--- (Lin Ruoxi Perspective) ---
Why did I do this?
I hate myself so much, this year I turn 20 but I acted like a stupid child.
I was upset with my dad for getting engaged to a perverted jerk who only looks at like a piece of at to fuck, my mom tried to talk to my dad to convince him to cancel the engagent but she only got slapped.
I am a disgrace, my mother suffers because of and I can not do anything to help her.
Why does this have to happen to ?
I want to be free, run a business and show that I am not just a pretty face that only serves as a trophy.
Am I just serving to be the prize of so idiot with rich parents?
It hurts, my chest hurts a lot. The pain does not let breathe and my eyes burn.
I don't want this, I want to cry and scream because of how unfair the world is but I know it won't do any good, no one will help and I can't save myself on my own.
I tried to change my destiny with my own hands but I could only act like one stupid child.
Sleeping with a random guy I t at a bar? I am pathetic.
The boy is handso despite having so cut marks on his arms and face, they make him look tough. One advantage of attractive people is that they look good even with those kinds of brands.
He was the most attractive man in the bar so I figured if I was going to give my virginity to a stranger it should at least be soone nice to look at.
Thought rationally, I could have been kidnapped or used as a toy by so idiot if I chose the wrong man.
Fortunately, I did not choose wrong and he was gentle and felt good, maybe too good.
It makes think that he is too used to dealing with female bodies but I am not complaining, I can say that despite how much I hate myself right now, I enjoyed my first ti.
The way he kissed and tasted every part of my body, his mouth running over my breasts and neck while his hands caressed my waist and legs ...
Hell, I'm getting turned on just rembering it!
I am a failure to beco such a perverted woman with just one night of intimacy.
It is surprising how despite being penetrated by such a thick mber in my first ti, the passionate way in which he did it to could make the pain turn into pure pleasure ... I hope I did not develop an addiction.
Heh, it's ironic. I'm complaining about being engaged to a perverted idiot but I just slept with a stranger on my initiative.
I pretended to be drunk so I could justify my actions and be able to get away from the stranger after finishing the act. I am aware that my appearance attracts a lot of unwanted attention so I made preparations in case the subject wanted to form a relationship with .
I'll tell him it was a one-night mistake and that we wouldn't see each other again, if he gets aggressive I have my cell phone on speed dial to call the police.
Despite everything, a part of wants to see what kind of person this young man is. He looks between 18 or 19, he looks slim but his muscles are well marked which is only noticeable when he is naked. His height is between 1.77 ters and 1.80 ters so he is tall to be Japanese, the wounds on his body and his bare hands give the feeling of a hardworking man, although also problematic.
A gang mber maybe? No, it does not give the feeling of being a criminal and is more like a dedicated and responsible worker, it may be a worker.
Last night he was quite nice to , even though I was the one who approached him he did not try to force to do sothing that I did not want, on second thought this boy is probably the first person to treat as an equal.
I have to be obedient to my parents, in my company I always have to act like a cold and distant woman so that others do not try to take advantage of my status as a young woman who recently graduated from university.
I have a couple of friends but even with them, there is a certain distance that separates us.
I think there is sothing wrong with , maybe all my effort is worth nothing and I should just accept my destiny to be just so idiot's toy with money.
I am tired, I have had insomnia problems and headaches for a few months. Sotis I have thought about suicide but maybe the headache will kill sooner.
At least I slept well today, I think it was the best rest I have had in years.
Since my appearance has beco so outstanding I have been receiving all kinds of nasty looks, even my father has looked at like that a few tis which makes wake up in the middle of the night in fear of soone entering my room.
Well, ha, a stranger took my virginity! Fuck you perverted idiots who wanted to be the first to take for a prize!
You can all go to hell!
Everyone…!
I ... Maybe if I want to die after all ...
I feel tired despite having slept well.
I don't even know the na of the guy who took my first ti, although I didn't give him my na either, I think that's a fair deal.
I woke up when the man got out of bed. Although it was the best rest I have ever had, the nightmares of being forced make a light sleeper so I wake up easily.
While the man went to the bathroom, I pretended to sleep. I wanted to know what to do next.
Would he go on his own?
Would he see how I feel?
Would he try to build a relationship?
Would he try to see if he can have sex with again?
The first option would be the best while I would like the second option to pass, despite not wanting to have a formal relationship with this man it would be nice to feel the warmth of being treated with care and so affection. Even though my mother is loving to , she doesn't give any feeling of security.
After he ca out of the bathroom he stood still while muttering to himself, I don't know what he's doing because my back is to him, I can't hear him either so I can only think he's reflecting on last night.
After a while, the man finally approached . I was feeling nervous, my cell phone was on the nightstand next to the bed, if sothing happened I could take it and call the police in an instant, I just hope that the man who took my first ti is not a complete scum.
"She seems to be tired, I should have been nicer to her ..." - The man sighed as he began to gently stroke my hair.
It was a pleasant sensation and I felt that my headache lessened a little making form a small smile, fortunately, the man could not notice it and began to use his hands to brush my long hair, it felt nice.
The man sat on the side of the bed and was brushing my hair, the sensation of his fingers passing through the strands of my hair was so relaxing that I could fall asleep at any mont, however, I did not want to be helpless with a man I did not I know nothing despite how much I have enjoyed your touch.
I resisted falling asleep and began to stretch while acting as I had just woken up.
After yawning I turned to look at the man. His eyes are blue like the relaxing sea, brown hair a bit long with strands that covered part of his face, his skin is not very light or very tanned which gives him a masculine and attractive appearance, there are small cuts on his face but only they are noticeable if you look at it carefully so they can be overlooked.
