She knew in her heart that if he found out...
Then there would be no chance of salvaging their relationship.
After getting into the car, she sat in the back seat while Wen Nian got in from the other side. With a loud "bang," the door slamd shut, causing Tang Xiaohua’s ears to ache, and she closed her eyes.
"You aborted the child..."
Wen Nian stared straight ahead, his voice sounding eerily calm...
Tang Xiaohua swallowed again and moved her lips once more, but this ti, she made a sound, "Aborted..."
It was a very faint voice.
Wen Nian leaned there, the car was so still, so silent, as if all that was left was the sound of their breathing.
The simple three words pierced his heart, making him ache to the point where he couldn’t breathe.
Aborted... still aborted...
Wen Nian didn’t speak, he was in so much pain that he couldn’t utter a word, and Tang Xiaohua just leaned there, looking straight ahead, without saying an extra word.
The silence was suffocating.
Eventually, Wen Nian couldn’t catch his breath and pushed open the car door to get out, closing it with a loud "bang," the whole car trembling with the impact.
He leaned against the car door and unexpectedly asked Qu Yu for a cigarette.
Qu Yu could tell from Wen Nian’s reaction that things had not gone as expected.
He passed a cigarette and lit it for Wen Nian, who took a heavy drag, the bright ember glowing intensely for a mont before a segnt of ash fell off.
"Mr. President..."
"Wen Nian, how heartless must a woman be to have no hesitation in aborting her own child?" Wen Nian asked Qu Yu, his gaze still fixed forward.
The world turned cold in his eyes as if he were shivering through his entire body despite the heat that could make one sweat in just a windbreaker.
Qu Yu was dumbfounded too. The schedule in the United States had been tight, he had stayed up all night, and they had flown back overnight. Both his body and mind were exhausted, and now...
Tang Xiaohua’s actions were like adding insult to injury.
The First Lady had... truly aborted the child... Qu Yu stood aside, even he was vehently opposed to such an outco, let alone Mr. President.
"Mr. President, you and the First Lady are still young, you—"
Before he could finish, he froze. He looked at Wen Nian, the eyes below the brim of the cap reddened and glistening with tears,
"I... I wanted that child..."
Wen Nian, his voice trembling, finished the sentence and then took another fierce drag on the cigarette, his thin lips quivering.
All the words Qu Yu wanted to say were swallowed back.
He had no family, no wife, no children, but at that mont, he could almost feel Wen Nian’s agony as if it were his own.
Ever since Wen Nian beca President, Qu Yu had been by his side.
Aside from matters of politics and work, to speak solely of his private life, it was... a blank slate.
The whole nation was watching him, countless eyes focused on him. The man in his position wielded enormous power and status but had no space to indulge his emotions freely.
Citizens want sothing, the common folk want sothing, governnt officials want sothing, the United Nations wants sothing. But what does the President want, what does Wen Nian... want...
Qu Yu pursed his lips, montarily too choked up to speak.
The air in the car felt unbearably stuffy, and she sat there in extre discomfort.
Turning her head slightly, she saw his tall figure leaning against the car door, and his slender hand holding a nearly burnt-out cigarette.
Her eyes reddened, and tears welled up in them.
...
The car door was pulled open again, and Wen Nian sat back down, with Qu Yu still standing outside.
"Do you still rember what you said to in my arms in the early morning of March 29?"
Wen Nian leaned back, his legs crossed, his eyes coldly fixed forward.
Tang Xiaohua pursed her lips...
"You said, from now on, I must trust you unconditionally, and the sa goes for you."
"You said... you forbade to lie to you, forbade to keep any more secrets from you, forbade to make decisions on your behalf without your consent."
"..."
"I did it, what about you?"
He turned to look at her.
Tang Xiaohua’s lips were very pale as she responded, "It’s not that I didn’t want it, it’s just that it ca at the wrong ti."
"What do you an by ’the wrong ti’?"
"I’m rejoining the Navy Corps, I’ll be back there in a couple of days, and ten days later, I’ll be heading out on a mission. I couldn’t keep the child."
"What do you an you couldn’t keep it! You even deprived of my right as the child’s father to know! All you know is you couldn’t keep it!?"
Tang Xiaohua’s eyes t Wen Nian’s, her eyes reddening,
"But the truth is just that. If I had told you, could you really have borne to give up the child?"
"I couldn’t bear it, so you could."
"..."
Tang Xiaohua took a deep breath, not denying his words.
"Song Lili, it’s a life..."
"It’s just an embryo, don’t make it sound so sacred."
"Heh..." Wen Nian let out a laugh, "Just an embryo... heh..."
"Compared to having the child, there are other things I’d rather do, so..."
"What right do you have to make such a decision?"
Wen Nian’s voice turned ice-cold in an instant, his eyes narrowing as he stared at Tang Xiaohua.
"Why don’t I have the right?" Tang Xiaohua frowned in confusion, "It grew inside my body, I keep it if I want, and I abort it if I don’t! Do I need your agreent?"
Wen Nian’s expression darkened further.
It seed they were always like this, clearly loving each other, yet still viciously hurting one another.
"I really don’t understand what you want now, what else do you want! What is it that I, Wen Nian, can’t give you! That you would tornt like this! Tornt everything between us!!"
"It’s you!"
Tang Xiaohua yelled back at Wen Nian, "It’s you!"
"..."
"You knew I didn’t want children, yet you still switched my dicine! Wen Nian, I didn’t want to expose you! But you deceived first! You were the first to break your promise! What right do you have to question !"
"..."
"You keep saying you respect my choices, you said you would wait for , but what have you actually done?"
Her eyes red, she looked at him, her reddened eyes making her pale face even more so.
"What are you talking about?"
Wen Nian was puzzled.
"Still pretending?"
Tang Xiaohua looked at him, "Are you going to deny that you switched my birth control pills? I’m not a fool, even if the packages look identical, if I take them to a doctor, they can tell with one look..."
The tears spilled from her eyes, her heart also bleeding...
Promises made for mutual trust and openness between them, yet no one seed to be able to follow through.
"I don’t know what you’re talking about! I never thought about using a child to tie you down!"
"..."
Tang Xiaohua laughed.
"Just as I never thought you would so decisively abort our child."
"What’s the use of giving birth?"
She asked coldly, "To have President Wen Nian’s illegitimate child who must be kept hidden?"
"Who says must be kept hidden!"
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