Shall I kill the wyrm or not? Should I go or not? I understand what Mommy Vyvyan was getting at. I never thought about it, though, I contemplated.
Your Majesty, called Nier. She returned to my side after her bath. She grabbed her long hair that had water trickling off and sat down next to . Her scent was more prominent after just bathing. After sitting down next to , she said, You appear to have sothing on your mind. What are you thinking about?
Im wondering if I should go kill the wyrm or not.
Do you want to hear my opinion, Dear?
Nier checked to see that there was nobody around before addressing as Dear, which she used when we were alone. However, she didnt look relaxed and happy as she usually did when alone with . She licked her lips as though she was in a bit of a dilemma: If I was in your shoes, I wouldnt go and pick a fight with the wyrm this ti.
Why? I asked.
Nier solemnly answered, Because its aningless. Dear, I hope you listen to this ti. My husband, Daisys father, I hope you listen to . Lets not pick a fight with the wyrm this ti, and just take Ying and Xia. Yes, its all right to bring Ying and Xia. I just hope youll listen to and not challenge the wyrm.
Are you a scared, Nier? Is it because youve never fought on water before?
No Mm I would say, yes, answered Nier. She clasped my face in her hands and gently ran her fingers across my face. She was sad and eager to convince . In a soft voice, she said, My husband, Dear, to be honest, Im not afraid of fighting even now. Ill take up my sword without hesitation if its to protect you and Daisy. I will fight them regardless of how many they number or how strong they may be. I wont be afraid in that situation.
Arent you protecting this ti, too?
But the risk that youre taking this ti is aningless! retorted Nier, voice loud. She sternly thundered, For what reason are you taking a risk to slay the wyrm? Do you want to protect us, your children or Her Majesty? None of them. You just want to challenge the wyrm. Youre doing sothing utterly aningless this ti!!
I want to bring Ying and Xia! I argued.
Then, bring them!! I wont complain or refuse anymore. Im fine with anything as long as you give up on picking a fight with the wyrm, shouted Nier, on the verge of tears. She choked on her words as she continued, My husband, Dear, youre now Daisys father and my husband. You dont need to take this pointless risk I beg you Please Dont let Daisy be without a father I dont want to be without a husband Im now honestly scared. Im honestly afraid Ill die. Im afraid Daisy will be left without a mother for a completely aningless reason, and the sa goes for you! You dont want Daisy to be without a father, do you?!
I dont I dont want to, either I stamred.
I grabbed hold of Niers hand. I leaned over and gently touched our heads. Nier softly sobbed then let go of my hand to hug . I hugged her back and stroked her wet hair. I looked at the wall behind her. Behind the wall was Ying and Xias room.
I debated with myself: Should I go and kill the wyrm or not? What significance would I derive from it? I want to kill it so that Ying and Xia can leave with peace of mind. Will they leave with us if I tell them were not going to kill the wyrm and just leave? I dont think Ying would. Killing the wyrm is their mission. They probably wont leave until then. But Nier isnt wrong. Shes right. I can still leave, even if Ying and Xia dont leave with us. I insist that I dont love Ying, so I can by all ans leave her. I have my own wives and children. Im now a father, a ruler, a husband, and I have a family.
Vyvyan and Nier are right. I need to have my own new life now. Maybe I should live for the sake of my children, because they were born a little soon. I never felt I had another factor in my life by that, I an that Im now a father.
I cant let sothing happen to myself. Inard lost his life when he went to slay the dragon. He didnt need to go to the dragons den, but he lost his life just because he wanted to slay it for its head, leaving Troy without a father. Vyvyan can be considered a very noble mom. With her, whether or not I had a father, made no difference, but what about Daisy? Even if losing her father doesnt affect her, it doesnt an that its a good thing all of a sudden. How much sadness would Nier have to bear, as she takes care of Daisy? I think thats why Nier and Vyvyan are stopping .
Niers father passed away when she was young, while Vyvyan experienced the aforentioned scenario. The two of them understood how the person left behind felt. They knew that pain.
When I was out risking my life, Vyvyan and Elizabeth were always worried for , for Im their son. Lucia, Nier, Ling Yue and Luna worried for , because they love . Now, not only do my wives and mothers worry, but my children, as well. There are so many people worried about now. How many people would be sad if sothing happens to ?
I can no longer be without concern as I did in the past. I have to take nurous people and things into consideration. I cant break the hearts of those who love . I must think about how the people around are going to live on if sothing happens to . How much would my wives and children suffer? I cant behave the way I did in the past. I cant.
I should go back now. I should return with my moms and wives. Ying and Xia can follow if they want. Weve still done all we can, even if they wont co with . I have no reason to insist on staying with them. They have their own lives, while I have my wives and family. We all have people we want to protect and be with.
Since I didnt respond, Nier went on: Dear, I beg you, dont go. Dont go. Lets go ho. Lets go ho. I want to see our Daisy. I want to go ho. Lets go ho together
Mm I know. I know
You dont know!! exclaid Nier, clutching my face and looking at with a gaze on the border of insanity. If you understood, youd cancel our plan, and go ho tomorrow. We can go ho tomorrow!!
I didnt respond. I just gently hugged Nier and tried to calm her trembling down. It was the first ti that Nier was so emotional in front of . She just wanted to return ho; that was all she asked for. I stood up, and then patted her on her shoulder. In a soft voice, I said, I need to go and speak to Lucia.
What do you want to say? Are you letting her know were leaving? asked Nier.
I answered, No Sotis, when I cant decide on sothing, I need to go and ask Lucia
When I couldnt make up my mind, when I lacked courage, I always had a desire to consult Lucia. She knew best and was the person who could best help gain clarity. As long as she was by my side, Id be able to regain my courage and my direction. I suppose it was the power of childhood friends, ordinary, yet special
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