Mated to Four Alphas Chapter 290: Flashback - 30

yer’s POV

His small feats are not even going to hurt . But I guess he was hurt because of .

"Why are you saying all this? Why... You are a baddie... I hate you, I hate you so much... sob"

It’s not like I can’t understand how he is feeling. I can understand. But I don’t want my emotions to ruin him. Still, I can’t see him crying. I push his head to and hugged him. He was crying on my shoulder.

All I can do is comfort him, so he won’t catch a cold from crying. But while comforting him, my eyes also beca teary. Because I am imagining that one day will co on which I won’t be able to see Orian’s face anymore. He will only remain in my mory, just in my mory. Just thinking about it makes want to cry.

"I can’t live without you, yer. I can’t. If you’re talking like this, then I will kill myself. Rather than live without you."

"How can you talk about killing yourself so easily, Orian? Don’t you know how I would feel once you died? I will be a living corpse. Then I will also kill myself. Because I also can’t live without you. But have you ever thought, if you died, what will happen to your father, your brother, and the other people who love you?"

Our conversation isn’t going anywhere. This is stopping at the sa place. And that place is saying, just be with each other. And I know this is just an illusion. It seems like being with each other would make us happy. But I know this happiness is just for four days. And after that, there will be rain—a heavy rain of sadness.

He was crying like a baby in my arms, and I was also crying. But it’s better to cry now than to cry for a whole life. And I’m ready to face the consequences of my actions. That’s why I smiled and hugged him one last ti, very tightly. With this feeling of warmth from him, I will rember my whole life. My love, my Orian.

"I have already told Dad about us. yer, I know my dad would say yes. But please don’t talk like this. We will be in a relationship. We will get married."

I broke the hug and looked at his face. His nose and eyes were red. His eyes were swollen, and his face was puffy because of crying. I wiped his tears with both my hands.

"Orian, in your heart, do you really think your dad would accept ? We know the truth, Orian. We can’t push ourselves. Yes, if there is a next life, then I really wish I wouldn’t be poor—a farr—anymore."

"In the next life, I really want to be a rich person who can take care of you your whole life without any doubt. And I hope in the next life, we will be together, and no one can separate us."

My voice was getting hoarse since my eyes were filled with tears, and seeing , he burst into tears more than , and we both hugged for fifteen minutes while crying there. He was saying that he would ask His Majesty, and His Majesty would say yes. Okay, but even if he says yes, so what after that?

Am I going to take support from His Majesty? No, I can’t do that. Even if His Majesty is willing to support , still, how much can he support ? I can’t be shaless enough to depend on His Majesty.

I know myself—what I can do, how much I can earn, and whether I can even feed Orian or not. Because I myself eat only one ti in a whole day. Because I don’t have enough money to eat three or even two tis. That’s why I only eat once, and that too at night. I don’t eat breakfast or lunch. I only eat dinner. While eating that, I think about tomorrow. Because if I was able to eat today, what about tomorrow?

Farrs are not earning much, and on my farm, there is cotton, not anything edible, so I don’t have any other choice either.

"There, there, Orian. Don’t cry now. Everything is solved. Just forget about . It’s good that I got the chance to et you. But let’s et in the next life. I hope I would recognize you and love you with my whole heart."

"No next life. I want to be with you in this life. I’m not going to leave you until you say that we are in a relationship."

He is really stubborn. "I love you, Orian. I love you. And this is real. I really love you so much. But please, please try to understand ."

"No, I don’t want to understand. There is nothing to understand. Why are you thinking about the future? The future hasn’t even happened yet. Just... can’t you live in the present? Let’s build a relationship and enjoy our life. Why worry about the future?"

I am totally confused right now. What Orian is saying makes sense. What I am thinking also makes sense. We can’t live without money. And money can’t live without us.

I was about to say sothing, and just then, Silas ca and stood in front of us, like out of nowhere. Where did he co from? Was he here from the start, or did he just co now?

I broke the hug with Orian and pointed my finger at Silas. As I pointed, Orian also glanced back and saw his brother standing there, watching us. Orian ca down from my lap, and we both stood up. Silas’s face was looking intense, like he was angry. I think he heard us, and he also thinks the sa as I do.

"Silas, what are you doing here?" Orian asked.

But Silas’s eyes were on when he stepped forward. "Are you out of your mind, yer? Why are you pushing him away when he’s trying this hard to be with you? Are you the loser?"

Well, Silas is not wrong. I’m no better than a loser. I’m running away from my life because I know I can’t afford it.

"And why can’t you be with Orian? Is it a sin to be poor or sothing? You’re talking like it is."

I look down. "Silas, you’re not understanding at all either. What I’m saying is true. Please, explain to your brother. Make him understand that we can’t be together, even if we both love each other deeply."

But as I said that, Orian’s hand grabbed mine, which made glance at him.

"I don’t want to understand anything. I told you, didn’t I? We are going to be together. I love you. I’m not letting you go away from . Keep this in mind, yer."

I sat down on the chair because I am totally blank right now. I don’t know what to do or what to say.

"I want to be alone. Can you both please leave alone?"

As I asked them, they both exchanged glances and eventually left from there, and I ended up sitting there alone till night. It was dark everywhere, and still, I was thinking about so many things. There was so much tension in my mind. I was nervous. I was scared. Feelings were hovering around my mind, my heart.

I stood up from the bench and started to walk. On this road, I found myself alone. Just like the sky. Do I really not deserve Orian? Do I really not deserve to be happy? If I did deserve it, the Moon Goddess would have blessed with a great family. I would have been born rich if she had given blessings. This only ans she is telling to live like this and not to dream big.

While walking, I didn’t even realize when I reached my house, and I really didn’t feel like eating at all. That’s why I fall asleep just like that.