Facing each other and sipping a glass of wine, Illness calmly thought.
(Seriouslyyyy, this is troubliiiiiing. I never thought it would be thiiiiiis difficult to control my emotioooooons.)
From the viewpoint of Kaito, Illness is handling the situation with a mature and relaxed attitude and seems calm and collected in this situation, but in reality, her innermost feelings are different.
Her words of a few minutes ago ca from her heart, and even now, her mind is in a different state than it would be normally.
(Even when I suppress my desiiiiiires, they seem to co out without limiiiiit, and I can’t help but feel repulsed at my own shallowness. Seriouslyyyy, I really don’t know where these unknown feelings were in eeeeee.)
Until she t Kaito, it hadn’t been difficult for her to control her emotions. In fact, just controlling her emotions had never even crossed her mind.
Illness was always acting natural…… which in a way, proves that she was empty, but she was always able to spend her ti flatly and never had any doubts or felt inconvenienced about it.
However, when she was with Kaito, Illness’ emotions moved much more than before, and she herself was at the rcy of them in a bewildering way.
(Maybe it’s becaaaaaause I decided to be more selfish than usual todaaaaaay? Normallyyyyy, this ti should have ended when we got back from the night markeeeeeet…… but the ti I spend together with Kaito-sama is sooooo happy, so comfortableeeeee, that it’s hard for to stop myseeeeeelf. I’m even troubling Kaito-sama because of thiiiiiiiis.)
After the night market, she offered Kaito a cup of tea and went to the bathroom to wash his back, and even at this ti of the night, she’s still enjoying her evening drink with him.
(I should be apologetic to hiiiiiim, but seriously, how troubliiiiiing. All I can think about now is how happy I aaaaaaaaam.)
The reason why Kaito, who can sense emotions with his Sympathy Magic and is sensitive to changes in emotions, is unaware of Illness’ feelings of confusion is that Illness’ feelings of happiness were so strong that they overshadowed it.
Therefore, the feelings Kaito could feel from Illness conveyed through his Sympathy Magic were all such feelings of blessedness and joy, so he was unaware of the confusion in her heart.
(What do I want to happeeeeen? What kind of person do I want to be for youuuuuu? The back theeeen would never have thought I would worry about sothing like thiiiiiiis.)
If her forr self, the Illness before she t Kaito, were to look at her current self, she would be astonished from the bottom of her heart.
She has changed so much that she was convinced that no one would call her empty if they saw her now.
(Even though I should have been satisfied seeing you happyyyyyy, how mysteriouuuuuus. When I am with youuuuu, I realize that I, who haven’t changed oooooover the years, am changing more and mooooooore. I’m confuuuuuused, but I’m happy that I myself am changiiiiing, because I’m sure it’s because of what Kaito-samaaaaa has given .)
She was bewildered by her changing self, but she enjoyed the change and felt happy about it. Even the fact that Kaito’s happiness being all that mattered to her and her own happiness being able to see his smile was gradually changing.
Her desire for Kaito’s happiness beca stronger, and although she hadn’t yet been able to formulate her wish clearly, she began to hope for a future with Kaito.
(……Every ti I talk to youuuuu, every ti we spend ti together like this, I feel more and more in love with you. Soooooo much that I can’t feel any limits……)
Thinking of this, Illness took a sip from her glass and looked at Kaito sitting across from her, and as their eyes happened to et, she felt a warm heartbeat in her chest as Kaito smiled at her.
[……Kaito-samaaaa?]
[What is it?]
[If there’s another opportunityyyyy, may I invite you to an after-al drink agaaaaaaain?]
At Illness’ words, Kaito looked surprised for a mont. As far as their relationship was concerned, even though he had invited her before, she had never invited him out for anything.
That’s why, Kaito was a little surprised when she said that, but he imdiately nodded with a bright smile on his face.
[Yes, of course…… I’m looking forward to it.]
[Kuhihi, yeeeees.]
Illness’ inner self, which is changing little by little, is also being expressed in her facial expression, and seeing Illness smiling more happily than usual, Kaito blushed a bit.
Even then…… It wasn’t like it was just Kaito……
(……Seriouslyyyyy, how troubliiiiiing. It’s not that it’s unpleasaaaaant, but when it cos to Kaito-samaaaa, I really can’t control my feeliiiiiings…… Even though tonight should have been a peaceful niiiiiight, my heart is beating a little toooooooo loudly.)
Serious-senpai : [This is hell, an everlasting sugar path…… D*mn it, is seriousness dood to be sugar-coated in the face of this series……]
? ? ? : [No, like I said, can you stop making up words? I’m getting irritated with how those made-up words fit so well.]
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