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I started dating Yeonho again.
In my foolishness, I confessed without even revealing my na.
Yet sohow, my words reached him.
"To be honest, I like you too. Do you want to go out with ?"
That day, your slightly alcohol-fueled confession managed to resonate with , even if just a little.
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Since we started dating again, I've had many heart-to-heart conversations with Yeonho. Most of the topics were familiar, but the sheer joy of reconnecting and revisiting those monts with him was imasurable.
Your deanor now, compared to when we first dated after already having so history, is endearingly shy. The way you'd et my eyes only to quickly look away was utterly charming.
It felt as if I was discovering a side of Yeonho from before we t. Initially, this realization brought a tinge of loneliness, but the extended monts I now have with him have beco incredibly precious.
When we tried to capture a mont together in a photo, I noticed his stiffness, a clear sign of his nervousness.
In that first picture we took in this life, Yeonho was wrapped in evident awkwardness.
Yet to , that picture was an irreplaceable treasure, one I'd want to hold onto for a lifeti.
I couldn't resist making it my profile picture and, with a bit of playful coaxing, asked Yeonho to do the sa. After all, one never knows if there might be connections unknown to .
I wanted a picture that, at first glance, left no doubt we were a couple.
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On a Friday, filled with exchanged ssages, Yeonho and I had plans for a date on Saturday.
No matter how deeply two people are in love, seeing each other daily can be taxing. With this in mind, I decided we should take a day apart; I wouldn't visit, and I asked the sa of Yeonho.
Yet, in between classes, our brief chats persisted. rely a few hours in the evening apart, and I felt an overwhelming sense of emptiness.
Even though I had resolved to cut back on ssaging during study hours, holding back only made more anxious. Unable to resist and still in my school uniform, I found myself heading to Yeonho's school.
He was clearly surprised to see , given our agreent not to et. However, his warm, welcoming smile soon made feel at ease.
Deep down, I knew he wouldn't hold a grudge over such a small thing. But I also didn't want to risk any hint of annoyance from him.
With Yeonho, all I wanted was to be enveloped in love.
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Saturday had co.
The day of the date with Yeonho.
The mont I woke up, I felt on the verge of tears.
It's hard to recall now, but I rember:
The last date I had before I truly understood love.
And the date I tried to have after understanding love, the one I never got to have with Yeonho.
I wanted to erase all those mories.
Even if Yeonho didn't love yet,
I believed that with ti and my effort, he might.
But the thoughts lingered.
What if Yeonho doesn't show up at our eting spot again? Even as I put my utmost effort into getting ready that morning, I couldn’t steady my trembling nerves.
I ssaged Yeonho, but still felt anxious.
I knew he was coming by subway, but the uncertainty persisted.
I even thought of eting him at his place and setting off together. But taking that step felt like a decision I might never be able to shake off.
A car once took everything from my previous life.
Yet, it didn't leave traumatized.
For all it took away,
It led to a crucial realization.
It helped recognize my love for Yeonho.
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I arrived an hour ahead of our planned eting, eagerly waiting for him.
I wished you would co to see waiting.
I was sure Yeonho would also arrive early, so I gave myself so buffer ti. Amidst my anxiety, I found myself constantly checking my phone for about 30 minutes.
Then, he showed up.
Given that it's a place frequented by many awaiting their appointnts or just passing through, he moved at a leisurely pace, navigating through the ever-dense crowd.
You ca to .
This ti, we were able to et.
"Yeonho!"
Unable to hide my joy, I rushed to him.
I tightly held Yeonho's hand with both of mine, steadying my emotions. I felt that if I let my guard down even for a mont, tears would stream down.
Thank you, Yeonho.
For not being late this ti.
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Having safely t him, a weight was lifted from my shoulders.
As we chatted, he took my hand. Not interlocking our fingers, just in a plain way. A pang of longing hit a corner of my heart.
"Are you nervous?"
"Isn't this okay if we're dating?"
Yes, you reached out to that way. I'll strive just as much, if not more, than the efforts you've made.
I released Yeonho's hand and took it again, this ti with interlocked fingers.
"I like holding hands like this. Since we're dating."
Hearing this, Yeonho nodded in understanding.
Seeing the slight upturn of his lips, it was clear he was pleased. The brief knot of tension that had ford vanished instantly.
"By the way, I forgot to tell you earlier,"
"You look so beautiful today. I was genuinely taken aback when I saw you at the subway station."
His words, calling beautiful, painted a smile across my face.
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Holding his hand, we strolled through the streets, just the two of us.
While lying in the hospital, I dreamt of days like this. During my rehabilitation, I yearned for them even more.
All the efforts I had put in flashed before my eyes. Though there were many painful and challenging days, they only strengthened my feelings for Yeonho.
The sheer joy of walking with Yeonho in this mont was electrifying. I felt a deep urge to do anything for him.
"You know how much I love street food, right?"
"The sensation of eating these guilty pleasures is incredible."
"Heena! Try just one bite! Just one!"
