So things are put off for everyone’s good, so no one gets hurt, but so things, when postponed, are not only futile but can cause even greater harm.
She finds herself in such a situation now.
She was supposed to get the marriage certificate with Ziyang yesterday, then in a few days try on wedding dresses and take wedding photos, and in a little while, they would have to prepare the invitations. By then, everyone would really know they were getting married. But now, she still hasn’t decided whether she and Ziyang should continue...
So, she can’t delay, nor can she afford to.
Dong Xin Yan contemplated for a mont, realizing that prolonged pain is worse than short pain, what needs to be said has to be said. She took a deep breath, her hands slowly clasped together, and she licked her slightly dry lips unconsciously, "Ziyang... I, I have sothing to tell you."
Dong Xin Yan stamred as she began to speak, but she eventually got the words out.
A quick flash of panic flitted through Cheng Ziyang’s eyes, as if he hadn’t heard Dong Xin Yan speak, he interrupted first: "Xinxin, I know, given the way things are now, it’s not suitable to go ho for a al. Don’t worry, I will talk to mom properly."
Cheng Ziyang’s obvious evasiveness felt like a needle, harshly piercing Dong Xin Yan’s heart, her teeth bit hard on her lip, causing her voice to pause for half a second.
But that was just half a second; she has never been one to easily change her mind once she’s made a decision.
Besides, if she couldn’t follow through, why give false hope to others?
"Ziyang, listen to ..."
"Xinxin, I’m tired, can we talk another day? I’m leaving now."
Cheng Ziyang interrupted her without hearing her out, lost his composure for the first ti, stood up abruptly, grabbed his coat beside him, and started to walk out.
Dong Xin Yan’s bitten lip was almost turning pale, yet she forced herself to continue speaking to his retreating back, "Ziyang, I have rembered everything, all the mories of those two months. Including, my feelings for Gu Ningyi!"
Cheng Ziyang’s steps were nailed to the spot by her words, as if he was struck stiff and stopped in place.
Dong Xin Yan slowly stood up, stepped towards him, her voice trembling slightly, "Ziyang, I’m sorry, I know I’m selfish, I also know I’m being terrible, breaking up now is extrely excessive and should not be done, but Ziyang... I really didn’t expect that I was once fond of Gu Ningyi, very fond, very fond."
Word by word, Dong Xin Yan forced herself to articulate it clearly, no matter how difficult, she must make it clear.
What is the most painful thing in the world?
Is it not when the person you deeply love admits her feelings for another man in front of you?
The words he least wanted to hear, the situation he least wanted to face, ultimately happened.
The hands hanging at Cheng Ziyang’s sides gradually clenched tightly, his voice hoarse and trembling significantly, "Then... what about now?"
"Now, do you still like Gu Ningyi so much that... you can disregard our years of feelings?"
Cheng Ziyang had never questioned her before, this was the first ti, speaking so sharply, yet so helplessly and sadly.
He turned around, his dark eyes fixed firmly on Dong Xin Yan, watching her without blinking.
Dong Xin Yan was stunned for a mont; there was a fleeting instant when she couldn’t face Cheng Ziyang, couldn’t look into his eyes.
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