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Im sorry.
No, Liloa.
This happened because I fell too short. I should have cracked them down sooner, but I couldnt. Its driving
insane Did anything happen on deck?
Its all my fault that they can go on a rampage like this. Half of the old crew retired due to the offer I made them
Didnt you get hit? Did you get injured?
Lil didnt bear to ask if he had been spit on. She thought shed better free herself quickly and see for herself, so she moved her hand again. But even in the midst of worrying about Cesar, she was tempted to ask who was commanding the helm.
The two people who know the route best are tied up, so who the hell is going to move the ship? This is insane, but I have to ease Cesars mood first
Alain took the helm.
Huh? Oh, okay
Of course, Alain didnt agree with Julio. After I refused, the old man took over for everyones safety, and an officers eting is currently in progress. One of Julios conditions was to vote while you were still being detained. In a fit of rage, one of our n broke one of his crews arm. The atmosphere got worse after that, three more were injured when they demanded to release you. They wanted to isolate
as well, thinking I could influence the decision of the crew, so I ca down voluntarily.
Lil couldnt help but question why Cesar ca down here himself.
Why did you do that? And why do you let them treat you like this? Theres no way youre pleased with sothing like this I dont want you to be humiliated too. Im sorry Im so sorry I cant stand it I would rather have you on deck right now, whats the point of being here? They still follow you I dont understand this at all
Lil suddenly realised sothing and breathlessly swallowed her words.
The sailors up there arent the sailors from the Navy he swore to lead and protect
Because youre here.
Im more concerned about you than the crew.
Her hand, which had continuously scrubbed the glass shard against the rope, stopped. At that point, she had already cut halfway through the straps around her wrists, and they would be completely undone with just a little more. However, instead of finishing the job, the shocked Lil opened her mangled palm and the shard of glass she had been holding tightly fell down helplessly.
She could hear his stable breathing behind her back. With her hair most likely touching his shoulders, they were close enough to reach, but their position made it impossible for them to look in the sa direction. Ironically, she thought that this fact really reflected their entire relationship.
Lil struggled to lift her head when her eyes began to fill with tears.
When I was young, I had a doll. She was so pretty that I always carried her with
I dont know why I liked dolls back then. Maybe because I was so young? Or perhaps it was because I was only allowed to have dolls, and not allowed to like other things
Anyway, I introduced the doll to anyone I ca across. I nad it Philly, that way her na was close to mine. But people didnt seem to think of Philly as anything special. When I talked to them with a proud heart, they didnt get amused or even faked their interest. I didnt realise it at the ti
What are you trying to say?
I was sad that no one else thought she was pretty except . No one else loved her as much as I did. Why didnt anyone else think she was precious? It was devastating Even though I boasted about dressing her up, they never acknowledged her. Slowly, my perspective started to change and I questioned myself that maybe she was indeed really ugly. Maybe I just liked weird things. Maybe I was wrong. I struggled with such thoughts till one day, Philly appeared shabby to
too
The process of losing her confidence was excruciating. Lil rembered her younger self starting to run around anxiously in her round-toed shoes. It was only now that she realised she hasnt changed much since then.
And so, in the end, I threw her away
She felt so pathetic that she broke out in tears. Feeling stuffy inside, she wanted to grab her chest, but her body still couldnt move.
You have no idea how heartbreaking it was. But as I spent every day regretting it, in my mind Im throwing Philly away over and over again.
She ran out of breath as she knew she had a decision to make.
With everything thats going on, how can I ever run away once we reach Serlio? I simply cant leave my anxious crew behind. I cant turn a blind eye to the sailors who defended
and endured Julios violence, even though their fears reached its peak due to the naval inspection. It will be terribly irresponsible of
If I dont want to go, Cesar will listen to . But can I even muster up the courage to tell Cesar that? Going back to Panichi will put us in a very dangerous situation But whereas I have a sense of responsibility and attachnt as a Captain, for Cesar, it will be like returning to a living hell
How should I tell him this? Once I tell him that hes going back alone, I state more than just a simple will. Its
revealing the kind of life Im choosing. A life that Ill never give up for him
Lil didnt want to tell Cesar that. To be more specific, Lil didnt want Cesar to co back with her to Panichi. But regardless of whether she wanted to go back alone or not, Cesar would follow Lil the mont she ntioned Panichi anyway
Then shall I begin to cut off his leg?..
She heard the all too familiar hallucination from sowhere.
Oh. Or will it be more convenient if I cut off your tongue so you will not be able to speak in the first place?..
The god of deaths voice was mixed with laughter.
Lil wasnt surprised to see Mortu in Eds cabin. The grim reaper, who received her grave gaze, slit her mouth while smirking. Her mouth was ripped open from ear to ear. As her chin fell open onto her chest, Mortus silent sneer beca thicker. With his black mockery drawing closer, Lil looked around. It was incredibly dark even when this cabin used to be a place of brightness despite the lack of a lamp, and such darkness made Mortus appearance even clearer.
I think I now know why I fell asleep here so peacefully. There was no Mortu. There was no God of Death in the cabin where Ed was Perhaps because it was too bright.
At that ti, the shadowless God of Death did not dare to hold out his scythe. But after that day Mortu was like a bat that flew into every crevice its owner had disappeared to.
Lil looked straight at her uninvited guest.
Its amazing that I finally thought of looking at a face I didnt even know where it was attached to.
There was no specific appearance for the hideous monster that lived in fantasies. The black shape Lil saw in mythology books when she was a child was only the start of her abstractions. Later, when her maddening mind created a shadowy stain, she beca more and more terrified of it. And the more frightened she beca, the more terrifyingly clear the shadow beca. Lils fear and despair were the chisels and hamrs that carved Mortu.
The voice of the god of death penetrated her head.
Did I not tell you? Among the things I brought to the other guest, were sotis bones and flesh that did not belong to you But, in the end, he still accepted them
I know Now I know
Then, should you not make sure this will not happen again?..
Okay, it wont.
Pretending to like it without actually liking it That is no fun, my dear regular custor
The darkness opened its arms temptingly and made room for Lil. Usually, she slipped under his arm and hid. But no matter how well she thought she was hidden away, Cesar consistently found her and held out his hand. When that happened, Lil had no choice but to repay her saviour with the weight of her own heart, moulded from only the best pieces of flesh. And of course, Mortu was there to help them with exchanging their rewards. It was so painful, but no matter how hard she tried, she simply couldnt give him the sa thing. She only hoped that the aningless mass of flesh could be made into an illusion and be accepted.
However, now it was clear to her that Cesar had been locked up with her all along, crawling and rolling on the floor of the sa cold castle. She couldnt make his days, chased by the darkness, fearful and painful at the sight of flowing blood, carry on into the future.
Lil wasnt pretending to like it but not actually liking it. Even though she had never thought of taking his flesh for granted or that she could ever turn a blind eye to Cesars sacrifice, she still felt sorry for realising it too late.
If youre as sick as I am, then how much pain have you been enduring? No human is born for the sake of others. No matter how much Cesar tries to go with , hes not supposed to. I cant allow it any longer. Of course, I also
Without saying a word, Mortu opened his arms wider.
How long have I been in that hellish nest? For far too long, Ive been searching for so peace and quiet in a place I shouldnt. Did I really believe that the darkness, which is infinite in volu and depth, would excrete a peaceful ending
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