I was sitting on the sofa in my room, reading a book, when I heard a discreet knock on the door.
[It’s open, co in.]
[Excuse , Master. A letter has arrived.]
[Ahh, thanks as always, Anima. Can you leave it there?]
[Understood.]
This is a common exchange…… Anima handles the letters sent towards , while she brings the letters from my friends.
Anima is used to this, as after hearing my response, she quickly places the unread letters in an easy-to-spot area on my desk.
Then, Anima bowed her head and was about to leave, just as per usual, but today, I spoke at that mont.
[……Anima.]
[Yes?]
[There’s sothing I’d like to ask you, so do you have so ti?]
[Yes, there’s no problem!]
Smiling at Anima, who answered with a neat salute, I decided to ask her about the conversation I had just seen between her and my parents.
[……Errr, I actually overheard Anima and Mom and Dad talking earlier……]
When I said that much, I noticed that Anima’s expression turned pale. Arehh? What’s with her reaction……
[T- That’s not it! I- It’s not that I ant to disrespect Master when I said those words earlier……]
[Ahh, unnn. No, I’m not angry, okay? ……I should have chosen my words more carefully.]
Ahh, I see…… I guess she turned pale because she thought I was going to be mad at her. How should I say this…… It really was like her to worry about such things.
[Errr, I don’t know what’s a good way to say this but…… I’m not mad at you, it’s more like I’m a little surprised by what you said.]
[Surprised?]
[Unnn, it might just be assuming things by myself but…… I thought that the Anima I knew back then would have raised my na even higher…… so I was surprised. So, I wanted to ask you so things about that. Ahh, of course, I won’t force you to answer if you don’t want to.]
I felt that she had grown a lot compared to before, especially her ntal growth. Perhaps, that might be the reason why I wanted to ask her about her change in her ntality.
At my question, Anima paused with a puzzled look on her face, and after a mont, she reservedly responded.
[……It doesn’t matter.]
[Unnn?]
[Ahh, no, that’s it! I don’t an it in a bad way…… Errr…… P- Please wait a mont! Let gather my thoughts.]
After she said this, Anima closed her eyes and took a deep breath for a few monts. She then took off the hat she was wearing, held it to her chest with one hand, and opening her eyes, she looked straight at and spoke.
[……Embarrassing it may be to say this, but the immature back then…… as Master pointed out, was quite hasty. Not only in my abilities, but even in my ntality.]
[……………………..]
[It’s difficult for to explain, but I’m sure that…… I don’t think I have the confidence about my position as a retainer either. Thus, I praised Master excessively. Being that “the master I serve is so amazing” makes it that I was amazing for serving such a master, I was shouting such things like a beast claiming its territory.]
I’m not saying that her words don’t make think about anything. The personality of the Anima back then wasn’t thinking about her actions at all. In fact, I think she was thinking about a lot of things.
Now that I think about it, Anima called herself a damned beast when we first t, and felt inferior to Alice…… Perhaps, deep within her heart, Anima was feeling unsure of herself.
[Looking back on it, I feel ashad of how stupid I was, but at that ti, I didn’t have the composure to realize it.]
[……However, your ntality has changed now, right?]
[Yes…… No, I probably haven’t changed. I think I just “beca aware”.]
[Beca aware?]
[……It had been a year and eight months since Master had returned to the other world, and I had plenty of ti to think. Thereupon, I reexamined my feelings.]
After saying this, Anima fell silent again for a mont and looking at with eyes filled with determination, she conveyed her feelings to .
[……You don’t have to be amazing. You don’t have to be strong. I didn’t serve Master because you’re amazing, nor am I devoting myself to you because you’re strong.]
As she continued to speak, Anima’s face gradually grew redder and redder. However, she didn’t stop speaking and continued weaving her words with a blush on her face.
[Those things don’t matter, as for …… For …… the Master, who is always kind, but still has the courage to stand up when needed, and treats even a squire like myself with warmth…… i- i- is the one I adore!!!]
[………………..]
[Because I was able to recognize these feelings, I was able to ascertain that these feelings were true…… I no longer needed to excessively raise up Master’s na. For …… Unembellished, just as Master always was…… is the most wonderful Master will always be…… and I want to always be on Master’s side, and be able to help Master.]
Liking not because I’m amazing, adoring not because I’m strong…… They were words wholeheartedly telling that she loved the unembellished , just the way I am.
This was her feelings that clearly answered the emotions she had hidden since the ti of the Six Kings Festival.
The words she told were inexplicably warm————- and made really happy.
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