Jayden POV
What have I done? I hurt her. I didn't imagine I could do that to her. It was too late. I should apologize. I have to tell her I still love her. But what if she leaves again? Loving her was not enough. She lied to and left despite the love I gave her. She won't be satisfied with just that.
"Try to slap again and that's not the only thing that will happen to you. I'm not the sa person as before. You made like this so bear with it."
Instead of telling her that I still love her, those words ca out from my mouth.
I could hear her crying. It was a silent cry but I could hear her breathing irregularly. It's breaking my heart. I couldn't look at her. I'm embarrassed. What would my mother say? What would she think of ? I'm now like those n who I hated the most.
She was still on the bed, she hasn't move there nor say another word. She was begging earlier but I couldn't control myself. I was mad. I hate and love her at the sa ti. My head was a ss. My heart was in chaos.
I saw fear in her eyes so I tried to avoid her and was about to leave earlier. But she suddenly grabbed by the shirt. I told her I will look for another girl but it wasn't really true. I wanted to see her reaction. When she suddenly slapped because I ntioned Missy, I snapped. I felt like darkness suddenly consud . Next thing I knew I already hurt her.
I turned my face to her. I felt like my heart was ripped out from my chest. She was a ss. Her hand was tied up and I could see that there are red marks on her wrists. Her clothes were torn. Her lips had a cut in the lower part and it was bleeding. There's a bite mark on his right shoulders. When I looked between her thighs, my eyes widened. There were spots of blood on the bed sheets.
I couldn't take it anymore so I stood up and carried her inside the bathroom. I know she was surprised. I could also sense that her body tensed when I held her. She was scared of .
"I'll help you clean up." I said in a gentle voice.
I don't even know if it would help or if it changes anything but I couldn't bear to see her like that.
I removed the belt from her wrists then she suddenly cried but this ti it wasn't silent anymore. I know she was trying not to cry loudly because Caden might hear her. I was still holding her when I sat on the toilet seat. I let her cry. She was making small punches on my chest. I just let her. I know it wasn't enough for what I did to her.
I pulled her closer to and tilted her chin up. Shit! Fuck my pride!
"I'm sorry." I said. Then she burst out crying.
What would my son think about ? His father made her mom cry. He will hate . Peggy might hate now because of what I did. I am starting to hate myself.
I kissed her on the forehead and hugged her tight.
"I'm sorry. I would never do this to you again." I murmured.
She hurt by lying to and running away from . But she didn't deserve this. I know she still loves , I could feel it. Our feelings are still the sa but I couldn't tell her. I am having a hard ti trusting her.
I stood up, carrying her into the tub. I was about to hold her in the face when he avoided my touch. I didn't say a word. I deserved to be hated by her.
"How could you do this to ?" She asked.
I didn't answer. I sat on the side of the tub. Maybe we should at least talk calmly.
"I'm sorry. I really am."
"I have never expected you to do this. Do I really deserve it? I know you're mad at . I know what I did was wrong but did it feel good hurting ?"
I took a deep breath.
"When you left , I thought I'm going crazy. I have never felt alone in my life. Dad and our friends were there to help but I felt like more than half of my life was taken from . Did you know I tried to kill myself? I wanted to die and tried to shoot myself in the head. Dad just saw and stopped . I went back to counselling and therapy, Peggy. I beca violent and couldn't control my anger so I needed it." I paused.
I know she was looking at , surprised. But she didn't say anything.
"You don't deserve it. What I did to you was wrong. I know that and I'm sorry. I was mad at you. I hated you. What do you expect? That I would be the sa person 3 years ago? You hurt , you just didn't know how painful it is for ." I continued.
I could hear her sniffles and sobs. She was still crying.
"I'm sorry. I'm sorry I hurt you. I got scared. You were so happy about the baby back then. When I found out about your mom and my father, I was heartbroken. I thought of what happened to you in Flousia. I couldn't bear to see you like that again. I'd rather choose for you to hate than seeing you on the bed like a corpse." She said in between cries.
I looked at her and she was hugging her legs. Her chin was on her knees.
I brushed my hand to her face. She didn't look back at . I know she's still scared. I could feel her body tremble when I touched her so I stopped.
"I won't force you to marry . I won't take Caden from you. I just want to see him always. Don't take him away from ." I said.
She finally looked at , confused.
"I'm letting you go Peggy."
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