Early December.
It was thatti for college students.
Two weeks until the end of the sester, which ant, there were formidable foes that needed to be defeated.
The final exams and final project submissions, two things that left people exhausted.
-Riiing
I quickly reached for my vibrating phone and swiped the screen to answer the call.
「Hello?」
「Hello.」
It was a call from Doah. I had been waiting for a long ti for it.
She said that she was busy and couldn’t contact properly. I greeted her excitedly.
「Oh! Are you done now?」
「...Oppa.」
Contrary to my expectations, she sounded extrely tired.
An uneasy feeling began to arise.
「...Yeah?」
「I’m sorry, I don’t think we can et until next week.」
But why?
I thought it’d be okay for us to go to school together.
The list of questions I had grew too big, so I took a deep breath before asking.
「By et, you ant going out on a date, right?」
「...Yes.」
「What about going to school together?」
「Ah, of course we can do that.」
I felt relieved, but it was still hard to hide my disappointnt.
「Does not being able to et include today?」
「Yes... I haven’t finished studying yet…」
Hearing her voice gradually getting smaller, I shed a tear inwardly.
「I see…」
「Yes... I’m sorry…」
「Will you be able to stream?」
She did say that she wouldn’t be able to since she was too busy in real life. What a professional girl my girlfriend was.
「I can’t do anything about the stream. Well, I told the company that I might have a hiatus next week, I still don’t know if I’ll have the ti to see you.」
「No, no, if it’s next week, I’ll probably be busy too, so it’s fine.]
Of course, it wasn’t like I had more on my plate than Doah did. I was just the type to cram all that studying last minute for the final week.
The break would feel depressing if I got terrible grades, you know?
I didn’t know about others, but, when it ca to the exams…
Especially when I bombed the finals, I’d end up feeling depressed when the winter vacation ca.
「I see... Anyways, let’s work hard together, and make sure to have lots of fun during the break!!」
At her words that sounded like setting off a flag, I imdiately set to destroy that flag.
「We’ll have fun even if it’s not during the break.」
「Alright, you should study too, Oppa. Or else, you’ll screw up your exam.」
「I’m already studying.」
「Good job. Anyway, I need to continue what I’m doing, so, I’ll contact you again after the stream!」
“Huh...? Wait!”
After she was done saying everything she wanted, she abruptly hung up.
I double-checked, but the screen was red.
But… I was waiting… For so long…
Moreover, I had been diligently working on my assignnts to the point that my eyes would turn bloodshot at the thought of eting Doah. Now, all I could do was slump in my chair, feeling empty inside.
Right… I could just watch the stream later… That should count as eting her, right…?
I tried to comfort myself, but because my ti suddenly freed up, it felt like my ntal state was collapsing.
Kim Doah…
You were the one who cried, telling to pay more attention to you…
But you neglected your boyfriend like this just because you were busy…
I felt so spiteful to the point I considered filing up a complaint, but unfortunately, no brilliant idea ca to mind.
It felt childish to whine just because of this.
In the end, I crawled back into my bed, starting to rewatch her clips over and over again, just like I always did before eting Doah.
It was true that after she officially joined CLOSER, she had a lot more variety in her content.
She always aid to stream alone, so co-op or party gas weren’t an option back then, but not anymore.
CLOSER had five mbers, an enormous workforce to say, and every weekend they’d play the latest trending gas or the consistently popular multiplayer gas.
So, I watched them all.
Again.
And again.
Rewatching was my pasti usually, but today, for so reason…
It just didn’t feel the sa.
In the end, unable to go over thirty minutes, I turned off YouTube and started racking my brain to find what the problem was.
Was this the effect of Doah telling to stop liking Luka so much?
But that shouldn’t be the case, she was okay with liking her, I just needed to refrain talking about Luka a little when Doah and I were talking, that should be all.
If my interest in Luka cooled off instead, would Doah feel disappointed?
Anyway, if that wasn’t the problem, why the hell did I feel so dissatisfied?
Hmm…
I only discovered the answer to that question…
…very late into the night.
* * *
“Aaaah!!! Why why?! Eeeeeek! Why is it coming out from there?!?!”
Fuck, I’m so pissed!
Having to do assignnts all day long already made mad, so why did I have to deal with this kind of ga after all that?!
Which Pink Army recomnded this thing?!
