I had always been weak.
I was extrely weak, not physically, but ntally.
Saying that I felt self-conscious, would that be sowhat easier to understand.
The thing that Im most afraid of in this world was interacting with other people.
And, I hated myself the most.
I had always wanted to be manly, but recently, I have gotten used to being mistaken as a girl.
Its not sothing I should be used to.
Although I did not seem like a man, I had soone whom I admired.
Asahina Kyrousuke-kun who was in the sa class as , and the sa kendo club in which he had been the ace since he was a first-year student.
I t Asahina-kun when I was in junior high.
I, who could not reject the enthusiastic invitation to the club when I enrolled into my junior high school, joined the kendo club as a beginner.
TN: Junior high is like middle school, the grades between elentary and high schools. Starting from junior high, after the enrollnt ceremony for the new students, various clubs would put up tables not unlike a fair, to recruit new mbers.
Even now, I still think that Im a beginner, but I hated the parts of that I was self-conscious about, and wanted to fix it.
If I did so type of sports, or so type of martial arts, wouldnt I gain so self-confidence.
That was what I had believed at the ti.
the result was as you could see.
Fortunately, the junior high kendo club was, if I may say so, not that strong, and for the girls, there was only one person who had practiced kendo since elentary school.
The training was one that I, who had no stamina, could barely keep up with, and there were not many people in the club, so in the fall of my first year, I competed in the championship match for the first ti.
As the one who competed fourth in the team competition, I matched up against Asahina, a first-year student who beat a third-year student in the individual match that was held in the morning, in the first round of my first match.
My first match, shrinking from the reverberating sounds and voices within the gymnasium, I, who did not watch the individual matches, knew that Asahina-kun would be the victor when I was being comforted by my senpai.
A veteran who won the individual matches, and I who was a beginner at my first championship ga, the outco was clear as day, and ten seconds hadnt even passed since the match began when two points had been taken and I lost.
This was probably what they called as fast as lightning, which was what I recall absentmindedly thinking.
When I ca back to my senses, I had bowed and left the ring. Standing next to my senpai, I took off my mask, and then bowed once again with my senpai who had finished their matches before I knew it.
TN: in any Japanese sports match, you would bow to the opponent before and after the ga. So here, Tsuda bowed once after his individual match with Asahina and then together with his team to signal the end of the match between his school and Asahinas.
The result was a crushing defeat.
My school couldnt even take a single point from our rival school, and was eliminated after the first match.
As the next match was about to begin, we quickly packed up our gear, not even having the ti to be frustrated over our loss, but at that ti, the substitute on Asahina-kuns team said this.
Theyre not even our opponents. If its like this, then wouldnt it be more worthwhile to have a match with elentary school students?
I rembered that when I heard these words, I fell into a blind rage for the first ti in my life.
Silent, my senpai next to were gnawing on their lips in frustration as well.
However, I did not say anything.
Even though I felt angry, my own self-conscious disposition put a stop to it and I couldnt even refute it.
I, who was not very good at speaking with other people, was quickly compelled to accept the situation.
I felt disappointed in myself, and hung my head.
You want to go up against elentary school students? Then, you can just quit the club and go to a nearby dojo, right.
Hearing those unexpected words, it was a matter of course for , but my senpai also lifted their heads with their jaws dropped.
Or rather, for so reason, the substitute was extrely surprised as well.
He wasnt scolding them; that person who rely spoke his mind had a strange look on his face, and was straightforwardly looking at the substitute.
Honestly saying what was on your mind, was sothing that required courage to do so.
I dont know about ordinary people, but at the very least, this was the case for .
Asahina-kun probably did not an anything by it, but it was a situation in which he may be hated by that person if one was careless, and I thought that Asahina-kun who straightforwardly spoke this thoughts was cool.
Ever since then, even though we were in different schools, I admired Asahina-kun who I sotis saw at the competition venues.
When there was soone who possessed sothing that you did not, people displayed two different reactions.
Envy and admiration.
I was the latter.
I wanted to be like Asahina-kun, and be able to directly say what I thought.
I wanted to be like Asahina-kun, manly.
I thought that it was presumptuous of to admire Asahina-kun, but even so, I couldnt stop that feeling.
Holding such admiration, I still had my shortcomings, but before I realized it, we were in the sa high school, the sa class, and the sa club.
Asahina-kun competed in the National Competition, so I thought that he would go to a kendo championship school, but when I saw Asahina-kun at the sa high school I went to, I was truly surprised.
TN: by kendo championship school, he ans a school that has a strong kendo team that can win championships and trophies
According to the rumors, it seems that the school was too far away from his house, so he didnt want to go.
Truly, thank you for recomnding this high school, my junior high horoom teacher.
I had no idea what he was talking about during mathematics, but his skill in choosing high schools was top notch.
In any case, I admired Asahina-kun.
Due to that natural airhead personality of his, every ti he spoke, he touched on others sore spots, which was sothing that I didnt comprehend, but maa, there was nothing I could do about that either.
I ca to this world with Asahina-kun, and I felt that the distance widened even further.
I was afraid every ti we were in combat, and despite the fact that my occupation was that of a knight, I was still working as the rear guard.
It may be that Satou-kun and Asahina-kun were too strong compared to the monsters, but I had never stood before a monster except that first ti in the Continent Dungeon.
No, that wasnt the case.
Although I said that I wanted to change the who was weak, in the end, ever since junior high, I hadnt learned anything nor did I change anything.
Even when I ca to this world, I took the easy way out and just had Satou-kun and Asahina-kun protect .
Thats why, I had found myself in such a predicant.
Tsukasa-kun!! Tsukasa-kun, dont move! Your wound will open!
I was the only one who was barely able to stand up.
Satou-kun was unconscious due to the heavy injuries, but even so, he was trying to stand up to protect us.
Ueno-san, who was frantically trying to stop him, also had an injury in her leg that couldnt be considered light, and couldnt run away.
The shield that I had equipped had shattered into tiny pieces just now.
And currently, we were surrounded by monsters that camouflaged as trees.
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