Qin Qian learned about the matter between Gu Ningyi and Dong Xin Yan from Yuan Shen. She knew how much Gu Ningyi loved Dong Xin Yan, how many foolish things he did for her, she knew it all.
At that ti, she secretly marveled that the always aloof Gu Ningyi, who seed uninterested in won, could be so obsessed and crazy when he fell in love.
So, among the two possibilities she speculated just now, she leaned more towards Gu Ningyi getting hurt in an accident, injured his head or sothing, hence he didn’t rember Dong Xin Yan anymore, which was why he hadn’t contacted her for so long.
Who knew it would actually be the first one. Gu Ningyi completely gave up on Dong Xin Yan?
Could feelings that deep really be dismissed just like that? She didn’t believe it.
Because she herself was the best example, even if she was unwilling to admit it, the place in her heart that was hurt still harbored the person who gave her ten thousand tis more pain.
She and Yuan Shen had ten years, ten years she couldn’t sever her feelings, let alone Gu Ningyi and Dong Xin Yan for a re four months?
Qin Qian furrowed her brow, her expression serious, she thought for a mont, then slowly spoke, "Xinxin, did you tell Gu Ningyi that you didn’t marry Cheng Ziyang, and that you’ve been looking for him?"
"I did."
"Then what did he say?"
What did he say?
Involuntarily, Gu Ningyi’s distant and indifferent face surfaced in her mind, Dong Xin Yan’s heart ached intensely, "He said... he said, he knows, but my matters have nothing to do with him, besides, he’s no longer interested."
"You know? The way he looked at was not unfamiliar, but calm, calm when he saw , calm when he spoke to , and even calm when he left. If he treated as a stranger, pretended not to know , I could still comfort myself, thinking he hasn’t let go, hasn’t moved on, he still loves . But he’s so calm, so indifferent, as if I really didn’t matter anymore, Qianqian, what should I do? My heart aches so much, I feel so miserable, yet all this, I brought upon myself, I don’t even have the right to bla him..."
It was she who lacked the courage to step towards him back then, it was she who first let go of his hand, now that Gu Ningyi has truly let her go, how can she cry out in pain? Yet she still feels so sad, so sad...
"Xinxin, don’t be like this..."
Watching Dong Xin Yan’s cries of sorrow, Qin Qian’s heart also ached, "Back then, it wasn’t entirely your fault, you felt guilt, responsibility towards Cheng Ziyang, and there was the uncle forcing you with his life. At that ti, you didn’t have a choice. Anyone else in the sa position might not have done any better."
"No."
Dong Xin Yan shook her head, "I made the mistake, I promised him I wouldn’t say sorry to him, but I still did, I let him go so easily, so now, he’s let go too."
Gu Ningyi is just as he said, he would no longer stand where he was and wait for her, he would move forward, towards a life without her.
And she, was finally left standing where she was.
"Then Xinxin... will you give up?"
Give up?
No, she wouldn’t give up.
She said, she wouldn’t give up on Gu Ningyi anymore, it doesn’t matter if he doesn’t wait for her, she can chase him, at most... she will try a little harder, run a little faster.
Their people are right, no matter how wrong the ti, she will correct it back.
As Dong Xin Yan thought, she wiped the tears from the corner of her eyes with her hand, then clenched her fist tightly.
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