Isekai ni Kita Boku wa Kiyoubinbode Subaya-sa Tayorina Tabi o Suru Chapter 95

The Day That I First Killed A Man

With a flash of dark blue, the bandits torso goes flying. A shocking amount of bright blood sprays from the stump. The sensation is very different from when I cut through monsters, and I imdiately feel my stomach turn and I have to forcefully suppress the urge to vomit. I keep moving forward, as if turning my back on reality.

Haghhggdamndamn it!

I felt like I was the one who was about to fall. I had been murdered myself, and here I was now, killing others. Even if it was to protect myself and others, a certain self-loathing and despair now clutched my core and would not let go. It would not release .

You! You little shit!!

One of the bandits looked at his fallen comrade and charged at with an expression of unconcealed rage. I used Legs of the Forest Wolf to jump in the air and avoid him. And from that position, I used the montum of my fall to slash down. He tries to block the attack with his sword, but its no use, and his blade shatters upon impact.

Uhhhggg!!

His groan is almost inhuman, like a ghost. I was finding it hard to maintain the ntality that all of this served a purpose. No matter how much I tried, tried to switch gears, tried to stop thinking. It was what it was.

I couldnt shut down. I wasnt prepared for this. And so I swung my sword with the sole intent of defending myself. It was the right thing to do in a way. However, I couldnt stop seeing it as wrong.

Unnecessary killing is evilbut that is why this is necessaryit is necessary

I repeat Danielas words in my head in order to stay aware. I held onto those words as I continued to swing, and eventually, there was no one left standing, except for Daniela and I, who were both drenched in blood.

Ughhaghhgghh:

I couldnt hold it back any longer, and it all ca rushing out of my gut. The truth of what I had done. The truth that I had killed.

Hahhhahh!

I crawl away on my hands and knees as if escaping from that weight. And the first thing I t as I moved away, was that severed torso of the first bandit I had killed.

Ah, hah.AAHHHH!!

Asagi!

I heard her voice, but that was the last thing I heard as I lost all awareness.

I am sorry, we should have helped you sooner

Noplease It is a miracle that I am still alive like this

The girl in front of had tears in her eyes as she held a man whose chest had been pierced by a sword. Likely her father He had apparently been stabbed before we arrived. The girl looked up with glistening eyes and bowed.

Thank you, for saving

It is fine. Are you hurt?

No, I am fine Is, is your companion alright?

She said with uncertainty as she saw his face as I carried him.

Aye. Today was his first ti killing a man It was an unavoidable situation, but it was still a lot for him. I think that his heart could not take it. However, he is a strong man. He will surely recover.

Yes, Asagi. The man that I loved would surely beco well again.

Asagi had co from a world that forbade any killing. He had been nearly broken from just killing monsters. He had held onto those words that I had given him, about needless killing being evil. So what would happen when a man like that killed another man? The answer was obvious.

And so I had planned on accepting a bandit suppression quest one day. It would be a day when Asagi had grown completely accustod to this world, when his heart had beco strong. However, when bandits had appeared in front of us like this, I could not turn a blind eye just for his sake. I pulled out my bow and so pulled him into this fight.

Asagis heart is still weak. He has only recently grown accustod to the act of ending a life. And those have only been monsters. It is a foreign ntality for , as soone whose parents were killed by monsters, and as soone who has made a living off of hunting them, but I can understand it to a degree. After all, I fear dragons. And there will co a ti when I must overco that fear. When that ti cos, I hope to have a stronger Asagi there, protecting my back as I challenge the beast.

I understandI am so sorry, just for usno, just for

Do not be bothered by it. A life has been saved. Asagi will be happy about that.

As one travels, being fooled by others is, well, common. I am no exception. There were even tis when my body was nearly defiled. And in those tis, I have killed people.

That feeling, when you desperately stretch out your hand, grasp that shortsword and plunge it into your enemies chest. It hits against hard bone. I rember frantically taking a second stab. Those mories will never disappear. And if they will not disappear, you must accept them.

Those were necessary actions taken to protect myself. I had to do it. It was their fault for tricking . I killed because I was about to be killed.

I averted my eyes like that for a while, but the feeling of guilt took a strong hold of and would not let go.

And so I accepted it. All of that happened. However, it is because of those actions, that I am here today. Because of those actions, I was able to et him.

I sincerely hope that this child who survived will beco a salve to ease his heart. Not I, who is loved by Asagi, but the girl who he helped. She is the one who can save him.

Its so dark. Dark. A darkness without light spreads before my eyes. Does it go on forever? Or does it stop in front of my nose? I dont know.

But I can sense that sothing is moving within that darkness. I didnt notice it at first. But my eyes slowly grew used to the darkness, and then I realized that it was a moving corpse that was only a torso.

Aghhh!!

I scread with horror and thrashed about in an attempt to escape. But I couldnt move.

Damn youyou killed ee

A low, low voice that seed to sound from the deepest depths reached my ears.

I had no choiceIt was you who were attacking!

It hurtsit hurts.

The bandit used its arms to crawl up to my feet.

Stop. Stop. Dont co any closer!

Oooooooo..

The thing that was moaning had now grabbed my foot. And it was crawling upwards.

Hahhhh

It grabbed my clothes as it climbed up my body, and when it was finished, the thing wrapped its arms around my neck. Its jaw now lay on my shoulder. The sounds of its breathing brought a sense of dread as it said:

But you will face the sa fate.

Aggghhhhhh!!!

When I realized that I was shouting, I was in the sa field of blood that I had been in before passing out. In a panic, I looked at my surroundings until finally understanding the situation.

Good morning, Asagi.

Uhahmorning

Though I was stuttering, we exchanged the sa greeting that we always did after waking up. And then I realized that Daniela was carrying .

SorryI can walk now.

Are you sure? I do not mind carrying you.

I imdiately knew that she was not just talking about , but about what I was harboring. After all, we were deeply in love and of one heart and one mindheh. Even making jokes like that did little to raise my spirits.

Um, are you alright?

A voice suddenly called from behind . I looked behind to see a young girl looking up at with concern.

Whoare you?

I am called Marie Elle. Thank you for helping .

Soone was alive then So there was soone that had survived because I killed the bandits

Daniela slowly put down. My legs still shook, and I imdiately fell to my knees.

The girl who had survived, Marie Elle, stood in front of . A small girl. Her dark brown hair was covered in a spray of blood. The way she held her hands in front of her with uncertainty made her look even smaller.

I stretched out a shaking hand and touched her dark brown hair.

It was warm. I could feel the warmth. It reached a heart that had been chilled by blood. When I felt that warmth, tears began to flow.

This child, Asagi. You saved her.

I

Yes. You fought to save others, to save lives. You fought, and you survived because you won. And it is because of that that Marie Elle is here, living.

Living.

I hear that word and then look at the girl in front of . She must have looked so concerned up until now because she was worried about . Now she smiled gently.

It is because of you that I am alive. Please do not bla yourself.

Ahah

It was wretched, but what I couldnt express after hearing those words, ca out as a sound. And when the words finally did co out, I embraced her tightly.

Thank youfor livingthank you

That was all I could do. Repeatedly thank her for being alive.

This gratitude that I felt, took over my whole body, and before I knew it, the shaking in my limbs had subsided. Still, I could not stand. I surrendered myself as Marie Elles hand gently held , and I wept.