domain."
"Too grand an affair for a fourteen year old, if one placed aside the fact that it was just a front for another one of his political maneuvers..."
"And as usual, I was just the trophy hung up on the wall, on display for all eyes to see." Neveah recalled, chuckling in derision.
"I stood there, feeling like a fool. A puppet show for hundreds to watch, all of which were amongst the most powerful n in the realm."
"If one lives long enough in the Eclipse Domain, you’d co to understand that the greater power a wolf held, the greater it’s primal urges...lust...desire..."
"And with power ca the delusion that one could get whatever one desired, it was my fa...Lothaire’s favorite ga to play." Neveah paused, clearing her throat slightly.
"The thing about Lothaire was, the n he kept around himself were those who shared his horrible interests...more so than the more responsible Alphas, he tended to keep them far out of his circle."
"The kind of interests Lothaire had were those that sohow made him believe it was okay to teach a seven year old what it ant to entice a man..." Neveah trailed off briefly.
"God’s... Veah, what did he do?" narx murmured in horror.
"Right from that age, while other girls played tag around the palace grounds, I was kept in the basent, chained down and forced to watch...all sorts of sexual acts..." Neveah’s voice broke at this point and narx’s heart broke with it.
"I’ll kill him... I’ll rip him limb from limb, I swear it..." narx vowed, pulling Neveah up into his embrace.
narx felt her silent tears soak his shirt and he held her even tighter, knowing just how much each word she said was taking out of her.
"You don’t have to say anymore... I’m sorry... for making you relive this..." narx apologized in a pained tone.
"I want to...Narx. At so point, I will have to share this part of myself with soone...if I do not start now, I might never claw my way out of this darkness. "
"And if I have to share this with so one, I would not have it be anyone else." Neveah admitted honestly.
narx nodded in understanding and said no more, allowing Neveah the ti she needed to muster the strength to continue.
"The lighting in that basent was always dim, there were tis when I wished it was brighter, so bright that it blinded my eyes for good...or dark enough that all I could see was shadows."
"But even then, what could I do about the sounds?...Then again, I had no choice in the matter. If I ever dared to look away or shut my eyes...he would kill whichever oga was being used... for not being entertaining enough to keep my attention."
"And so I did not dare look away, I watched and ingrained it all in my mory...every position, every sensitive spot, the right things to say, the right places to touch...hell, the right way to cry out in pleasure." Neveah chuckled again, a dark, pained chuckle.
"The only ones who got out of there alive were those who had successfully taught
what they were tasked to...in a way that I could recount it step by step to him, only then could he approve." Neveah continued.
"He..." narx began, barely able to get his words out for the rage that coursed through his veins.
"No...he never touched
inappropriately, or let anyone else do so. I guess I reminded him too much of my mother and he could not bear to watch..."
"All my lessons were given using others... innocent ogas as scape goats and only my mastery of the teaching could ensure their lives." Neveah murmured.
"In the first few months, many who were dragged into that basent did not leave alive. And I quickly ca to understand what it was I needed to do...who it was I needed to be, so many more did not have to die."
"I beca his diamond little princess, whatever he wanted
to be was exactly what I was... naive and innocent on the days he chose that the, a coy vixen on the days that was required of ... I could even be worse, he just needed to give the order."
"I grew good at it too... putting up a false image with perfect ease and shedding it off just as quickly." Neveah sighed quietly.
"It was not until my fourteenth birthday that he was confident I was ready."
"To the world, Princess Neveah Oga Lothaire had turned a blessed year older but we both knew the day just marked the completion of his masterpiece."
"And so when the ball had co to an end, and the crowd dispersed but a selected group of Alphas stayed behind and I was ordered to do the sa... I knew exactly what I was in for." Neveah’s eyes fluttered closed, silent tears streaming down her cheeks.
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