"When Mom said those words, did you know what I was thinking about on my way here?"
An Ning spoke, but without waiting for Mrs. Yan to respond, she continued on her own: "At first, when I knew that Mom agreed to let them take away, I was really disappointed in my heart. But then I thought about it and felt relieved. You and I depended on each other since I was small, and you cherished as your life, so how could you not love ? Even if you finally chose to let leave, it must have been for my own good..."
As An Ning spoke, Mrs. Yan was already sobbing uncontrollably.
Yet An Ning continued, "I understand you, but you must understand too.
They say a son does not fault his mother’s ugliness, and a dog does not mind the poverty of its ho. Even beasts know to feel grateful and repay kindness, let alone people.
Mom, do you think I would just unknowingly go to the capital city and then live well?
No, I wouldn’t.
Even if I wore fine clothes and ate exquisite delicacies, I would still worry about how my mother and younger brother are doing at ho, feeling the longing all my life but without any power to resist..."
"Ningning, don’t bla Mom..."
She didn’t know what she had done wrong, yet heaven wanted her to bear so much.
She really couldn’t bear it anymore.
She really just wanted to be free from it all.
In her youth, at her most desperate ti, An Bingfeng gave her hope.
She thought it was redemption, even though he was always indifferent to her, even though she was humble from the beginning, she was content.
Yet, An Bingfeng saved her, but then pushed her into the abyss with his own hands.
Only then did she understand that what she thought was happiness was just an illusion.
And regarding him, aside from a na, she knew nothing, even later when she wanted to search for him, she didn’t know where to start.
At that ti, if it weren’t for the young children needing her support, she wouldn’t have been able to hold on.
At first, she still held on to hope while waiting.
Always believing that even if he didn’t like her, they still had children.
Maybe one day, he would rember her and An Ning and return to this place.
For a whole 10 years, from hope to despair, from anticipation to numbness.
She herself had already given up, treating him as just a dream of her youth.
Yet why did he have to return at this ti?
Even though his purpose was An Ning, and had nothing to do with her, he didn’t even want to show his face, only ordering people to take An Ning away.
Yet after so many years, hearing his na again still made Mrs. Yan unable to breathe.
"You are the person I am closest to, I will never bla you. But Mom, can you promise not to think about An Bingfeng again?
The capital city may be prosperous, but it’s not our world, just like An Bingfeng and us, we are people of two different worlds..."
"An Ning, how could you think like that, he is your biological father!"
An Ning: "But in my heart, he doesn’t even make feel as close as a stranger!"
Pah!
An Ning hadn’t expected this slap to suddenly co her way.
She did have a chance to dodge it, but she didn’t want to dodge.
"Ningning..."
Even Mrs. Yan herself didn’t expect that she would actually strike her most cherished child.
It was just that, as she watched An Ning belittle An Bingfeng, it was unbearable to her, and she couldn’t control her hand!
As Mrs. Yan, heartbroken, wanted to step forward and hold An Ning, An Ning had already stood up from the bed.
Towards Mrs. Yan, she couldn’t tell if it was heartache or disappointnt she felt.
Or maybe, she had already anticipated this scene long ago.
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