I asked them to choose a ga for the second half of the stream after the zatsuwas done, but now I had the urge to kill my past self who listened to their bullshit and chose to suffer.
This ga was too hard!
I was already bad at gas, now I had to deal with this stupidly difficult ga!
[YOU DIED.]
That polite-looking font just pissed off even more!
[Luka-nim! You should dodge to the right for that one...]
“Hey! You think I don’t know that?!”
“Like, you really think I don’t know that?! You people!”
I yelled at the chat in a fit of anger, but I knew full well that I shouldn’t be doing that.
Because I wasn’t a small strear anymore. Many people would see in a negative light if I showed my genuine irritation like this.
“Uhuhuuu I can’t do itttt…”
But what was I even supposed to do? I was hurting…
Like, I died over thirty tis at the sa spot…
If I were really going to try and clear this ga before wrapping up the stream, I’d need to resolve myself to not get any sleep tonight.
Actually, even if I used all 24 hours of the day, I still might not be able to finish it.
[Let’s go for the 37th try~ Let’s go for the 37th try~ Let’s go for the 37th try~ Let’s go for the 37th try~ Let’s go for the 37th try~ Let’s go for the 37th try~ Let’s go for the 37th try~ Let’s go for the 37th try~ Let’s go for the 37th try~]
When I noticed a chatter who posted the death count, I secretly hovered my mouse over the tiout button before moving it away.
“My dear Pink Army. May I make a suggestion here?”
The public opinion was half and half.
Half seed like they would listen to my suggestion.
While the other half insisted that I absolutely must clear the ga today no matter what.
“Okay, hear out. I’m not trying to run away. So, listen to and let’s talk a little.”
After subduing the atmosphere in a dramatic way, I played my hidden card.
“Actually, I’ll have my final exams next week, but I haven’t studied at all…”
I tried to look as pitiful as possible.
You all liked , right? Kids?
So, please, let live, just this once.
I had a life, you know? I needed to live that life too, you know?!
“So rea~lly! I really want to stay up all night and clear this too…”
Boos were already pouring in.
At tis like this, I had to firmly express myself and state what I had to say.
“What if we do this again at the end of December? As for today, I’ll end the stream at two? Would…that…not…be…okay…?”
I frantically pressed the key for the model’s crying animation.
Tears endlessly flowed down from the pink eyes.
The Pink Army didn’t seem to hate my whining appearance that much, so the public opinion roughly reached an agreent.
Amidst that, a familiar userna caught my eye.
[Lucario: Luka-nim, fighting!!]
I told him to stop acting like a troll in the chat, yet he was still doing this!
Feeling a bit better upon reading his ssage, I fake coughed out of embarrassnt.
“A-Ahem...! So for now, I’ll just play the usual rhythm ga for another hour and then I’ll end the stream, okay…?”
There were still so people telling to keep playing that shitty ga, so I sneakily pressed the quit ga button while being mindful of them.
When I opened up the rhythm ga, my mind beca totally at peace.
Ahh… Ho sweet ho.
What they said about people finding solace in gas that didn’t require much brain power was true, after all.
Just like that, I apologized one more ti after excitedly tapping the keyboard to relieve stress and then ended the stream.
“Ah... So tired...”
I couldn't find a better expression to describe my current feeling other than that.
Both my mind and body were too exhausted.
Thinking that I should probably call Oppa, I grabbed my phone. But, maybe I should just ssage him that I was gonna sleep since he must be tired too. At that mont…
-Knock knock
Was anyone gonna co over?
It was 2.15 am though.
Who the hell would co over at this ti?
I considered ignoring it because I felt scared, but in the end, I decided to call Oppa instead.
「Hello.」
「Can you open the door for ?」
「...What?」
「I’m in front of your house right now, so please open the door.」
Taken aback by Oppa’s completely unexpected words, I went to the entrance and unlocked it, and there I found…
“Ah. I missed you so much! Kim Doah!”
“Huh...?”
Even now, I still couldn’t understand why this person was here at this hour.
But, he was hugging so tightly while smiling brightly, so I just stayed still. I liked this developnt though.
As soon as he let go of , Oppa took sothing out of a bag and held it out to .
“You must have a hard ti today, right?”
What he handed to was a sweet peach-flavored ice /genesisforsaken
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