As we passed the street vendors, I was reminded of the words you used to say. You absolutely adored them, while I was slightly hesitant because they felt unsanitary.
"Heena, our family used to vacation on the east coast every sumr. During the season, there are markets resembling open-air bazaars that pop up every other week. It's a treasure trove of delicious spots. Seriously, we should go together soday. You'll absolutely love it. It's cleaner than you'd think."
"Have you heard? There's a festival on the east coast during the sumr with incredible street food."
Truthfully, I didn’t know.
We never managed to go together.
But now, I want to. Imagining future conversations about beach trips, I was drawn to the street vendors that caught his eye.
At this point in my life, I was so focused on my studies that I saved most of the allowance I received. I rarely spent any money since my parents and brother would often buy costics and clothes.
So, I eagerly moved ahead, intending to treat him. While I knew that being too one-sided wasn't ideal, I simply wanted to do sothing for him.
Finding a bench, I took out a scarf I had packed and laid it out for him.
He seed pleasantly surprised by my gesture.
It's nothing big, Yeonho.
All these gestures, I learned them from you.
From soone who always put first and took care of .
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We visited an eyeglass store.
Although he doesn't currently wear glasses, I was aware that his eyesight wasn't the best.
There was no urgency to get him a pair right away. And if he did decide to, he wouldn't settle for a cheap pair. Proper lenses would undoubtedly co at a significant cost.
I could offer to pay, but he'd likely refuse.
"Should I buy one just for fashion?"
I smiled at your suggestion.
Seeing you wear the glasses I gave brought mories of the past. You looked so much like you used to.
I held back.
The sting at the corner of my eyes was concealed with laughter and joy.
After much thought, we selected a fra. But when he proceeded to pay, I concealed my disappointnt and requested the shopkeeper to use plastic fras.
He once ntioned struggling for a long ti because he didn't know he had an allergic reaction to tal fras when he first got glasses.
I'm just relieved we won't have that issue this ti.
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While wandering around the cinema, I walked into the arcade next door. It brought back a flood of mories.
I always visited this mall when I watched movies, stopping by this spot every ti while waiting.
Knowing I'd be uninterested in the smaller gas, I noticed a familiar basketball ga.
That ga you always insisted on playing just once while I stood by and watched, impressed by your skill.
After the accident, I regretted many things, but most of all, I regretted missing the opportunity to do things together with you.
Even after a seemingly successful rehabilitation, I couldn’t run as normally as others.
I wanted to experience all the things you loved.
So, for the first ti, ever, I stood beside you holding a basketball.
And I, too, grasped the ball with both hands. Though it might feel different from a real ball, I thought, "So this is how it feels."
You loved this ball so much.
And here I am, holding it for the first ti.
Feeling a bit lancholic, I threw the ball with all my strength. After a few consecutive successes, soone beside suggested we could play basketball together.
I thought it was a good idea.
Not a real match, of course, but I wanted to casually toss the ball back and forth on the court. After throwing it a few more tis, I felt a strain on my arm and soon noticed soreness in my shoulder. So I took a break, holding a basketball and watching you play intently from the side.
There you were, so focused in the ga, silent.
Surely, the you of my past mories and the present you seed quite different.
Because our relationship started at a young age, it didn't have the sa patience and leisure as before. The way you used to be so relaxed with , a close friend, had transford into the nervousness of a young man around his girlfriend.
Yet, still,
Your calm smile remained unchanged.
The face you made when you felt your attentiveness was lacking, when you tried hard to hide the corners of your mouth from turning up in joy,
And the serious expression you wore, a constant contrast to your usual jovial self, especially when you were so focused.
All of it was the you I loved.
No, in truth, you probably hadn't changed. We had just t early; this version of you was just the younger you, before turning twenty.
Tears I had been holding back since our first eting, since that visit to the eyeglass store, began to fall, dripping one by one onto the ball I held.
You were by my side.
The basketball you loved so much, the friends who were always around, the precious youthful days of your early twenties - all of it was in the past.
All of it was given up by you, and you had dedicated yourself to .
There you were, by my side, ready to relive those monts with .
The sudden realization, the gratitude I felt for this chance brought tears to my eyes.
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Stupidly, I couldn't hold back one last ti, causing Yeonho to worry. I ruined our plan to stay close until late into the night.
While I felt regret and sadness, I realized he was worried for and accepted his comforting words.
Before getting on the bus, I embraced him, committing to mory the feel of his body and the scent from his exposed neck. Honestly, I wished to be with him not just for that evening but the following day as well.
I yearned to experience everything I hadn't before, right at that mont.
However, I shouldn't rush. Even if my heart wanted to make those fleeting feelings a reality,
I knew that you had a penchant for romance, perhaps even more than I did.
So, I chose to hold back.
It might not be easy suppressing these desires, feeling him so close,
But it's for you.
On the day you feel the happiest in your life,
I wish to beco one with you.
Author's Note:
The "Heena" section turned out longer than anticipated.
I aid to add a bit each ti before switching subtitles...
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