Mist Novel Chapter 44

Who Am I

Chapter 44

Ji Yushi asked, “Why are you coming to Ning City so suddenly?”

“It’s not sudden.” Song Qinglan said, “I have been away for a month and should go and visit my grandfather.”

Ji Yushi asked when Song Qinglan would arrive and said, “I happen to be outside right now. I can co to the station to pick you up.”

The information about “Wang Xiaoqian” was very important to the current Ji Yushi. He didn’t think much about it and he also didn’t consider whether or not it was inconvenient for the other party.

In fact, Song Qinglan had driven his sports car at a super high speed as soon as he hung up that morning, so he had already arrived in Ning City. After arriving, he finally realised that they had been up all night and Ji Yushi may still be resting.

Thinking this, Song Qinglan resisted the urge to look for Ji Yushi and went to his grandfather’s place first.

He had also only just received the information and he sent a ssage to Ji Yushi as soon as he was done glancing through it.

He didn’t expect Ji Yushi to call back so quickly.

After the call connected, in order to avoid seeming too eager, Song Qinglan casually lied and said that he was still on the way.

So when Ji Yushi asked him this, he glanced at the ti and lied, “I’ll arrive around eight.”

Ji Yushi started the car, “Then wait for

in the waiting lounge. I’ll head over now.”

After hanging up, Song Qinglan who was still at his grandfather’s place hastily cleaned himself up and drove to Ning City’s North Station.

He rushed the entire way and managed to park his car and reach the waiting lounge just before eight o’clock.

There were many people coming and going from the station, and there were a lot of people in the waiting lounge.

Song Qinglan glanced around and didn’t see Ji Yushi’s figure. Having confird that he hadn’t arrived yet, he breathed a sigh of relief. Imdiately afterwards, his heart sank, and he quietly let out a curse.

Since when did he deceive others like this?

Was it really necessary?

Song Qinglan had never had this experience in the twenty-six years of his life. He had never felt anxious because of another person and had never felt the need to see soone with his own eyes in order to feel relieved.

Song Qinglan had noticed that Ji Yushi’s ntal state wasn’t right.

He didn’t know if people with hyperthysia have a tendency to overthink but the ‘Chief Wang’ ntioned by Ji Yushi was a discrepancy between his and Ji Yushi’s mory. The calm attitude after seeing Chief Qi, and the ‘brain in a vat’ ntioned over the phone, it was all quite negative. It was completely not like the state a person would be in after successfully escaping and returning to the real world.

For so reason, the scene of Ji Yushi opening the dicine box and taking a pill lingered in his mind.

In the park managent office, the bookstore, outside the ward…..The chaos in Ji Yushi’s mories were all curbed and controlled by those pills.

The other party’s fragile face, his trembling eyelashes, as well as the unconscious groan he let out when the space capsule was sucked into the crevice, it all contrasted greatly with his logical, intelligent and rational appearance.

No matter how perfect the psychological evaluation report was for Ji Yushi, there was a saying that goes ‘those that are too rigid, fold easily’. A human would breakdown if they stubbornly persist and endure past their limits.

It stood to reason that after the transfer was over, Ji Yushi shouldn’t have any further connection with their squad with the exception for the mission report.

There would naturally be people caring about Ji Yushi’s ntal state and it was clear that there were no shortage of people who would do that.

But Song Qinglan couldn’t help but think.

Since it was possible for him to have several relationships at the sa ti, it was also very likely that each one of them weren’t serious.

So those people, would they really care about Ji Yushi?

“Cap Song.”

Song Qinglan only waited for a few minutes when he heard a calm voice sound in front of him.

He looked up and saw Ji Yushi’s face.

They had only been apart for two days so there was naturally no change to Ji Yushi.

A simple white short-sleeved T-shirt that was similar to the one Song Qinglan found for him in PU-31 sohow made him stand out even more. Just by standing in the waiting lounge, many people’s eyes were drawn over.

What Song Qinglan noticed however, were the two faint shadows under the other person’s eyes.

