Mu Chenyan didn't know much about the love life of Xiang Wai and Xiang Weimin. Even if she had been keeping an eye on their situations, it mostly involved things related to their health and their career. She wasn't overbearing enough to try to control everything. Yes, she was overbearing at so level but she wasn't a complete wacko. Not just yet!
And that's why she didn't know that Xiang Wai had been in a relationship with soone for ten years and it seems she hurt herself. As for why she said she hurt herself instead of saying that she got hurt. The answer was obvious. Xiang Wai had the expectations set high from that relationship that didn't even begin from love.
If that wasn't asking for a heartbreak what was?
Mu Chenyan wouldn't call herself a genius but she believed that the pain we have to suffer is mostly brought upon us by ourselves. The people just beco the ans. But at the end of the day, it's our own expectations that hurt us the most. Not people!
Who asked us to have wrong expectations from people?
Even we end up failing ourselves, what gives us the courage to have faith in others that they won't fail us one day? That's just absurd!
"Aunt, it seems you have a strong influence on Raelle," comnted Xiang Wai.
Mu Chenyan laughed out loud, "No. It's the other way around. I was a brat before she ca into my life. I only learned to be a human after I t Raelle. Trust , I have no influence on her. I was a complete psychopath in my younger years. My ideas bordered around insanity. It was only when Raelle beca a part of my life that I started learning what responsibility was and from the mont she started talking, I knew I was sent my nesis to suffer."
"What?" Xiang Wai asked in surprise.
Mu Chenyan wouldn't usually talk this openly but currently, she was tipsy and she was talking to her trusted niece and nephew. So, she let herself go and spoke her mind.
"I truly thought myself to be all high and mighty when I was young. I was arrogant to the extre, I was rude, I was careless and I was a nutjob! You ask anyone, they won't have anything good to say about my personality," told Mu Chenyan. "But it changed once I lost people who made feel like I could rule the world. Whether it was your grandmother or your father, they always protected . But in one day, I lost both of them. It felt like soone dropped from the sky and I fell hard to the ground. And it hurt. It hurt badly!"
She sniffled as she continued, "I believed myself to be the smartest one but I wasn't. When Raelle started talking, I felt like my real race of life began from there. She was sharp, keen, and intelligent. She brought chaos into my life when she made realize that I wasn't even as smart as a baby. You can never understand how it feels when a three-year-old makes you question your sanity as an adult. But she did it repeatedly to the point that she beca a challenge I had to win! So, I did everything I could to make sure I'm always a step ahead of her."
"Were you able to?" asked Xiang Weimin.
"Sadly, no," Mu Chenyan sighed. "How can you win against soone like her? However, as she grew up, she stopped trying to win. She purposely lost in front of so that I can stop trying so hard to be the definition of perfection in her life. And when I confront her about that, she said, 'Yanyan, you're not perfect.' I felt like I was being insulted but then she continued, 'But neither am I. Why are you tiring yourself running after sothing like perfection that doesn't exist? Even the experints I perform in the lab only co out with 99.99% accuracy. That's not a perfect score. So, let's not tire ourselves.'"
Mu Chenyan smiled when she thought about that ti and said, "I felt so bloody touched by her words but the very next second, she smacked with, 'Also, you're getting wrinkles. That ans you're getting old. So, have rcy on yourself and take so rest.'"
Xiang Wai and Xiang Weimin laughed out when they heard it and Mu Chenyan could only shake her head.
"Anyway, as I was saying, I have little influence on Raelle. She has more influence on ," added Mu Chenyan. "She is a very caring person. Although her words didn't sound like it, she was truly worried about . And I knew that as well."
"You understand her well," comnted Xiang Weimin.
"She isn't a riddle you have to solve," said Mu Chenyan. "She had always been an open book even if she doesn't seem like it. And trust , it's a hundred or even a thousand tis more difficult to understand the aning behind care, love, hate, like, dislike, pain, or any other emotion for her. She never had difficulties in her study. But she spent the better part of her life trying to understand the definition of normal."
"She is anything but normal," comnted Xiang Wai.
Mu Chenyan nodded proudly, "Of course, how can my Elle be normal? She is special! There isn't a second one like her!"
Perhaps, Mu Chenyan didn't even realize it herself that she was the reason why Raelle never thought there was anything wrong with her being 'not normal' in this world. She didn't even realize what influence she really had in making Raelle who she was. Yes, Raelle had a lot of influence on Mu Chenyan but the latter had equal or more influence on the forr as well.
Because to Raelle, Mu Chenyan was the definition of family, love, care, and warmth. Sothing that was considered very precious to her. Because she knew no matter how weird she was, her Yanyan would still stand with her.
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