TL: looloo
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I rember it as the happiest trip of my life.
Before the accident, when I was dating him, my feelings were gradually intensifying. That's why I had never been on an overnight trip like this before.
We had only been on day-long dates several tis.
This was our first trip together.
It was a chance to newly confirm his feelings.
The slowly shrinking distance between us suddenly advanced, feeling as close as before.
How can I express this joy welling up from deep within my heart?
I still tremble when I think about the ti our lips t.
Although I regretted not going further, I could fully understand it, as Yeonho had decided on it after considering our future.
I knew I was too eager to start many things too soon.
However, I wanted to start getting understanding from my parents for the future, without putting brakes on my heart. So, I was telling them everything about Yeonho, even the trivial things.
Sotis I felt a bit embarrassed, but it was all for Yeonho and to beco a family as soon as possible.
"Ah, Yeonho is so thoughtful."
"Hmm.. I see."
I felt sorry for Yeonho, but I even talked to my parents about why he didn't want to have sex.
Mom was disappointed, and Dad, initially shocked by my intentions, was eventually pleased.
Since we were high school students and still young, Dad was a bit upset about us staying in the sa room, but knowing Yeonho, I assured him that nothing would happen.
Even so, when the ti ca, I did think about sex, but it was Yeonho's decision to refrain. It seed to have made a good impression on Dad.
With the mood going well, I cautiously laid another plan.
"When I go to college and start living alone, can I live with Yeonho?"
"Oh my, our Heena is really into him. I approve! I liked him the mont I saw him."
"Yes, like Yeonho said, after graduation, you'll be an adult. Think and decide for yourself. If his parents agree, we'll support you."
Hearing this, I realized that Yeonho was right all along.
Their easy permission must be because Yeonho had honestly shared his thoughts and feelings with them.
However, the reaction in the KakaoTalk I had with Yeonho's mother afterward was different.
[Yeonho's Mom: I heard about it. I'm sorry. I didn't know my son was so timid.]
I thanked her for her sympathy and brought up the topic in advance.
[Heena: Later, when I start living alone, is it okay if Yeonho often stays with and takes care of things?]
[Yeonho's Mom: No need to bother like that. If your parents are okay with it, just live together.]
I expected getting permission for living together to be difficult since it's different from just dating and being intimate, but it surprisingly went smoothly.
Now, all that's left is to wait.
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After the trip, I feel even closer to him, just like back then.
Sure, expressing love and caring for him was great, but playing pranks and being a little petulant with him, like before, also ward my heart.
"Have fun. Even though I'll be alone, you should enjoy yourself."
I no longer worry about getting even a bit of resentnt from him.
Even though it might not be the sa intensity yet, I know he's also growing his love for .
"Heena."
"Yes?"
"I love you."
"...Pfft, does he know?"
Each word he playfully says.
How much it stirs my heart.
He probably doesn't know, so I play a bit more coy.
"So, you're leaving your loving girlfriend to hang out?"
I'm sorry for being such a troubleso girlfriend, Yeonho.
But still, I hope you love .
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"......."
There was no reply from Yeonho on KakaoTalk for several hours.
I knew from our college days that he sotis got absorbed in gas, but despite knowing this, I started to feel uneasy.
What if sothing had happened to him?
Although it was a fleeting thought, once it crossed my mind, I couldn't stay still. I imdiately contacted his mother to find out his usual hangouts and left the house.
Arriving at the PC room in a rush, I thankfully found him chatting loudly with his friends.
I was about to leave, relieved, when I overheard his friends' voices.
"Let's go to the beach and try to pick up girls together!"
I froze at those words. I couldn’t leave. I knew Yeonho would never do that, and as I approached, drawn in, I heard him dismiss their nonsense.
But the montary thought of Yeonho talking to another girl turned my heart to mud.
"Are these your friends, Yeonho? Hello?"
Unable to hold back, I revealed myself and joined them, giving a not-quite-warning to his friends before talking to Yeonho.
"I'm not mad, you know."
I said that, but I sulked with a hardened face, not responding properly.
I knew Yeonho hadn’t done anything wrong, but my emotions wouldn’t cooperate.
I wasn’t bothered by him being late to reply because of a ga. I knew he loved gaming and, although I was worried, it was sothing I could understand.
But the re words 'picking up girls' from his friend's mouth, imagining him with another girl in my head, made irrationally angry over sothing that hadn’t happened.
It was so foolish and dumb. To hide my own silliness, I unfairly nagged Yeonho to calm myself.
"You'll reply quickly next ti, right?"
