[Oh my God! I don't know what to do. Jack was in a car accident... because of ! What do I do? The doctor said it's serious, maybe life-threatening. They won't let see him. I'm so scared.]
[Jack is finally about to be discharged. He's okay, but he shattered his left leg. No more strenuous activity. His basketball career is over. I feel so guilty.] This part confused . I understood Lily's guilt and how Jack's sacrifice might explain her lingering feelings for him. But how did he risk his life for her? Was it planned, or a genuine accident? Even if Jack had been plotting to win Lily over from before she arrived in the States, this seed extre. I was baffled.
[Jack was discharged yesterday, and I finally got a call from my parents. They said they had made a mistake and offended soone powerful, but it should be resolved soon. Both of my biggest worries are easing up. Last night was...special. We had a few drinks to celebrate Jack's recovery, and one thing led to another...we kissed. Should I consider him my boyfriend? Maybe it wouldn't be so bad.] It was Lily's third month in the U.S., and Jack finally made his move. It was really frustrating. Reading Lily's innocent words in her diary, my heart ached. Such an amazing and lovely girl, why did she have to face so many setbacks?
[The first ti I saw a man's penis! It was so long and dark, and warm. I didn't...like it, but Jack asked to...use my mouth. It wasn't uncomfortable, but I felt so embarrassed. The salty white stuff that ca out was...weird.] I looked at the date, and it had only been a week! This was too fast. Lily gave Jack a blowjob so quickly. Even though I knew this would happen sooner or later, seeing Lily's words made feel jealous. The later parts of the diary were even more explicit.
[Jack's penis was inside . My first ti. I'm only twenty; is this too soon? He's so big, it hurt a little. Jack is so passionate, almost wild, in bed. Like a different person. He often keeps up all night, which is kind of exhausting. And he...finishes inside . Will I get pregnant? I'm a little worried.] Damn it! Just two weeks later, Lily had already been physically taken by Jack, even being played with all night! How could Lily have been so casual? Thinking about this made feel blocked, but sohow my cock got hard.
The next four months were blank. Apparently, Lily and Jack were too busy having sex.
[Christmas is coming, but things have been pretty rough lately. Jack hasn't had any luck finding a job, so he's been in a bad mood. I got another call from my parents; their situation seems serious. I've cried a few tis, but I have to be strong for them. Lately, Jack has been acting strangely, accusing of being unfaithful, and not being...pure. Did he hear sothing? Last night he was so rough, he even made bleed. Then he brought up his suspicions again, and we had a huge fight. I hit him, and he broke things. This was our first fight. I don't know what to do.] This seed to be a turning point in Lily and Jack's relationship. Hardship, sure, but why was Jack suspicious? What was Lily afraid he'd heard? These weren't clear. Seeing that Lily was hurt by that jerk made feel sorry for her. If Jack really loved Lily, why would he do this?
[Jack found out about that thing. He helped , and I don't know how to repay him, but he used such harsh words to scold and even hit . I don't know whether I should hate him.] About two months later, there was another short and vague diary entry. What exactly happened? If it was sothing terrible, why hadn't anyone else heard about it?
For the next two months, there were scattered notes without dates and specific content, just Lily's chores and feelings.
[I still can't believe it. Jack betrayed for a married woman. Now, I understand... I'll never have his love. I'm just...a way for him to...relieve himself. I owe him so much, and he's hurt so badly. He wanted to move to Boston with him, but I refused. I think we should break up.] This was the last diary entry. Lily and Jack's relationship lasted about a year. Calculating the ti, it should be about three months before I t her.
Although these scattered diary entries gave so insight into Lily's past experiences in the U.S., "that thing" was still unclear. I guessed it must be sothing important. Was it about her studies? Money? There were no clues.
The only certain thing was that during that ti, Lily had been repeatedly and roughly taken by Jack. After reading the diary, it didn't resolve my confusion but made feel more regret, jealousy, and discomfort.
I didn't read the diary fragnts again. I threw them into the toilet and forcefully pressed the flush handle. The diary's content gave a headache. I decided to forget about it for now and cherish my ti with Lily.
So I imdiately left ho, jumped into my car, and decided to go to campus to find Lily. I believed that seeing her beautiful face and radiant smile would instantly improve my mood. Lily said she had a eting with her advisor to discuss so issues, which should be over soon. But since she hadn't contacted yet, she must be delayed. It was a good ti to go to campus to find her.
The weather was nice that day. Through the car window, I saw many girls jogging in the park, wearing shorts and tank tops, showing off their hot bodies, which was quite refreshing.
When I arrived at Lily's college, I was a bit surprised because Lily and her advisor were still discussing sothing in the office. I checked my watch; it was already past 2 PM. How long had they been talking?
[A/N]
if there is any of you dissatisfied with the novel don't worry I just want to go far so more and it's goanna be revenge ti
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