I Will Disappear, Grand Duke Chapter 63

The next day, Julia asked lissa to run an errand. She was going to send her letter once again.

This ti, it was not a letter to the Holy Land, but to the Temple of Ilion, where Matheus was located.

It was also a response to firmly grasp her shaking heart.

Julia knew that she was being swayed by Fernan. Seeing Fernan's changed appearance, without realizing it, she was getting used to it.

So now she was really going to make a plan to get out of here.

Before the will to escape would completely disappear.

Originally, she was going to try to escape by herself sohow by using her remaining power.

However, she instinctively felt that her body would not be able to withstand it if she used more of her power.

Julia had no intention of harming herself any longer.

Because she wanted to live happily for a long ti.

But it wouldnt be with Fernan.

Julia leaned against the window sill and looked at the now familiar scenery.

Fernan was different from before. It was also true that his warmth shook her heart easily.

But it was only a fleeting warmth.

She couldnt rely on such things and set foot into the hellish past again.

In order to erase the face that had filled up in her mind, Julia stared at the distant plain again.

That evening, lissa, who had sent the letter, arrived at the villa.

lissa told her that she sent the letter safely to the temple.

Thank you, lissa.

Oh, no. If there is anything else you want to do, please tell .

lissa, who replied in a good manner, avoided her gaze for so reason. She looked a bit worried.

What happened?

When Julia tilted her head and asked, lissa, startled, hurriedly shook her head.

Oh, nothing is wrong. Dont worry."

You dont look good.

lissa tried to raise her lips as if she was okay.

However, seeing Julia worrying about her, her face seed to have beco more and more uncomfortable.

In fact, when she went to send the letter this ti, lissa had co to ask the postman again about what happened to the Holy Land.

And of course, the reply ca that the place was still in full swing with the demons.

Grand Duchess is probably trying to go back there

lissa was belatedly worried that sothing would happen to Julia if she left without knowing the truth. Besides, she felt as if she was fooling Julia, so she didnt feel comfortable all this ti.

Your Grace. Actually, I have sothing to tell you.

lissa also felt that she could not continue to deceive Julia on her own will. Julia had a right to know, good or bad.

Last ti, I actually couldnt send the letter to the Holy Land.

Julia's eyes widened at lissas confession.

Why?"

lissa bit her lip while looking at Julia who asked her blankly and continued her words.

Actually, Your GraceIn the Holy Land I heard theres a war.

Julia's face, who had been dazed as if she could not understand the situation, gradually turned pale.

What does that an war?

I heard from the postman that theres a war that started last winter. The demons have invaded.

lissa, who answered carefully, looked at her complexion, and Julia stiffened for a mont, as if she had received a lot of shock.

Last winter

Julia, who muttered in a daze, touched her lips. If it was last winter, it intertwined with the ti she ca here. At this mont, the things that were on her mind in the past began to co to mind one by one.

Her mory of the process that led her here in the first place has completely disappeared.

Even Fernan's words, which he said she could go anywhere but the Holy Land.

Julia, who had not spoken for a long ti while holding her lips, twitched her brows.

She might rember sothing more, but she couldn't keep up with her thoughts as her head was pounding.

Your Grace, are you okay?

Seeing her pale face, lissa clasped Julias arms.

However, Julia did not answer, she only looked into the air blankly.

At this mont, Julia could only be sure of one thing. The reason she ca here must have sothing to do with the war.

After removing her hand from her lips, Julia moved her feet. The place she headed was Fernans office.

Her mind was jumbled all the way down the stairs.

Why on earth did he hide from the fact that the Holy Land was at war? And how did I lose my mory?

Julia knocked on the office door with her trembling hand. But no words ca from the inside.

Turning away, Julia wandered around the villa looking for Fernan.

Then at the end, she headed to his bedroom.

With her face turned white, Julia, who was in front of Fernans door, raised her hand.

The mont she was about to knock, the door suddenly opened from inside.

And Fernan appeared through the wide open door.

Julia?

He looked at her Julia with a slightly surprised face. He never thought she would be standing in front of him like this.

His hair was damp, perhaps he just had a bath.

Julia hesitated for a mont, then parted her lips.

Your Highness, I ca to ask you sothing.

"What do you want to ask?"

Fernan, who was muttering in the distance, moved aside belatedly.

At his gaze as if to ask her to co inside, Julia slowly took a step forward.

Click, as the door closed, a familiar scent perated. It was the sll of winter.

The cool, cold scent that she always felt when she was next to Fernan

Inconsistent with the situation, the scent cald her head.

While Julia hesitated, Fernan pulled her a chair.

Julia, who sat down, imdiately opened her mouth.

Why havent you told anything?

Fernan, who sat across from her, stared at her silently. As if to gauge what she was saying, there was a slight twitch in his golden eyes.

Julia spoke in a confused voice.

I heard that the Holy Land is at war.

Why didnt you tell anything?

At that mont, Fernan's gaze began to waver slightly. After that, he asked quietly, who had not said anything for a long ti.

Did your mories co back?

no."

Julia still had no mory of it. Because every ti she vaguely thought of sothing, her head felt like it was going to crack.

However, I can predict that the mories I forgot were war-related.

So, please tell what happened.

Fernan averted his gaze slightly as if struggling with Julia staring straight at him.

In the anti, he didn't explain anything to Julia because he did not want to forcibly revive her mory.

His luscious lips closed, then slowly opened.

I hope you dont rember anything.

why?"

Fernan often recalled the sight of Julia crying with her ears covered. She also scread and trembled all night long.

He didn't want to reveal the traumatic mories.

He didn't know which truth would be more painful for her, but he thought it would be better to let Julia think that she was forced by him to co here.

Now that he was not letting her go anywhere like this, it wasnt really false to let her think like that.

Looking at the silent Fernan, Julia imdiately opened her lips and asked another question.

What about the others? The people in the monastery

Her heart, which had been trying so hard to calm down, began to pound again.

Looking at Julia biting her lip anxiously, Fernan gave her an answer belatedly.

Not everything is safe.

Julias eyes shook.

You an theyre dead?"

Fernan nodded her head slightly at the question.

Julia clenched her hands and bit her lips.

The people who had been living with her for a year peacefully but she was completely clueless all this ti.

While enjoying the things that Fernan gave her here, as if it was unavoidable.

Looking at Julia, unable to say anything due to shock, Fernan spoke up.

At least all the children and the lady are safe.

A light gradually began to perate her eyes, which were wet by the news.

Are you serious?

Fernan looked at her wet eyelashes. As soon as a teardrop fell, he couldnt hold back and reached out.

" dont cry."

His hard fingers gently wiped the corners of her eyes. At so point, it beca difficult for him to see Julia cry. Perhaps it was because he rembered the woman who cried because of him a long ti ago.

"I'll let you et them."

So innocent words ca out without him knowing. The truth was he actually didn't want Julia to et them.

He was afraid that Julia would et them and leave him again, but now he was more afraid of her crying than that.