Marinette (Sun-hee)'s POV
There was a ti when Marinette asked a boy who appeared on the other side of the iron bar in the darkroom she was locked in.
To her, he was everything. Every ti that boy ca to the backyard, he always ran toward the iron bar which was the only window for Marinette to look at the outside world.
He talked about his life, his happiness, his suffering, she listened to all of it.
But to the boy, she was just soone who he could relate to. In the end, he used her and kept her in the dark.
If she didn't leave the basent, she will always be his and no one else's.
But out of a sudden, Marinette finally got out of the basent. She was thrilled, the first thing she did was run and find that boy who she thought she could help because, in her perspective, he was such a miserable boy whose father abused him every day.
But the first day she t him in the outside world, it turned out everything was a lie.
"Marinette...wait...listen to ." he grabbed her hand which eager to shake his hand off. She didn't look at his face because she was busy turning back hiding her tears, she turned away from him.
"Don't...say anything...I need so ti." the excuse she made up to leave him forever, she shook his hand off and left him forever.
In the story, after that Duke Asher moved on and fell in love with Diana. The next ti they t, they were just a stranger and nothing less and nothing more.
My heart was aching at every second after I left him, it felt like a thorn had been stuck inside my heart. It felt really terrible.
The sun was already down, I walked to the roof through the window.
It felt really refreshing up there sitting on the roof of the house, I could see everything even the royal palace from that height.
Little by little, I felt like I lost myself bit by bit. Sun-hee, the high schooler was already drifting away every minute, it seed like my existence started to disappear.
In my eyes, the beautiful scenery of this capital of this world was only the fantasy before I really died.
One day I disappeared from this world also, I'll just leave silently just like how I got into the world.
On the first day I woke up in this world, I could already see the ti limit in front of for how long I'll stay in this world because the body wasn't mine, and I didn't deserve anything belonging to Marinette.
[Ti Remaining until Sun-hee is deleted: 1XX days.]
I got at least three months before I'll disappear. Marinette will be back, I hope she will have her happy ending.
I didn't want to get my feeling attached to any of these characters in this novel, because once I did, there was nothing except tragedy awaited .
Haa...
The grape juice I brought along with was really delicious. I read Marinette's diary while drinking the grape juice from one bottle to one bottle.
I couldn't finish reading Marinette's diary since every ti I read it, I couldn't move on from one page to one page.
There was so page ruined because of so liquid, I knew for sure what it was. It was her tears dropping on it while she wrote it.
I rest my head on the roof reading the diary, it felt like reading Marinette's life in it.
I never had a chance to write sothing like a diary back then, because I couldn't imagine how I would feel if the future read it.
Will the future cry? Or will the future smile while reading it since I endured all of those sufferings?
In the end, I died in the accident. I wasn't sure about dying but if I survived, my body might be in a coma and my leg will be crippled since back then I couldn't feel my leg at all.
There was that guy who was crying over , I wondered what happened to him.
Even if I died, he might be griefing over for one or two days and then move on. And for my father, I thought he might not even care since he hated that much.
My eyes beca teary, my lip was shaking, I covered my eyes with the diary.
'He won't miss ...'
I never had anyone to comfort when I cried, when I was depressed, the only one that comforted was my pillow which always soaked with my tears, and the blanket which I used to cover myself from the cruel world.
I didn't have any love interest to comfort like the female lead--
"I was looking for you everywhere, why are you here??" the voice of that guy took out by surprise, I couldn't notice him thus my tears were still flowing on my face.
I heard him taking a deep breath, I could sense his starting toward .
"She's already asleep?"
I wasn't!
Why was he here out of a sudden? Wasn't he supposed to be staying at the hospital?
Suddenly, he laid down beside , I could feel our shoulders touch each other at that mont.
"Why are you crying?" that tenor voice coming out of his mouth struck deep into my mind, just when I was relieved for him not noticing crying.
"So dust got into my eyes."
"I see. Did you co here to look at the sunset?"
"It was already set when I arrived." he giggled.
"I heard what happened today, are you still hurt anywhere?"
"It's bearable."
He chuckled and got up sitting. By the ti he did that, I already wiped all my tears from my face, I got up sitting beside him.
"I'm sorry I failed my duty as your knight letting you get hurt like that."
"What are you saying? You weren't there because you were at the hospital."
"Still..."
His tone and all his actions confused , I looked at his eyes which were shown feeling guilty, I tapped his shoulder lightly.
"I am used to that, stop assuming everything is your fault."
"..." he stared at for a bit and then turned his head to the other direction quickly.
Later, he muttered, "Thank you for taking to the hospital."
