AiLin was never aware of how good it would feel to watch the person you love to feel the gratification of pleasure and desire from her touches or kisses. It was her first ti knowing how much it made her feel elated to see how Li ZiChen groan as she took him inside her mouth. How he was the most honest when it cos to pleasure, his body jerking slightly forward while his hands that hovered over her head, hesitating to touch her head, hesitating to pull her deeper to feel her insides.
"Look upward," Li ZiChen whispered softly as he gently pulled her away from him. His dark eyes flickered with a mix of desire and affection as he examined her face. A light chuckle escaped his lips as he noticed the ss lingering on her mouth. Carefully, he wiped it away with his fingers, his movents slow and deliberate. Once satisfied, he leaned in, peppering her lips with soft kisses that were both teasing and tender.
"Doesn’t it feel strange in your mouth?" he asked, his voice low and intimate.
She shook her head, her cheeks slightly flushed. "Not really," she replied, her tone casual despite the faint embarrassnt flickering in her eyes. "Besides, I didn’t even take it that deeply."
Li ZiChen raised an eyebrow at her response, his loving eyes deepened. "Should I be worried about how much you seem to know about this?" he teased, a playful smirk tugging at the corner of his mouth.
Her eyes widened slightly, and she gave him a light smack on the chest, more out of flustered reflex than anything else. Clearing her throat, she straightened her posture, trying to compose herself. "For your information," she began, feigning an air of indifference, "it’s completely normal to know about these things. Back when I was in prison, the won there were very open about their experiences. One of them was a prostitute, and she shared... quite a lot with ."
Li ZiChen’s expression shifted slightly, softening as he listened to her words. He let out a quiet sigh and leaned closer, resting his head against her chest as if seeking comfort in her warmth. "I’ve always hesitated to ask," he murmured, his voice tinged with a faint regret. "How was it... when you were in prison?"
Her gaze flickered, her thoughts montarily drifting back to the ti she had spent behind those iron bars. A faint, bittersweet smile curved her lips as she lowered her hand to the back of his head, her fingers absentmindedly running through his hair. "It wasn’t as bad as you’d think," she said quietly, her voice steady despite the emotions swirling within her. "A lot happened there. There were fights sotis—misunderstandings that escalated. But to be honest... it was still better than being back in that house."
She didn’t need to elaborate. The re ntion of the house was enough for both of them to understand the weight of her words. The Jiang family, with all its cruelty and nightmares, was a Chapter of her life she could never forget. The prison, harsh as it was, had felt safer than the confines of that suffocating ho.
"Besides," she added with a lightness that seed almost forced, "my prison was oddly safe. I’d heard so many stories about dangerous and predatory prisons, but mine was nothing like that. I was lucky. Even the food was surprisingly good."
Li ZiChen chuckled at her sudden shift in tone, his earlier regret giving way to gentle humor. "The food, huh? That’s the most important thing to you, isn’t it? My AiLin and her love for eating."
Her heart skipped a beat at the possessive way he called her his AiLin. She tried to suppress the shy smile threatening to bloom on her lips, but the warmth in her chest was undeniable. She quickly diverted her attention, speaking to hide the flustered glow on her face. "Oh, and... whenever there were dangerous people who tried to bother , they would be moved to another prison the very next day. Sotis even the sa night. My luck was strangely good there. I always ended up with extra food and more breaks than anyone else."
Li ZiChen’s chuckle deepened, and he buried his face into her soft stomach, pressing his cheek against her warmth. He felt a surge of relief knowing the efforts he had made to protect her from the shadows hadn’t been in vain. His influence had ensured her comfort, even within the harsh confines of a prison cell.
"I wanted to bring you out of there," he said softly, his voice muffled against her skin. "Out of the prison, out of every awful place that ever hurt you. That’s why I’ll always regret being late to you, AiLin."
Her heart ached at the sincerity in his words, and she wrapped her arms around him, holding him close. In that quiet mont, the unspoken bond between them felt stronger than ever.
