Looking at the smile on Tang Ye’s face, Su Sigui couldn’t help but ask, "Do you understand ?"
"Of course I understand. If you hadn’t said so, I would have thought I was the only freak like this in the world..."
"Uh... I hope you’re not just comforting ."
"Hahaha, you’re overthinking it!" Tang Ye burst out laughing. However, as he laughed, he noticed that Su Sigui’s face showed no reaction, and his laughter soon turned awkward and gradually ceased.
"What’s wrong with you?" Tang Ye inquired, but the expression on Su Sigui’s face beca serious as she looked at him.
"Li Henian, there’s a question I’ve long wanted to ask but never did. Today, I wish to know the answer."
"Wha... What question?" Su Sigui’s words made Tang Ye’s speech stutter involuntarily. He instinctively thought that Su Sigui might have already known about his identity, given how clumsy his deceptions had been. Who knows if Su Sigui has only pretended not to know until now and is preparing to confront him?
"Why are you nervous?" Seeing Tang Ye’s sudden embarrassnt, Su Sigui couldn’t help but find it amusing. Her question quickly cald Tang Ye down. This reaction... it seems he was overthinking it, but still, what was she planning to ask?
She is a transmigrator; logically, her information should be much broader than his, right?
"This is quite sudden. It’s fine, what do you want to ask? If it’s sothing I know, I’ll definitely answer truthfully, and that includes my... secrets. But, well..."
"What secrets do you have?"
Su Sigui suddenly raised an eyebrow, asking in bewildernt. Tang Ye didn’t speak imdiately, and soon saw that Su Sigui smiled casually, saying, "Don’t worry; I won’t force you to reveal your secrets. My question is simple, and you should be able to answer it."
"...What is it?"
Su Sigui pondered for a mont, seemingly organizing her words, while Tang Ye patiently waited. After a short while, Su Sigui spoke, "I want to know why you chose to help ; is it also because of... a sense of responsibility?"
"..."
This question stunned Tang Ye for a mont. He didn’t answer imdiately but lowered his head to think. It wasn’t that he couldn’t answer, but from this question, Tang Ye understood sothing. He understood her confusion!
Especially the last words, "sense of responsibility," which made him clearly recognize the fundantal difference between zombies and humans. Whether humanity perishes or continues to live with dignity, he could completely avoid the issue by using his identity as a zombie and choose to stand by.
Again, humanity’s extinction? What’s it got to do with zombies?
But Su Sigui was different. She was human, had evolved to Level 9 New Human, sothing every strong person dread of. It represented supre power in human society, and the temptation of power often leads people astray, driving them to pursue such things at any cost, barely considering the responsibilities that accompany such power!
Regretfully, she was tied to an unescapable responsibility as the only Level 9 New Human. She seed stubbornly to believe that Level 9 New Humans existed to ensure the human race didn’t fall to the level of creatures like pigs, ducks, cows, or sheep. She was trapped in her own thoughts. The proverbial "in the ga but not of it," she clearly understood why she was doing this, yet couldn’t comprehend the reasoning of her companions.
It’s like if I wanted to open a clothing store and bought so mannequins to display the products better, but you don’t have a clothing store, so what would you need mannequins for? It raises doubts.
"Sense of responsibility... It doesn’t seem like I’m a person with a sense of responsibility. I can’t quite put it into words either."
"Then can you tell your specific reasons for doing this?"
"This..." Tang Ye exhaled deeply. He wasn’t sure how to explain it to Su Sigui. As he had told Huang Quanjiu and others before, he truly was a zombie. From a species standpoint, he no longer had any relation to humanity. However, his life was intertwined with humans in every way. One reason he chose to intervene in the Four Great Zombie Kings’ invasion was this, and another reason was because he used to be a living human being. Even if he was now disconnected from the human species, he was still the sa person from before the Apocalypse from his own perspective!
From early exuberance after acquiring great power to becoming overbearing and then learning to restrain himself with ti, he was constantly changing and growing. Ti provided answers; past experiences were part of his life—his human life! Indeed, the zombie life sounds odd if you put it that way.
In short, just the mories of the first half of his life made it extrely difficult for Tang Ye to ensure that he wouldn’t feel even a twinge of hesitation in choosing to stand aside for humanity’s extinction.
Turning to glance at Su Sigui beside him, Tang Ye found that she was still watching him, evidently determined to get an answer from him. Just as Tang Ye was troubled, a sudden idea struck him. He imdiately devised an explanation and said seriously to Su Sigui, "Have you ever played a ga?"
"Ga..." Su Sigui pondered for a while and then answered, "Yes, but what does that have to do with anything?"
"Of course, it does. Almost every ga requires a progression from weak to strong, like you and . You can’t start as a Level 9 New Human, right?"
"Hmm... I don’t know when I started viewing my life as a ga. But to so extent, we are indeed players. Yet, once players reach the late stages of a ga, having obtained everything, turned invincible, and consud almost all the content, the process loses its original fun and becos boring. That’s what players call ’burnout.’"
"Once players reach this stage, they beco increasingly empty inside. They might look for a few remaining amusents in the boredom, like discovering Easter eggs left by the developers or doing flashy operations using ga chanics, or even teasing the NPCs. But if they don’t do these things, the only choice left is to quit the ga and not touch it for a long ti, maybe booting it up again on a whim soday."
"Unfortunately, my life isn’t a ga, and I can’t quit to choose a new one. Just like you said earlier, once humans reach a certain level, it’s hard to satisfy many things again. I need to satisfy myself, which is why I want an opponent I can exhaust all my efforts to deal with, to regain my initial excitent, and to experience unprecedented thrills!"
"We share the sa feeling, but we are different. You’re fulfilling the towering responsibility, and I’m just filling the void in my heart. It’s that simple."
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