I always wanted to show him my true feelings, but I couldn’t confess my honest thoughts right now.
Still, feeling this mont of his apology as an opportunity, I took his phone and installed a couples app.
I had wanted to install it for a while but hadn’t dared to say it, fearing it might seem too clingy or annoying.
Now, I could know where Yeonho was at any ti.
Only then could I properly greet his friends.
I’m sorry.
For not being able to speak honestly, and for childishly being spiteful.
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On the way back, I made plans with Yeonho for a date at the zoo. Since we hadn't been to the zoo together before, I was really looking forward to it.
Then, I handed him a wish coupon, filled with my little desires.
"Okay, it's simple. When I do this," I said, touching my finger to my face, "you have to kiss there. Anyti, anywhere. No matter who's around, you have to do it."
It was a wish brimming with my own selfishness. I hoped this would help Yeonho beco more comfortable with kissing.
If this could make him less shy about kissing.
If it beca natural for him to kiss all day.
If his lingering scent stayed on my lips, forehead, cheeks, and nose.
If my face ended up a ss with his saliva.
Ah─
Just the thought of it ignites a fla inside .
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The next day.
With a heart full of excitent, I left the house, t Yeonho, and imdiately started the 'date rules' for the day.
Yeonho naturally kissed my cheek, but it was too fleeting for my liking, so I added a 'three-second rule' on the spot.
Feeling his kiss linger longer on my cheek filled with satisfaction. I indulged myself in these sowhat dark desires of mine.
Having received all the kisses I had ever wanted from him, could I be any happier?
After getting off at our destination, filled with kisses, Yeonho looked for his lip balm because his lips were dry. Seizing the opportunity, I went outside to a discreet place.
I wanted to receive the kisses that seed too precious for the subway in a quiet spot.
-Tap tap.
I applied the lip balm for him, and he imdiately followed the kissing cue we had started on the train. However, he only gave a brief three-second peck. It was nice, but...
No.
It wasn't enough.
I pulled him closer, our tongues entwined. Unlike at the beach, he responded, his tongue playfully colliding with mine.
I didn't want to miss a thing about his lips, his saliva. Although I could feel him getting short of breath, I couldn't let him go.
I didn't want to suppress the excitent in my body.
After hungrily kissing him for tens of seconds, I finally let him go.
Despite struggling with my aggressive kisses, he imdiately took out a tissue and handed it to .
I reluctantly wiped it off, more lip balm than saliva on it, and then turned around to tidy up around my mouth.
And as soon as I turned back, I wrapped my arms around his neck and gave him one more short kiss.
How he gradually got used to my kisses and learned to show various considerations for was so endearing.
"I love you, Yeonho."
"Yeah, I love you too."
Confirming our love for each other, I worried I might lose my mind in the surging passion.
I felt like I could die right now without any regrets.
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We walked hand in hand through the zoo under the umbrella Yeonho had brought.
Thinking about it, it seed we had never t on a rainy day. I was glad to experience the feeling of being under one umbrella together, at least now.
Under the shade of the umbrella, it felt like ti had stopped, and it was just us existing there.
From the entrance, Yeonho ntioned he wanted to see the red pandas, but he didn't seem too interested in the other animals. However, once he actually saw them, his eyes shone with excitent and admiration.
I started to enjoy the zoo more because Yeonho, fascinated by the animals, looked so adorable.
But that thought faded quickly.
"Crazy. The erkats are so cute..."
"It's so cute too...!"
"I bet the Arctic foxes would be super cute..."
I agreed that the animals were cute. I shared the sa feelings towards cute animals.
However, I didn't like that Yeonho was calling those animals, not , 'cute'. He did it repeatedly throughout our walk.
My annoyance began to fade while eating a hotdog, especially when Yeonho licked off the ketchup from the corner of my mouth.
"Ye... Yeonho, why... why would you... do that?"
His unexpectedly cute action left in a daze. My body trembled because I felt an overwhelming urge to pounce on him.
I had to restrain myself. There were still over 570 days left.
Suppressing my desires with a heavy heart, Yeonho continued to call the animals 'cute'.
There I was, enduring all this.
Obediently kissing like a puppy according to the rules I set, and he even licked off the food from my mouth.
Why was he only calling those animals cute?
My jealousy reached its peak when we finally saw the red panda Yeonho was eager to see.
"I want to take a red panda ho... I want to live with one... I want to live with a red panda..."
Live with it? Not with , but with that raccoon-like creature?
I boiled with anger but decided to ask him one more ti.