"Can I ask you what happened? No, I’m not blaming you, to be very honest I don’t rember what I did that night. I want to say that I had never killed anyone, that my hands are not dirtied by soone else’s life because I know that no matter what had happened, I would never bring harm to others because I was hurt." She sighed, her voice visibly haggard as she added, "But the doctors I have t all ca to the sa conclusion, that I had a mont of disassociation and had killed them in a mont of insanity. After hearing so many people repeating the sa diagnose, I began to think that I might have really lost my mind, and killed soone that night."
Li ZiChen stared at her, his dark eyes shadowed with an unspoken sorrow as he softly asked, his voice laced with pain, "Was that why, despite all the famous lawyers I sent to you, you rejected them? Why, even though you could have lightened your sentence, you never asked for help?"
AiLin bit her lip, her voice sharp with a mix of disbelief and frustration. "You sent them? No wonder... All those famous lawyers who suddenly volunteered to defend an insane high schooler." She watched his eyes flicker, that subtle flicker of expectation that seed to demand an answer. After a long, drawn-out silence, she finally spoke, her voice quieter now, tinged with an emotion she hadn’t let slip in a long ti.
"I couldn’t accept it," she began, the words heavy on her tongue. "I didn’t think it was right to use insanity to lighten my sentence, not when I killed soone. Insanity or not, I couldn’t hide behind that." She paused, struggling to steady her breath, her hands trembling ever so slightly. "I found out that one of the maids who died in the fire... she was pregnant." The weight of that knowledge sank deep into her chest, twisting painfully. "When I heard that, it... reminded of my own unborn daughter." Her voice faltered at the end.
"I see.." Li ZiChen said as he sounded the saddest about her answer, so much so that seeing his face colored in pain had only hurt her even more. "But I believe in you. That night... it’s true that you don’t rember everything. But what I do know, is that your actions were driven by so much more than just the mont. The sudden abortion, the concussion... I don’t believe you would have been capable of setting that fire on your own, not with your head bleeding like that."
AiLin frowned as she stared at him, "Do you think so?"
"You were losing a lot of blood AiLin, not just a small amount but a lot. Once you were brought to the hospital there was so many blood bags needed for you to ensure your body didn’t go into a shock," Li ZiChen answered knowingly as if he was... there that night while she was brought from the cri scene to the hospital again."The abortion was your choice," he continued, his tone darkening slightly. "But the doctors you trusted... they should’ve been sued. What they did was reckless. The fetus had already passed five months. It was almost seven."
"Seven?"
A clear surprise wrote on her face as Li ZiChen recounted what had happened. He found her surprise to be odd as in any procedure even if the doctors were a whack, wouldn’t they have told her how old the fetus was?
"Did you not know how old your fetus was?"
"I," she sighed, "I was young, I didn’t know anything about pregnancy, I thought it was four months, but... I have never really counted it as I was too busy stressing other factors. But seven, I know how doctors aren’t allowed to abort baby in such a late stage of pregnancy."
He nodded, "Exactly why your doctor was practicing ill practice. He wouldn’t have only killed the baby but also you, no. It was as if this entire procedure was done on purpose to kill you and pretend it as if you had just lost your life after giving to a premature pregnancy."
A shuddered gasp escaped AiLin’s lips.
Only now it made sense. That family, they weren’t going to simply abort her baby by force, they were... going to kill her weren’t they?
"No. No, you got it wrong Zi Chen," she muttered, her eyes looking far away behind him as she subrged in the puzzles that had all fit in their places. "I didn’t want to abort the baby... I, was forced. The Jiang Family was the one who had forcefully chose that doctor to abort the baby. I wasn’t... I didn’t consent to it but no matter how much I denied this, no one seem to pay attention to it. Maybe, this was all hidden by Jiang Family."
She suddenly smiled, realizing sothing that hit her head.
"So that is why. That is why they were always so scared of ."
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