Song Qinglan stood up and said naturally, “You ca so quickly.”

If he drove a little slower, he would’ve arrived after Ji Yushi.

Ji Yushi said, “I was outside when I called you, so I ca directly.”

The two walked out side by side.

In the hustle and bustle of the sumr night in Ning City, cries of cicadas accompanied the intermittent waves of heat.

When the large black off-road car was revealed, Song Qinglan was quite surprised. He couldn’t imagine soone like Ji Yushi driving such a domineering car.

Song Qinglan unlocked his phone, opened the information and handed it to Ji Yushi, “Take a look first. I’ll drive.”

Of course, this was what he had wanted. Ji Yushi had no objections, “Okay.”

The car entered the traffic. Neon lights flashed in Ning City. Ji Yushi quietly looked through the information.

Wang Xiaoqian, female, 52 years old. Previously a professor in the Departnt of Quantum Physics at Capital University. The information reported that she was from the capital and also included so of her papers, essays and teaching subjects. Just like Song Qinglan had said, it was however not complete. Except for these, there were no photos and there was also no information about Tianqiong.

Ji Yushi searched Capital University on the internet. There was nothing about Wang Xiaoqian on the page with faculty staff.

“I have so connections.” Song Qinglan said, “Through the na you provided, I found many won with the sa na and surna. After excluding so candidates with too large age gaps and different educational backgrounds, I ended up with this one. If it was really as you had said and Wang Xiaoqian was the chief of the Jiang City branch, this professor who taught quantum physics would probably be the closest candidate.”

Ji Yushi nodded. In this era, privacy was highly valued, so all databases were encrypted. It already wasn’t easy getting all this information.

What he didn’t expect was that Song Qinglan who had no impression of the ‘Chief Wang’ he ntioned still invested so much effort to investigate.

“They will send more detailed information later.” Song Qinglan continued, “You can confirm if it is her at the ti.”

As he said this, Song Qinglan inadvertently glanced at Ji Yushi and was slightly stunned.

There was a bright red mark on Ji Yushi’s neck.

This mark wasn’t sothing Song Qinglan hadn’t seen before.

If Li Chun went out to play for a few days before returning to the squad, he would have a few of these things on him too.

He originally wanted to ignore it.

But with that one glance, perhaps it was because the red mark on the extrely fair skin was too eye catching, he couldn’t help but notice it.

Song Qinglan gritted the back of his teeth, “Ji Yushi, your neck. Pay attention.”

Ji Yushi was baffled. He pulled down the mirror in the passenger seat and took a look, “Forgot to close the window last night.”

No wonder he was scratching that place today. Turns out he was bitten by a mosquito last night.

Song Qinglan was silent for a while.

Ji Yushi wasn’t very good at guessing other people’s thoughts, nor was he good at handling interpersonal relationships. Song Qinglan helping him in private with gathering all this information already ant a lot to him.

He withdrew his gaze and gathered his thoughts together before asking, “You said on the phone that you also noticed so differences. What differences were they?”

“The last ti I was in the Ouroboros mission, I realised that it was a cycle only when the woman on the street charged over.”

Passing a traffic light intersection, Song Qinglan turned the steering wheel. His actions were very smooth, and it carried arrogance and haughtiness. It gave a strong sense that he was the one who suited this car more.

“I didn’t rember anything at first and at most just had a feeling. After I realised that everything had happened before, the mory of the last cycle suddenly appeared in my mind. This was sothing I was very familiar with. When Old Zhou and I were participating in a witness of ti program in the army, we had undergone mory enhancent training. It was very similar to having a key to a mory, but it was actually a subconscious hint. That is why, unlike Tang Le and the others, we could more or less rember what happened in the cycles.”

After saying this, Song Qinglan’s furrowed brows didn’t relax. His heroic face seed to have tightened even more, “I had no impression of Wang Xiaoqian’s na before I read through her information but when I read so of her essays, I suddenly had a vague impression. I seed to rember debating about so of those points and was eventually persuaded but in my current mory, the person I debated with was Chief Qi.”