"Hey, Yeonho. What do you prefer: sexy, pretty, or cute?"
"Cute."
Ah, I see.
"...So you really like cute things that much, huh?"
Then I'll show you. I can be cuter than that, right?
Although I had never really acted cute in my life, and the only ti I tried was in front of Yeonho.
Driven by jealousy and desire, without thinking properly, I blurted out the first thing that ca to mind.
"Heena wants a kiss!"
And imdiately after, I wanted to die of embarrassnt.
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Even though I was teased for my comnt, when I was about to cry from embarrassnt, Yeonho quickly comforted .
Especially when he restrained my arm while trying to take his phone, which had my pictures, and kissed various spots on my face while holding my cheeks.
I couldn't stay angry or feel embarrassed anymore.
Could he keep doing it?
I even liked this overpowering feeling.
If he would kiss like this for the rest of the day, I would be so happy.
After the kiss, when he held and repeatedly called the cutest in the world, my heart lted. Eventually, I even gave in to Yeonho's request to repeat that embarrassing line.
"Hee...uhh... Hee, give Heena a chu..!"
"Pff, hahahaha!"
For the first ti, I saw Yeonho burst into laughter. I tried to hide my embarrassnt by hitting him, also a first for .
I thought it was really too much this ti, but when he enticed with the promise of taking sowhere secluded for a kiss, I pretended to give in.
Then, just like before, he gave a series of short kisses on the lips, looking into my eyes up close between each one.
I felt dizzy with exhilaration.
What should I do?
Can I really hold back?
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As we walked a bit further, we talked about pets, cleaning, and even living together.
It seed Yeonho hadn't fully considered these things yet, but I hoped that planting these ideas in his mind now would make them clearer with each passing day.
Regarding college, I thought it would be nice if we could attend the sa university, but honestly, I felt Yeonho didn't necessarily need to go to college.
That was my sincere belief.
I planned to study and even earn a living, so I wished he would just quietly wait for at ho.
I couldn’t crush Yeonho’s potential and career path because of my selfishness, so I didn’t voice these thoughts.
But I did alleviate his worries about getting his parents' permission.
"I thought you told my mom we were moving in together..."
"She said it's fine as long as our parents agree."
"......"
He made a strange face when I said they had given their permission.
Even so, he pondered about the days that might co.
"It’s far off if it really happens, but it would be nice."
"To live with ?"
"Yeah. I’ll do the cleaning and laundry, so you just relax."
He said sothing so adorable.
I was happy to hear that, but I sincerely wanted to do everything for him.
I wanted to see Yeonho in a house I cleaned, wearing clothes I washed, eating food I cooked.
"I'll take care of everything. You just focus on your gas!"
"Huh..."
He dramatically showed his emotion to my declaration.
-Tap tap.
"You know?"
I received another kiss. This ti, several tis on various spots on my face.
His unhesitating actions made feel that today's date was very successful.
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After visiting the zoo, we moved to a café near my house. I like this café because it's in a corner, away from other people's gaze, which makes Yeonho more proactive.
Even here, we revisited our earlier discussion topics.
We talked about the house we'd live in if we moved in together and having just one bed for the two of us.
While talking about the bed in a suggestive tone, I noticed Yeonho's body stiffening, so I felt the need to ease his mind a bit more.
Then the conversation shifted to his military service.
"I'm worried too... What will I do every day when you're in the army?"
"Yeah. There's a type of service called active duty where you can commute from ho every day."
"If we have even one child... it's possible."
I leaned on him and brought up these topics I had researched earlier, trying to create an intimate atmosphere.
This ti, he kissed imdiately and quickly changed the subject.
He ntioned eting his brother's partner, and I agreed. I had planned to et them eventually and rembered they were already engaged before I went back to high school.
Especially since his brother's partner would eventually beco my sister-in-law, it's good to get to know them in advance.
After discussing this and sipping lon soda, Yeonho started pulling on my cheeks.
I always welcod his playful actions, but just touching my cheeks felt insufficient, so I rubbed my cheek against his shoulder, thinking.
Yeonho.
I will always respect your heart and your choices.
Even if you hold out until graduation like now.
Or.
If you can't resist the temptations I give you.
I'll happily accept whatever cos.
You understand, right?
But rember this.
I will give it my all.
Author's Note:
It's not about 'Simply hand over the baby,' but rather 'Pure love,' because the protagonists are still high school students, and this novel is for all ages, wink.
Thank you so much to all the readers who always recomnd, show interest, and leave fun comnts! I love you so much, thank you!
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