Recalling these distressing events again, it’s sowhat heavy for Nan Jiayan, but being able to talk to her and clarify things, he still feels a heavy load lifted off his shoulders.
After all, Lu Shishu is currently one of his biggest worries.
"Actually, I should have co back to find you a long ti ago." Nan Jiayan looked at her with so guilt, hesitated for about two seconds, yet still reached out to hold her jade-like hand resting on her leg, speaking with deep affection: "Shi Shu, I know it’s a bit late for to co back now to seek reconciliation, but I can’t let you go. Whether seven years ago or seven years later, my feelings for you have never changed even a little; liking you is true, wanting to be with you for a lifeti is true, there’s absolutely no falsehood in it. So... can you give another chance? Even if it’s just a chance to pursue you again, I wish you would give a chance. No matter what, I want to win you back."
The fact that she suffered emotional Pain because of him is an unchangeable fact, but after listening to his explanation, for so unknown reason, the resentnt in her heart towards him started to dilute and disappear little by little. She inexplicably felt a bit pained for him, as if he was abandoned by his whole world, how could she abandon him too!
Even though these thoughts filled her heart, she still didn’t make any move. Maybe the cold expression on her face had beco a habit over the years, now it was just that her gaze turned gradually softer when looking at him.
"Seven years ago, I searched for you, waited for you, cried for you, felt heart Pain, but none of those brought you back. Even if... even if you had sent a ssage saying breakup, I wouldn’t be resentful for these seven long years. Why didn’t you tell ? Why weren’t you willing to share with ? Why did you endure this alone? And why did you let endure this? You clearly confidently told that no matter what happens, you would stay by my side, never leave . You were willing to shield from the storm, and I believed you, yet you broke your word. Can you understand how I felt at that ti? Can you understand the Pain I’ve suffered in these seven years?" Lu Shishu remained silent for a long ti and then spoke with a flat tone, but by the end, her emotions clearly surged. Tears, unwilling to fall, circled stubbornly in her eyes.
Seeing her almost overflowing tears, Nan Jiayan suddenly felt a bit Pain for her but was secretly happy, his lips curving into a slight smile. He slowly raised his hand and gently caressed her face: "I’m sorry, it’s all my fault. I let you endure so much alone. I’m sorry, can you give another chance? Even a chance to pursue you again."
With so annoyance, Lu Shishu slapped away his hand, staring at him intently. There was a stubborn look on her face, a reluctance to compromise or surrender, yet the tears in her eyes made one feel both a bit Pain and an urge to hold her tight.
Nan Jiayan chuckled softly again, as if the Lu Shishu before him had returned to that cheerful and lively Lu Shishu from seven years ago, exclusively his Lu Shishu.
With a light pull on her arm, Nan Jiayan pulled her into his embrace, holding her tightly: "I swear, from now on, no matter what happens, I will never let go of your hand anymore, because... that kind of Pain, I don’t want to experience it again, nor would I have the heart to let you be sad and cry for again. Please trust , alright? Shi Shu."
"You said the sa thing seven years ago..." Lu Shishu’s voice was still calm, but the tail end clearly carried a few sobbing trembles, as though she was trying hard to restrain herself.
But hearing her trembling tone, Nan Jiayan tightened his embrace around her a bit more, smiled warmly yet Painfully: "This ti... I swear, if I let you down again, let lightning strike without regret, alright?"
"Let lightning strike... can’t you say sothing more auspicious? Let go... um..." At his fierce oath, Lu Shishu frowned with displeasure, but before she could finish her sentence, Nan Jiayan locked his gaze on hers with a tender smile and pressed his hand against the back of her head, bowed his head and kissed her red lips, stealing her breath away.
Lu Shishu froze for a mont, her pupils slowly expanding, her heart pounding fiercely twice, her whole body stiffening with uncertainty, making her feel like she was back in the honeymoon phase of her relationship with Nan Jiayan.
Despite that short-lived, sweet ti, it was an unforgettable precious mory for both of them.
In the following two days, Lu Shishu and Nan Jiayan’s relationship visibly ward up. Perhaps due to the resolution of misunderstandings between them, they beca significantly closer compared to before, almost like a couple.
Originally, it was a problem that could be explained with one sentence, yet they wasted over seven years of ti. To Nan Jiayan, it’s fatal and regretful.
What girls want is actually simple; it’s nothing more than a hug, a simple ’I love you’, or an explanation. They can let go of all unhappiness and the blockage in their hearts, but sotis, the boy’s inaction deepens these conflicts and gradually becos a Pain in the girl’s heart.
The seven years of stumbling they experienced couldn’t let them accompany and empathize with each other. However, Nan Jiayan knows that he can only use the rest of his life to compensate for the harm he caused her, and he’s also willing to exchange the rest of his life for hers, because it’s worth it.
Having resolved the misunderstandings with Nan Jiayan, Lu Shishu’s personality sowhat changed, becoming less cold than before, and the smile on her face carried more warmth.
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