Marcus’s POV
"I watched her break down," I manage, the words scraping against my throat like broken glass. "She wouldn’t stop saying sorry. As if any of it was on her shoulders."
Asher doesn’t rush to fill the silence. He settles across from , our knees brushing, creating a connection that feels solid without being suffocating. He waits. He always knows when to wait.
"I swore I’d keep her safe," I breathe out. The admission unlocks sothing buried deep in my chest that I’ve kept sealed tight. "I gave my word that protection actually ant sothing."
His hands rise slowly, framing my face with a gentleness that gives every chance to retreat. I don’t move away. His palms are warm against my skin, steady and intentional.
"You’re human," he says softly. "You don’t have to carry the world."
That’s the mont everything cracks open.
Not the sha.
The walls.
I collapse forward without conscious thought, my head finding the curve of his shoulder, breath finally escaping in ragged gasps. The sound that tears from my throat is raw, unexpected, like my body has been waiting for permission to stop pretending it’s invincible.
His arms co around .
Not crushing. Not hesitant.
Just there.
The monts blur after that. I can’t trace who moves first. Only that his hands shift from my face to my spine, certain and grounding, like he’s tethering to this room instead of the nightmare playing on repeat in my head. I catch the warmth of his breath against my hair. I notice how he adjusts beneath my weight without resistance, supporting rather than enduring.
When our lips find each other, it doesn’t happen in desperation.
It happens because it has to.
The kiss unfolds slowly, carefully, like he’s asking permission with every heartbeat. Heat builds between us, but it’s wrapped in sothing deeper, sothing that asks questions I answer by pressing closer, by gripping his shirt like it’s the only thing keeping grounded.
We move together without hurry. The world contracts to sensation and breathing and the quiet sounds we don’t bother to hide. There’s no frantic energy here.
No performance. Just the gradual deepening of intimacy, of being accepted in a way that doesn’t demand I be unshakeable. He reads my signals. I respond to his. We discover a pace that feels like mutual understanding rather than desperate flight.
When the wave peaks, it doesn’t wash away.
It brings back.
Like finally putting down a burden I’ve been carrying so long I forgot it had weight.
The tears start afterward.
Silent.
Drained.
They fall without announcent, dampening his shirt while the last of the rigid control leaks out of in shuddering breaths. I don’t break apart. I don’t crumble. I just weep against his chest, the sound muffled and completely unguarded.
He doesn’t try to stop .
He doesn’t promise everything will be fine.
He just lets it happen.
The light has dimd around us. The air feels different now, cooler sohow. My entire body feels hollowed out, like I’ve been fighting a tide I didn’t even realize was pulling at .
"I despise this," I whisper finally, voice hoarse. "Being this exposed. It’s agony."
His hold tightens fractionally, felt but not confining. Steadying.
"Being closed off costs more," he says simply.
The words sink in gradually, like they need ti to take root. The price of staying locked down. The price of treating every mistake like a debt that can never be settled. The price of believing that if I feel less, if I care less, sohow fewer people will suffer.
Being open hurts.
But staying closed costs everything.
I remain where I am, emptied and still, allowing myself this mont of being supported without calculating what it ans tomorrow or what price I’ll pay for it later. I don’t rebuild my defenses before the ache has finished moving through . I don’t strategize my next steps or transform the grief into determination.
I simply exist in this space.
And for the first ti since everything went wrong, the crushing weight lightens enough that I think I might be able to get back on my feet.
The silence stretches between us, comfortable now instead of heavy. Asher’s breathing has evened out, but his arms haven’t loosened. I can feel his pulse through his shirt, steady and reassuring. Outside, the world continues spinning, but in here, ti feels suspended.
"She trusted ," I add quietly, the words erging without my permission. "That’s what makes it worse. She looked at like I could actually protect her from everything."
"You tried," Asher murmurs against my hair. "That matters."
"Does it?" The question cos out bitter, sharp-edged. "When she’s still gone? When trying wasn’t enough?"
His hand moves in slow circles against my back, a rhythm that gradually syncs with my breathing. "It’s all any of us can do. Try. Care. Show up."
I want to argue with him, to insist that trying ans nothing without results. But exhaustion has settled into my bones now, making even disagreent feel like too much effort. The tears have stopped, leaving behind a strange emptiness that feels almost peaceful.
Maybe he’s right. Maybe the trying does matter, even when it fails. Maybe the caring counts for sothing, even when it can’t prevent the worst from happening.
I don’t know if I believe it yet. But sitting here, held and accepted in my brokenness, it feels possible.
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