The response she received was an endless silence.
After a long while, she cracked a smile: "Yeah, you’re dead, how could you possibly answer ..."
Another long while passed: "Right, you’re dead... dead for twelve years already..."
Twelve years, it’s already been twelve years... Ti flew by, twelve years went by just like that.
During these twelve years, she never allowed herself to think about him, as if he had never been a part of her life; she thought that by doing this, she could beco indifferent, that she could be nonchalant.
It wasn’t until that day, in the car, when Xia Wan’an called her sister-in-law and brought up his na... It wasn’t until Xie Lin ca looking for her and left behind this ring... that she realized the man’s every frown and smile, every gesture and action, every word and deed... Even after twelve years, she still rembered everything so clearly, so vividly.
She was an orphan, she had endured the most excruciating days of the human world; had it not been for Q to pick her up and raise her, she would probably have died at a very young age.
In the Han Family’s eyes, in Xia Wan’an’s eyes, in Xie Lin’s eyes, Q was an outright villain, but in Chen Qingtian’s world, Q was her savior, her family; in her eyes, Q was a good person.
Therefore, when Q arranged for her to get close to Han Jingwen, she complied, and later, when Q ordered her to kill Han Jingwen, she did as told.
She never asked herself whether what she did was right or wrong... Right or wrong didn’t really matter; what was important was the choice, and she chose not to betray Q.
She always believed that she didn’t love Han Jingwen, that she was only pretending to be imrsed in the romantic play. She watched Han Jingwen shower her with affection and pampering, but she remained emotionally unmoved; even when Han Jingwen told her, "Xiaoqing, whatever you want, as long as I can provide it, I will," she half-jokingly asked him, "What if I want your life? Will you give it to ?" He patted her head with a laugh, thinking she was joking, and tenderly said, "Yes, I’ll give it to you."
She truly thought he was just saying it casually because she believed that no one in this world would be foolish enough to give their life away to another person.
During that rescue operation, when she moved to kill him, he actually realized it, but still pretended not to know. She was very clear that he was betting, betting she would have a change of heart, would save him at the last mont... but she didn’t; she left him behind.
For the first ti in twelve years, the past ca flooding back to Chen Qingtian, and she couldn’t hold back any longer; she completely broke down.
That man must have been sick, thinking she had killed him, he shouldn’t hate her, should he? But why didn’t he tell Xie Lin it was she who killed him, why say he didn’t bla her... And Xie Lin, why tell her all this, why show her this ring, wouldn’t it be better for her to never know these things?
Chen Qingtian began to scream like a madwoman, scratching at the walls until her fingernails were bloody; then she started to bang her head against the wall, thud thud thud.
This is how she slowly killed herself, she could have ended her life quickly, but she chose to slowly torture herself to death, just like the drug she used on Han Jingwen, which slowly tortured him to death.
When Chen Qingtian felt she was close to dying, she began to desperately search for that box, she groped on the ground, groping and groping, and after a long ti, finally managed to grab that box.
(In short, the story of the Second Brother and Chen Qingtian is essentially one of love and murder, where the Second Brother ended up betting his life on love and lost.)
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