Mated To My Boyfrien Chapter 142: Choosing Him

Chapter 142: _ Choosing Him

I was still in my thoughts when Lupe returned to the room.

"Well, this night just keeps getting better, doesn’t it?" She said sarcastically, leaning against the doorfra.

Better or worse?

I glared at her. "This is not funny, Lupe."

"Alright, alright." She strode closer. "I just think you are all too entangled in a ssy ring of secrets. When will you have this honest conversation with Kylo?"

I trailed my gaze to Lupe who was clad in nothing from head to toe. "It’s not that easy, naked miss. Why didn’t you use a towel or sothing?"

"I forgot to take one before going into the bathroom. And what’s the harm? You’re a girl and Liam is asleep, so chill, buzzkill..." She rolled her eyes.

I almost hissed at her. "Whatever. I guess I just wasn’t ready to see how flat your ass is."

"What?!" Lupe blurted out, her mouth popped open. "Says the girl with the flat boobs." She gestured toward my flat breast under my top.

I swatted the pillow playfully at her. "Shut up!"

Lupe began to giggle but I really had no reason to laugh. How she could smile and dump her worries despite losing her mother and potentially, her mate on the sa day was admirable.

But for

who had a chunk of secrets and just found out that she wasn’t the only one who had betrayed her ex-boyfriend, but he had betrayed her as well as a lot.

"I’ll go have my bath." I stood up, undressing while Lupe dressed up in her nightwear.

She turned to , now getting serious. "Think about it, Isleen. The earlier..."

"The better, I know." I finished for her, stepping into the bathroom.

And thus, I got in the shower. The hot water washed away the dirt, bloodshed, and smoke of the day, true.

What it didn’t wash away was the jumble of feelings in my stomach. Kylo’s betrayal, the guilt over Gamma Rhett, and a strange new ache – like a butterfly trapped inside .

Soaping my hair, I touched the warm mark on my neck. It was a reminder of Rhett. A tingle shot through

as a mory of his touch, his kiss during the marking process – It played on repeat.

Oh, his strong arms, his warmth, the hunger in his eyes. Gamma Rhett, at this point, I want to accept you.

But heat flooded my face as the water rushed through my head. How could I think of him after everything?

Should desire be the next thing on my mind when so many people had just died in the pack? When I had just found out that my ex-boyfriend and my roommate had betrayed ?

It was now clear to

that I never loved Kylo. What I loved about him was how he loved and cared for

when everyone else was against , not he himself.

It might sound cruel but it was the painful truth. From now on, I wanted to honest with myself and be true to my feelings. Running hadn’t gotten

anywhere, had it?

The truth was clear – Rhett’s marking

had woken sothing inside , a feeling that wouldn’t go away. It made

realize so many things too.

I knew now what real and true desire felt like. It would be unfair for Kylo for

to make him go against everyone and even his father to be with

when I could never love him the way he loved .

When I could never want him that way as well.

I needed to let him go if I really was sorry for him and I was glad I had done that. If toying around with Cullen would give him joy, I’d pretend like I didn’t know about it and let them have fun.

Kylo deserved to have fun.

Fun for

was being with his father. Hopefully, Kylo would understand too. This would be goodbye.

But it would be welco to Gamma Rhett. Just like him, I would shalessly accept my fate. The world would judge

but when they saw how happy I beco, the world would adjust.

I pictured Rhett again, his broad back filling the doorway, the way he looked at

a little too long. Was I imagining it, or was there a spark in his eyes too? Like he— loved ?

The cold water surprised

as I stood lost in thought. Part of

knew this was crazy. Rhett, the strong leader, a mystery, and

– with a broken past and a child.

It was trouble for sure.

But another part, deep down, said sothing different. A connection, a pull that made sense even if I couldn’t explain it. Exciting and scary, like a forbidden candy I couldn’t touch.

Towel wrapped tight, I stared at my reflection in the mirror. Who was this woman? The sad Oga, or the woman awakened by a touch, a kiss, and a mark that promised more?

The answer was like the steam on the mirror – unclear. But one thing was certain – things were about to get ssy and I had co to not give a fuck at all.

Just like Lupe, I nakedly stepped out of the bathroom. A smile blood on my face when I saw how fast asleep Lupe and Liam were. I didn’t know Lupe was such a sleeper.

However, truth be told, everyone in the pack would sleep for the rest of today. We had all had a long night. The only ones who might not taste sleep were the ones who would bury their kin.

It was sad, but life had never been fair.

Thankful that we had grabbed a thing or two at Lupe’s place, I changed into one of her nightwear and crawled into the bed between her and Liam.

I turned to my son, caressed his hair, and wished it was Gamma Rhett sleeping beside

until sleep took over

as well.

Once again, I ca to regret thinking about Rhett before going to bed because I began to have that strange dream yet again.