Ji Yushi was stunned, “Double mories?”

Song Qinglan also had double mories?

“One mory is relatively vague and the other is very clear.” Song Qinglan said, “But I don’t believe that we are in an illusion. What we are looking at is definitely reality, but it may not be our original reality.”

Ji Yushi had just left the Ji residence and Professor Ji’s words were still lingering inside him.

Hearing Song Qinglan say this, he couldn’t help but ask, “You also think that we have co to a parallel world?”

Song Qinglan remained silent and didn’t comnt on the world ‘also’.

He continued to calmly drive the car, “If this is a parallel world, then there must be another us. Where did they go?”

These words struck Ji Yushi’s heart hard, making him fall silent.

This was a problem that had been troubling Ji Yushi. Coupled with his chaotic mory and the fact that it had only been a few days since his return, Ji Yushi’s state was already very bad and possibly even worse than how he was in the Ouroboros mission.

He was already very overwheld.

Song Qinglan, “The ‘brain in a vat’ theory you ntioned made

think about this question for a long ti. I’m wondering, did we arrive at a parallel world or is this our original world and have we just acquired mories from another world? In other words, what is happening to us is the sequelae of travelling through ti and space and the so-called double mories is actually us going mad?”

Am I the butterfly or Zhuangzi? (KKnotes: This is another reference to the Butterfly Dream poem ntioned previously where Zhuangzi wondered if he was a man who dread of a butterfly or a butterfly dreaming of being a man.)

How do people tell that sothing is truly real?

“And I finally reached a conclusion.” Song QInglan said, “It’s actually very simple if you want to know the answer to these questions.”

The car had at so point in ti reached Ji Yushi’s place.

Ji Yushi had originally thought that Song Qinglan would drive the car to his grandfather’s place and then he would drive back ho. This would be considered as ‘dropping Song Qinglan off’.

But it seed that Song Qinglan didn’t seem to have understood his intentions. Looks like he may need to drive out again.

But Ji Yushi didn’t have the ti to worry about that right now.

Because Song Qinglan said to him, “The key to solving the problem lies with you. This ti, I don’t want to discuss the mission report we need to give to the people above. I want you to tell

everything you rember from the mont you arrived at Jiang City, including Ouroboros, Chaos, and everything that happened after we were intercepted. If we look at the mories from a different angle and peel the skin off layer by layer, we will definitely reach the truth.”

The streetlamp outside illuminated Ji Yushi’s calm face. Only he himself knew how violently his heart was beating at this very mont, “My other mory? What if I make a mistake?”

“Anyone with overlapping mories can make mistakes but you won’t. Whether this is a parallel world or the aftereffects of traversing, Advisor Ji, your mory is the key for us to distinguish between the realities.” Song Qinglan said, “I believe in you.”

In reality and not in a mission. This line was spoken almost too straightforwardly.

The inside of the car was suddenly quiet for a few seconds.

Song Qinglan let out a light cough and said, “You can go up. I’ll take a taxi and go back to my grandfather’s place.”

And he had to also go back to the station to pick up his car.

Ji Yushi however asked, “Cap Song, can you go back tomorrow?”

Song Qinglan almost choked, “Huh?”

Was Ji Yushi inviting him to go up and stay over for the night?

Of course, he definitely didn’t an it that way but wasn’t it a bit inappropriate for a straight man to stay overnight with a man whose sexual orientation was n?

Perhaps it was because of Song Qinglan’s hesitation, Ji Yushi belatedly rembered that the other party had PTSD towards getting close with a gay and felt that the other person may have misunderstood sothing. He undid his seatbelt, the red mark on his neck appearing and disappearing at the edge of his collar, “What I ant was———”

“Okay.” Song Qinglan smoothly got out of the car, “We shouldn’t leave it until it’s too late. If necessary, we can video call Old Zhou and the others to see how they are going.”

After he said that, he looked upstairs and narrowed his eyes, “Who’s ho?”

Ji Yushi breathed a sigh of relief, “Just a cat.”