This man with whom I had shared the bed only a few hours ago was now looking at with an expression of concern and care, that look full of warmth moved sothing inside but I'm not sure what it was.
"Good morning… Em, how are you feeling?" - It seed that the man did not know what to say in this situation, it is a bit cute how he looks embarrassed.
"I'm fine, just a little tired" - My voice is cold and my tone is indifferent.
Acting like an unattainable ice queen has beco a habit that I can't take off what has isolated from people.
"I'm glad you're okay, would you like sothing to eat?" - The man had a wry smile as if he did not expect my attitude after what we did, but his expression of care did not disappear.
Receiving this kind of care doesn't feel bad, I could get used to this… No! This was a mistake that cannot be repeated!
"I'm not hungry, I hope you understand that this was a one-night mistake" - My cold voice makes people put a distance from , and apparently it had an effect on this man, however, there was no discomfort or disgust, only sadness.
The sad look of the man-made feel guilty but my problems were enough to get involved in an affair with soone I just t.
"I see, do you have soone who can pick you up, or do you need a ride?" - The man asked with concern.
Even with my horrible attitude, he keeps trying to help ...
"I don't need anything, it would be nice if you left since I need to get dressed" - Why is my attitude so horrible?
He just wants to help but I keep treating him as a nuisance. I am a horrible person who does not deserve to be treated with this affection and care.
"I see ... So here is my number, if you need sothing, anything, you can call , I don't have much to help but my arms are a bit strong hahaha ..." - Even when he's so uncomfortable with my attitude he remains so kind.
I don't want to push it away.
I don't think I would have fallen in love, but I want to have him close.
It is the first ti that soone cares for so much, soone who cares about , soone who wants to help while looking into my eyes, soone who does not look at like a piece of at and treats like a person ...
I ... I want to keep watching.
When the man left the room I felt an emptiness in my chest, it was as if I had just lost sothing important. I wanted to cry.
"I didn't ask her na…" - My murmur was all I could say before starting to sob.
--- (Luis Santos Perspective) ---
"Hey Listen! As expected of my partner, that was a great performance!" - Navi had been bothering while talking to that woman nad Lin Ruoxi.
It was hard to focus on acting as a golden heart guy, but the result was good. Right now I can hear Lin Ruoxi's sobs on the other side of the door.
Soone said that the two best thods of getting to know soone else are a fight and sex.
Since we went to bed I could see that Lin Ruoxi is a tragic woman on the verge of despair, I would not be surprised if she ended up committing suicide in a few days because of so family problem or so stupidity like that.
I don't like to play with won's feelings as I don't even enjoy forming relationships, one night stands are better.
I learned so tricks from various acquaintances who love to be casanovas, I never expected to end up using those tips and I had only learned them to warn my little sister not to fall for the tricks of so idiot who wanted to take advantage of her.
Do I feel guilty for what I did? The truth is, no, I don't care what happens to Lin Ruoxi and I do this just for the mission.
My brain is not bad as I learned to read and write on my own, however, it doesn't matter how smart I am if I couldn't even finish elentary school, plus I have a questionable record after being taken to juvenile hall for a fight that got out of control when he was 14 years old. It's because of that kind of thing that I won't be able to get a stable job, although I also admit that I have personality problems, especially in anger managent, that doesn't matter for the mont.
The point is that I need money to be able to buy a house and have a more peaceful life, I will do whatever it takes to ensure a better future for and my sister, if I have to be scum then I will be the worst type of scums.
I don't know what kind of problems Lin Ruoxi might have but from what I understood about her, it must be sothing related to her family.
I can say that she is a girl with a lot of money but she does not act as the daughter of soone influential or successful. That leaves two options, her family just got rich or she earns her money herself, it could also be that her family has educated her well, but rembering the resentnt she showed last night when I told her to call 'daddy', tells that she has problems at ho.
If I am going to follow this path I think I should go back to the library to read more about female psychology, so far all I know is by self-study since I am surrounded by idiots who are not capable of teaching anything useful.
Perhaps the only thing I learned from my family is to bake cakes on my mother's side and stay away from gambling on my father's side.
As I was thinking about the shitty life I have, the stupid blue fly started to get my attention. - "Hey Listen! Although I don't understand everything you just did, I can say that it is sowhat surprising!" - Praising myself won't make hate you less.
"Just shut up, I'm late for work" - King of the Harem or not, I'm still a construction worker and I need to make a living.
"Hey Listen! Don't forget to open your system introduction pack!" - Navi started flying in front of so I can't ignore him, wait, is it him or her? It will be awkward if a man watches having sex.
"First of all, are you a man or a woman?" - Navi stopped and backed away.
"I have no gender so forget your sick fantasies, we are companions but I will not enter your harem" - Navi spoke with a tone of contempt.
"My tastes are normal, don't treat like a degenerate!" - I hit Navi like a ping pong ball.
Ignoring Navi's claims, I opened the starter pack.
[Starter Pack: Beginner Dinsional Travel Ticket x1, Access to Energy with Higher Affinity: Rasen no Chikara (Spiral Power) (1%), Manual: Ryusui Gansai-ken (Fist of Water Flowing Crushing Rock), Ability: Lucky Pervert (1%)]
Ugh, my head hurts ...
A series of instructions to train a strange martial art similar to Tai Chi appeared in my mind.
My chest started to ache as I felt my blood start to burn from a type of energy circulating under my skin.
I hurried out of the motel and ran into an alley to hide. I am used to preventing others from seeing in a state of weakness, which has saved my life many tis.
"They are going to fire for missing work ..." - Little by little I lost consciousness while muttering my complaints, if I survive this shit I will hit Navi.
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