Maze
"Is it true you are not over your forr mate?" The question is right on point, and for a mont the sadness over the new loss takes over everything. I know I need to answer this right for her to understand my feelings. So I myself understand my feelings.
"It was true yesterday. Today, no it’s not true today. I have been working, ever since I saw you standing there and looking like a more beautiful version of the Goddess, on my feelings for Mira. I have mourned her and felt sorry for myself for almost 2 years, and it still hurts. I can still feel the heartbreak. I have nightmares about it. And I relive the monts where she dies over and over again. But Amber, my sister, called out on my BS, and I have tried to work on myself ever since. I even started therapy, but she wasn’t trying to help . She was the one who told to stay completely away from you." Kiara nods, she hasn’t said anything since I started talking, and I know this must be a little too much for her.
Maybe this lunch thing was a bad idea? I sigh. No! This is a good idea. If we’re ever going to have a chance, then we need to clear the air completely.
"Please say sothing." I mumble, looking down. My heart is thumping with fear. Fear that she thinks I’m ridiculous. Weak even. The silence stretches on for a minute or sothing, before she reaches out for my hand. I take hers in mind, relishing in the sparks traveling up my arm.
"That makes a lot of sense, but it also hurts a lot. You are in so much pain, Maze, and you have pushed everyone away to endure it alone. Making the impression that you are an asshole, but in reality, you are hurting everyday. I feel sorry for you, but I’m also angry on your behalf. But you are not alone. Not anymore. Now you told , and I am here. I am not going anywhere. We accepted each other, and I will stand by that!" Her words are so raw, so honest. I hear the sadness in her voice, the anger. But I also hear the comfort and the tender caring within her sentences.
"Thank you. And you are right. I have been suffering in silence, but I have really taken it out on the people who wanted to help the most. I need to make a formal apology to the pack and my family." She smiles.
"That will be a good thing and a healing mont, and I will be at your side or in the crowd. Whatever you need, Maze." I squeeze her hand.
"Your place will always be by my side, or by yours. We are equals, Kiara. And I have not been treating you as such for the duration of your stay. I am so sorry." She shakes her head.
"We need to let the past be that if we want to move on. And I am ready to do just that. You have apologized enough, Maze. Now we talk, and we understand." I smirk. "What?" She asks, her face adorably confused.
"You called Maze. Twice." I answer, and she rolls her eyes.
"Alpha asshat." She replies with laughter in her voice. I lift her hand to my mouth and kiss it.
"Only for you, angel." She blushes, and damn is that is not the cutest thing I ever saw. She is filling with warmth and love. A new chance of living, which I have been to idiotic to realize before now. But Kiara is right. We need to move forward. "Okay, my turn. When did you know you were a fox shifter? And how did you get Winter as your counterpart?"
"That’s two in one."
"You’ll get a two in one as well." I lift an eyebrow, and she sighs.
"I knew from the beginning. I kept having dreams about foxes and a hidden Kingdom when I was a child. Mom and dad took to a private witch healer. She is the best, and she sensed my animal. She told them what I am, and when my animal ca to on my 16th birthday, I shifted in the privacy of our ho. She told she was only here to keep company and get used to my form, but I would get soone else as a permanent spirit companion when I was older."
"I thought you shifted later? Wasn’t that way your forr mate rejected you. Sorry for interrupting!"
"No it was for that reason. No one knew. Only mom and dad. As for the pack. They believed wolfless, although everyone could sll I had a counterpart. He saw as weak because I did not shift. I chose not to. It wouldn’t have mattered." I nod, making sure she knows she has my undivided attention. She takes a deep breath.
"Winter ca to on the night before my 20th birthday. I t Selene and Inari, the Moon and Fox Goddesses, and they explained everything. We were attacked on my birthday, while I was visiting mom and dad. I shifted to protect the children, and pack mbers saw . They despised my creature and hated even more. Dad had before hand explained to them what I was, but knowing and seeing are two different things it seems." A stray tear slid down her cheek, and I wipe it away.
"You never deserved that kind of treatnt, Kiara. I am so sorry, angel!"
"They never even gave a chance. I was bullied heavily for my size and my shy nature in school. It beca so bad I had to move school twice, and the second ti it was to a private college, with an apartnt on campus. Even the complex had guards. Only then did they leave alone." My eyes harden. What the actual fuck! Where was her father in all of this? He is the Alpha of that sorry excuse of a pack. "Maze! Dad wanted to banish all of them, but mom said it was a much better punishnt for them to continue to have them as Alpha and Luna, and know what they did to their leader’s child. And now they have adopted my brother, and their line will continue through him." She is right of course, but that doesn’t stop and Havoc from wanting to kill each and everyone of her torntors.
"Okay, moving on before you decide to kill soone." Kiara says, biting into a strawberry. She munches on the chocolate covered fruit, while pondering. "What would you do if Mira ever cos back?"
"Throw her out on her ass."
"Maze!" I chuckle.
"I would! She has no place here, Kiara. She left . She broke down and left . If she wanted as her mate, then she would have co back. But she didn’t. She made her choice."
"Okay, enough of the easy answer. You still have feelings for her. You cannot deny that, even with your mate bond with . She has been there since your childhood."
"I would let her see her parents, but I would not let her co close to . Yes, there will be feelings, but they will never compare to what I am feeling with you. She was there through my childhood, and I grew up with her. But she left, Kiara. And by that I an I never had the mate bond with her. She left over a misunderstanding on my 18th birthday, and next ti I saw her she... Died..." I finish kind of ta. But that word still hurts.
"What misunderstanding?" I guess that’s a fair question, and I tell her all about what happened. By the ti I’m finished, she is fuming.
"That is a ridiculous reason to leave. If soone ever tries a stunt like that I will kill them for touching what is mine!" I smirk again, and she realizes what she said. She blushes again, and it only makes want to kiss her so badly. But before I can move, Kristian is mind-linking that my other surprise for the day is ready.
"Okay, co on. We can continue this conversation to our next destination." I say, reaching down to help her up. Her eyes light up in the cutest way.
"Another surprise, well, well, Alpha. Who knew you could woo a girl like this." She teases and I laugh.
"I hope you like it." I say, leading her back to the pack house.
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