228: Chapter 228 Don’t Be Sad, Brother 228: Chapter 228 Don’t Be Sad, Brother “That day you were swimming, and brother wanted you to learn, so he let go, and you choked on so water, cried your eyes out, and ignored brother all day long.” Zhao Ying pointed to a photo in the album where she had red-rimd eyes from crying and was pouting unhappily, all the while her expression filled with a tender and nostalgic light.
Su Lu looked at the photo.
There, a little girl with tear-stained cheeks and a boy sitting next to her, smiling and tying her hair into braids.
She recognized herself, no doubt about it.
It was indeed her face, slightly different from when she first arrived at the orphanage, but not by much.
The boy sitting behind her, braiding her hair, was none other than what Shen Xun looked like now.
It wasn’t hard to guess, brother had made his sister cry and was now braiding her hair to cheer her up, while mom, holding the cara, had captured this mont.
Not only had mom captured it, but she rembered almost every day’s photo in this album, could describe what happened that day.
Su Lu flipped through the album and saw herself sitting in front of an old piano, playing.
She gently touched the photo with her finger.
“This is you practicing the piano, so earnest, every ti you practiced, you were very serious.
Other kids that age, asked to sit quietly at the piano for two hours, would have grown impatient long ago, but not you,” Zhao Ying said with relief in her voice, “Even brother wasn’t like you, he wanted to go out and play after less than an hour of playing the violin.”
Su Lu’s fingers gently touched the photo, her gaze slightly dazed, “I never knew why I played the piano.
When the Su family sent to learn, I picked it up quickly, as if I had already known how to play.
It turns out I had already learned during this ti.”
Su Lu had never looked so seriously at so many photos before, looking at them felt like watching a life she had missed.
Watching these photos, it seed that the distance between herself, Zhao Ying, and Shen Xun had significantly closed.
Although there hadn’t been much distance before, there had always been a bit of unease and unfamiliarity.
But after viewing these photos, it seed much better.
Su Lu felt a swelling in her heart, full of warmth.
She didn’t know how to describe this feeling, but if she had to explain, it was like feeling reassured when one realizes they have always been loved.
After finishing the photos, there was a silence.
No one spoke, not Su Lu, not Zhao Ying, not Shen Xun, all quiet.
As if everyone was thinking about what should be said next.
Finally, Su Lu took a deep breath and broke the silence.
As if Zhao Ying and Shen Xun had entirely left the initiative to her.
Rather than waiting for Su Lu to speak, it was more like awaiting her judgnt.
“Even though I’ve already said it once.” Su Lu looked at Shen Xun, “but you might not believe it, might not have listened, or maybe you can’t forgive yourself.
So, I’ll say it again, I’ve never blad you.
Not ever.”
Shen Xun didn’t say anything, but he stared intently at Su Lu, his eyes not blinking, and perhaps due to not blinking or so other reason, his eyes were a bit red.
“Whether it was before when I didn’t know about your existence or after I knew, I never blad.
I never blad you, I never blad any of you.”
Su Lu looked at Zhao Ying, “I have never blad my parents, everyone has their own choices, sotis their choices are too heavy, sotis their choices are too cowardly, and those cowardly choices might even require others to bear the consequences.
But that is just how the world is, you can never expect everyone to be good, nor can you always demand that every parent has a sense of responsibility.”
So, even though Su Lu knew she was adopted by the Su family, and her biological parents might have abandoned her, she never blad them.
In this world, she could not demand that every set of parents have a sense of responsibility, and if she happened to have unfortunate luck with irresponsible parents, it only ant her luck was bad.
Instead of resentingly blaming her biological parents for lacking responsibility, she would rather find a way to live her life well.
Su Lu had always been such a person.
“When you think about it, I’m actually quite lucky, at least I wasn’t abandoned,” Su Lu smiled.
Although she had suffered a lot, even during those tis she had forgotten, she might have experienced very bad things, but at least she wasn’t abandoned.
She was continuously being searched for and hoped for, and that was enough to be thankful for.
“At least you found , at least you never gave up.
That’s very good, I’m very moved, so I have never blad you, not before, not now, and never will in the future.
Thank you all.”
Su Lu looked at Shen Xun, “I heard that in order to find , you even rewrote your future.
You took the entrance exam for a military academy and joined a search and rescue team… you faced dangers countless tis.
I happened to save you that one ti as a volunteer, but actually, if it wasn’t for finding , you would never have joined the search and rescue team and faced those dangers.”
It’s unclear whether it was joining the search and rescue team that led to the perils, and then her saving him, or if it was all because he was searching for her that he faced those dangers, like the question of which ca first, the chicken or the egg.
But without a doubt, Shen Xun was constantly worrying about her.
Shen Xun raised his hand and gently touched his lips.
From his movent, he seed to want to cover his mouth, only his fingers trembled slightly, so he just lightly touched his lips.
Then, he suddenly lowered his head, and took a gentle sniffle.
With a plop, a drop of warm, clear liquid directly fell from his eyes.
His voice was nasal, slightly choked, repeating one sentence back and forth, “I should have protected you, I should have protected you.
If it wasn’t for my playfulness, you wouldn’t have been stolen.
If it wasn’t for my playfulness…”
Hearing his words, hearing his choking voice, Su Lu felt a squeeze in her heart, slightly swelling, particularly uncomfortable.
She had never thought that a person like Shen Xun, tall and upright like a mountain one could lean on, and who had been injured so many tis in the search and rescue team yet remained strong as if he had never felt any pain, such a man.
Could cry like this.
Su Lu suddenly rembered what Su Zhe had said.
He had said that Shen Xun had been obsessed for more than twenty years, never letting go for a day.
Su Lu thought for a mont, couldn’t help reaching out, gently held, and then firmly gripped Shen Xun’s hand.
She pursed her lips, although still sowhat estranged from Shen Xun, but familial ties are sotis so miraculous, invisible and intangible, feeling like nothing at all, yet at certain monts, they provide strength.
Su Lu said softly, “Don’t be sad, brother.
I’m okay, nothing is wrong.
You should also forgive yourself now.”
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