"Huh?"
I giggled rembering how Aurora picked him up and carried him like a princess back then. He was too adorable and precious.
"I wasn't the one--"
"But it was strange, how did you take there? And when I asked soone, they're chuckling instead of telling ."
I also chuckled when I listened to him.
"What happened really??" his cheek started to turn red just like his hair.
"The thing is...it was Aurora who carried you."
"For real?"
I nodded, "Yes, for real."
"But how?"
"There is a newspaper in my room, I'll show you when we get back."
We were sitting there together on the roof, the sky was starting to get darker and darker as ti went by.
And I was also starting to feel tipsy, I didn't know the reason why.
"Want so?" I gave him the grape juice.
"I didn't know you drink wine."
"What? This is juice, the head chef told that."
"But..." he took a close look at the bottle and turned his head at smirking.
"This is wine, it is an old wine at that. It said 100 years old over here."
"You gotta be kidding ."
I thought it was the na of the juice.
"You drink the rest."
It was already the last bottle and I just knew it then.
My head feel a little dizzy, and my eyes were all drowsy.
"Let's get back inside, you might catch a cold."
"Just a little while, let stay here."
I almost finished reading Marinette's diary anyway, there was only one more page left.
On the last page, there wasn't anything special. There was not a single thing about who Marinette loved although I really wanted to know that.
But when I looked at the love interest by my side, I also wondered who he loved too. His feeling wasn't described clearly in the novel.
The reader only assud he was Diana's love interest because when he beca Diana's knight later in the story, he could do anything for her even if it ant losing his life.
"Why're you staring at like that?"
"Do you have anyone you like?"
"Why do you want to know?"
"Nothing. I was curious."
"I don't have anyone at the mont."
"Seriously?"
"Yes, yes. I'm your knight, I have no ti for sothing like that." his hair was flowing along with the air when he tried hard to look cool looking at the sky.
"Have you ever had soone confess to you before?"
"...there were only love letters though."
"Of course you have, you're a popular man after all." I muttered experience being drunk for the first ti.
"What about you?"
"I had one though."
"???"
I looked at his surprised face. I forgot I was Marinette, she just ca out of the basent a while ago, how could soone like her have soone confessing to her.
"My apology, I was rude." he noticed his surprised face of knowing I had soone who loved might offend , Flynn apologized.
"Don't mind it. But that person only confessed to and then disappeared the next day without hearing my reply."
His na was Ye-Joon, it was the first ti soone ever ca up to and confessed their feeling in my past life.
"If he waited, what were you going to reply?"
"Who knows."
But if it was at that ti, I might accept his love. I really didn't rember much about it at that ti because it was only the painful mories.
And around that ti too, my friendship with Eun-Kyung ended.
There was another person before that guy too who had feelings for , it was around the ti when I was still a first-year.
It was at the back of the school, I accidentally overheard the conversation between that guy and Eun-Kyung.
Eun-Kyung was my friend way before that although I knew the reason why she befriended , I tried to pretend I didn't care because she was the only person I had. I wasn't lonely because of her.
But...
"She won't love you, if I know you confessing to her tomorrow, I won't let you get away." those were the words she said to that guy.
I couldn't believe what she just said, and again I tried to turn a blind eye for that matter because our friendship was more important than my feeling.
But when the second guy confessed to , I replied to him to give so ti because I wasn't sure of my feeling and I didn't want to hurt soone else's feelings toward .
But who would have thought Eun-Kyung would do such a thing to ...
"Leave the school, I don't know what your feeling about her is but you can't love her."
"That is her life, you have nothing to do with her."
"She's not rich as us, she's poor, her father abused her every day..." I couldn't stand hiding in the corner listening to her any longer, I just left.
I never talked to her again after that day. And ti passed, we beca strangers again.
On the purple roof,
Marinette was asleep as soon as she said that, when she was sleeping, she let her guard down and the barrier around her dropped too.
When I looked at her from behind, it always felt like there was a barrier surrounding her. That barrier was like a bubble, although it could break at any mont. When I looked at her, the bubble won't break, it always created a distance between us.
She won't let anyone in it, her tone when she asked who I liked was simple, it was just out of curiosity but little did she know, it was such a difficult question for to answer.
Your face without your mask was pretty even with the scar you had, it was the first ti I saw you without the mask.
Your expression when you were talking to , just by hearing it my heart was throbbing.
Why did I feel like you'll disappear at any mont after saying that? If you disappear, my mission to look over you will finish and I didn't have to pretend to be a knight like this too.
I was starting to wonder, 'Do I really want you to disappear?'
To be continued....!
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