Chapter 195: So Could Afford (Ch.195)
~Dragon Keep, Ten Days After Neveah’s Fall~
"Narx." King Jian called to narx who stood on his balcony, staring out into nothingness.
King Jian had only just stepped into narx’s quarters and narx had not even taken note of his presence.
In these past days, narx had grown increasingly withdrawn and absent minded and it was becoming a cause of concern to his brothers.
"Narx." King Jian called again when narx gave no response.
narx turned, passing a glance over his shoulder to King Jian, his gaze lingered on King Jian for just a mont before moving right back to where it had been.
"It has been ten days..." King Jian began but trailed off, King Jian himself was unsure of what to say.
Would he say that Neveah was certainly dead now and it was ti to co to terms with it? Could he convince narx of that when he himself was yet to comprehend how it had co to this?
Could he tell narx to pull himself together when narx was not the only one in Dragon Keep affected by it?
Could he tell narx to give up when King Jian himself had given no orders to withdraw the dragon guards but instead ordered them to intensify their search?
"Your withdrawal is disrupting flight patrol schedules, for how long will you have Kirgan and Cassian stand in for you?" King Jian settled for a lighter topic.
"They can handle it." narx replied in a tone of disinterest.
King Jian’s brows furrowed slightly, the narx he knew was amongst the fiercest and most brutal of his brothers...
To see the day narx would be in such a state of despair and make no efforts to conceal it, King Jian did not even know what he could say to narx.
King Jian had never expected narx would be so deeply affected by Neveah, a deep sense of guilt had settled in his heart and he just could not shake it off.
"They can...but you know that is not my point." King Jian continued, walking over to stand beside narx.
"Standing here like this... staring in the direction of the cliff, what unbecoming behavior is this?" King Jian asked directly.
narx did not respond imdiately, lowering his gaze for a mont before he spoke.
"I should go there...keep searching, but I do not dare go, to hear yet again that she is yet to be found..." narx murmured beneath his breath.
"The girl...you care for her?" King Jian asked.
"Care...is an understatent." narx replied with no hesitation.
"This is what I feared of Xenon... I cannot believe it would be not one...but two of you instead." King Jian said.
"You must be relieved then... without her, you have nothing to be worried about." narx blankly replied.
"Take a good look at yourself and tell
again that I have nothing to be worried about." King Jian shot back, passing narx a glare.
narx grunted beneath his breath but said nothing more, he was not at all concerned for his present state.
"How long then? How long till you shake this off?" King Jian asked after a mont of quiet.
"Shake...off?" narx repeated the words slowly as his gaze moved to King Jian.
"Jian... how can you even be okay with this? Are you truly not bothered in the slightest?" narx asked in bafflent.
"She jumped off by her own will." King Jian reminded in a dark tone.
"We pushed her to her death Jian! Do not twist the facts!" narx snapped.
King Jian’s brows twitched slightly at narx’s tone but he gave no more reaction than that.
"Jian... I know, I know after what happened with Xenon...you are cautious of everyone. You worry for us all and want to keep us safe..."
"I understand it all, I know your heart but Jian... Misha was Misha and Neveah is Neveah, those two are not the sa person...they never will be." narx reasoned.
"Xenon fell to the wild haze again and you knew nothing of it, with flight patrol keeping Kirgan and Cassian away mostly and Imagor tending to his rider... I have had to ward off mount Edar by myself in these days."
" I fear I might battle Xenon if he tries to break out..."
"The petitions have begun again, they say Xenon is a danger that cannot be harbored...a danger that must be eradicated."
"They two are not the sa indeed. And what kind of person is Neveah then?" King Jian asked coldly.
"One broke him... another is breaking you, tell
Narx? How am I to see the difference?" King Jian asked again.
"Jian...do not make this about her. Neveah has done no wrong, yet she bears the burden of your hatred for Misha."
"She was here only because Xenon asked for it and we indulged him. Between Xenon and the rest of us, when has she ever had a choice in any of this?!" narx hissed.
narx’s words were the truth that not even King Jian could deny and so he remained quiet.
"You know the truth and you won’t even admit it. You are so blinded by the past that I wonder, between you and Xenon...who truly was cursed?" narx murmured with a shake of his head.
"Then what would you have
say?" King Jian asked with a frown.
"The truth, Jian." narx replied blankly.
"I did not want her to jump! How could I know she would have no care for her life?! I would not have said any of what I did. Hell, I would have let you go find her alone since my presence seems to ruin everything..."
"It breaks my heart to see you and Xenon like this... I also want her to be found but there is nothing I can do, that truth?" King Jian asked pointedly.
narx was slightly surprised at King Jian’s words.
"Jian..." narx began but King Jian cut him off.
"But I have an Empire to rule, narx. Millions of lives in my hands... I am Dragon King, you can afford to despair... Xenon can afford to go wild, but I?... I can only be fine!" King Jian hissed as he turned and stord out.
"Scales! Veah, where in the world are you?" narx whispered in a heavy tone as he stared after King Jian.
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