"I later found out it was several people..." She bit down on her teeth, her entire jaw trembling.
Tu Hengsha’s teeth clenched, tears streaming down, and seeing her like that, she went up to support her, "Stop talking, please don’t..."
"No..." The woman’s agony twisted her entire face, "I want to say, as a woman like , if I don’t speak now, I would never speak to anyone about it again... After I woke up that ti, they threw so money at , warning not to sue... I know it’s shaless... but I chose to take the money... not to sue... and after that... after that..."
She paused for a long ti, then said through sobs, "After that... when a person’s mind starts to warp, naturally soone leads you further down the crooked path... I found a way to make money quicker than working in a restaurant... They all thought I was working in the county, Ah Zhuang often took pride in having a daughter-in-law like , many tis, coming ho to face his apologetic look, I just wanted to die. I wanted to confess to him, but I didn’t have the courage... Today, right here, under this tree, if his soul hasn’t departed, I want to apologize to him, I only hope he is healthy and ets a good woman in his next life, and never ets again..."
Having finally finished, i slid down the tree trunk, crouched on the ground, and hugged the tree, crying.
Tu Hengsha stood behind her, words dried up, unable to find any language to respond to i’s tearful confession, all that echoed in her ears was Aunt Ge’s questioning: Why? Why is this happening?
For a long ti, the two of them remained under the tree, one standing, one crouching, one crying suppressed sobs, the other silently shedding tears.
"What do you plan to do from now on?" Finally, it was Tu Hengsha who broke the silence.
i collapsed under the tree, looking up, her face full of despair.
"I’ll leave this place and start a new life, sowhere no one knows ," Tu Hengsha also squatted down, supporting her shoulder.
i stared at her hand.
Tu Hengsha thought she was offended by the gesture and quickly retracted her hand.
But i, with tears and self-mockery, said, "Don’t you think I’m dirty?"
Tu Hengsha was taken aback.
"I feel dirty myself! I wore the skirt he gave and did the dirtiest things, am I not the filthiest, most despicable woman in the world? Even if I jumped into Liushu River outside the village, I could not wash myself clean..."
Listening to her impassioned tone, Tu Hengsha was startled, "Please, don’t..."
"You’re afraid I’ll do sothing foolish?" i banged her head against the tree, "I really want to just jump into the Liushu River..."
"You..."
"But I’m pregnant..." The woman suddenly started crying and laughing, "I’m pregnant... isn’t it ridiculous, shaful... I don’t even know who the father is..."
This ti, Tu Hengsha was genuinely shocked. She was just an unmarried girl, young herself, unable to offer proper advice on this matter.
"The baby is really tough... My father beat so hard... yet it’s firm and steady, not hurt at all..." i pounded her stomach, "I don’t know how many tis I’ve hit it... it just won’t co down... it won’t..."
Tu Hengsha was frightened, quickly grasping her hand, "Don’t do this, it’s not good for you too..." Even if she didn’t want the baby, she could go to a hospital.
i, having her hand caught, stared blankly at Hengsha, tears rolling down, asking, "Do you think... should I keep it?"
"...This question, it’s really too difficult, it’s not for an outsider to give advice, but still, she mustered the courage to speak her mind, "This... I think... being a single mother is hard... when the child grows up, there will be many problems to face... actually, for you... it might be easier to start over without it..."
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