Chapter 89 – Not what siblings do (4)
Translator: SKAIS Editor: Dict Groiler
At that mont, all I could think about was being dwarfed by a younger boy who happened to be a little taller than I was.
I could already feel his breath hit my skin.
“We really shouldn’t be doing this, okay? Not like this.” I insisted.
Then I caught a whiff of his scent.
That’s strange. He didn’t sll one bit like the damp cell he lived in. He slled sothing a little cooler, fresher...
More elegant...
He slled like lilies.
Is this one of the main benefits of being a main character? ntally, I shook my silly thoughts away. Plot armors rarely exist in real life.
“Like this...” he murmured.
I shuddered at the thought of it. He jerked up his face.
I couldn’t help but wonder what he was doing now?
And then I felt sothing soft graze my neck, brushing up against my collarbone in the process...
A hot breath hit my skin.
Oh.
It was his lips. It was unmistakable. He just kissed .
“Are you telling we can’t do this?” he asked again, I couldn’t help but feel more flustered.
“Wa-wait, wait!” I protested weakly. I could imagine himself rolling his eyes at as he looked up at , his face still hovering insanely close to my neck. Once again, I find myself drawn to his lashes, looking up at like an innocent, naive boy.
Unconsciously, I wetted my lips in my nervousness.
“Why can’t you do it with too? Don’t you want it?” he kept asking, “Can’t you think of any reason to do it with ? At all?”
I swallowed the lump in my throat and grabbed a hold of his hand. His free hand moved behind , keeping in place as he held still on the small of my back.
In this mont, I felt like I was the child instead, so naive of the ways of this world. It was like I was being reproached, as if everything I knew was wrong.
“That thing you did,” I began, “When you kissed my neck, where did you learn that from?”
“Ah, rida described it to before,” he explained, “ told not to do it.”
I couldn’t help but feel my sweat drop in exasperation.
“Then why do it at all?”
Thinking about this, maybe Ricdorian was but a small child when he had rida take care of him. As a young child, it would have been so natural for him to want to snuggle in, nuzzle his face closer than what was proper. Affection to, and from, children were always more lenient in what was proper and what wasn’t.
The problem was, now he’s older, it should have been already clear that this isn’t sothing he must do so casually. Hmm, if that was true, then it seems I have misunderstood rida-ssi after all. That person has taught him well.
I cleared my throat.
“Well, you were told correctly, so, don’t do it again.” I attempted to scold him. He seed to be mulling over his thoughts well, frowning in confusion.
I waited until he spoke up once more. I hope there won’t be any more incidents like this later on. That would be too troubleso to correct.
“Then,” he began, “You’ll co back to again? Visit again?” he asked, looking like the little boy he was supposed to be. I nodded at him, hoping to ease his worry, and my guilt while I’m at it.
“Of course,” I affird, “How about Monday?”
I then heard him whisper sothing, sothing only he could hear. It sounded an awful lot like Namdongsaeng, but I couldn’t be sure. For so reason, that world only made him clam up fractionally.
I could feel the tension in his body due to our proximity.
I should have asked him if he really wanted to be seen as soone’s brother. But I couldn’t seem to get the words out...
All because he’d been too bold in front of . Despite his shivering and obvious nervousness, he still pushed on and grabbed onto like a lifeline.
Everything about him, his body, voice...
Even the tip of his fingers...
He was never one to be soone considered as a younger brother. Not even the type as that cute-next-door-neighbor-who-is-like-a-brother type.
“This feeling,” he began to mumble again, “Even now... don’t you feel it too?”
“Still going on about that, huh? Even when you’re shaking like a leaf.” I pointed out. When I did, I saw him flinch and tremble so more. His face flushed a deeper red, as he averted his head, turning to the side. It wasn’t like I thought it was wrong, but even I could see the way his ears turned red.
“But I, I’d like to do this,” he continued, “I want to do this.” he seed confused. Determined, but still confused. So innocent, even as he asked of this.
He couldn’t even look at anymore.
Suddenly I felt him rest his head on my shoulders, a shaky breath emanating from him.
“Hey, I notice,” he whispered, “Why won’t you look at today?”
I felt my entire fra freeze up when he asked . It was like he knew, the guilt I was hiding within . It made feel quite vulnerable.
But how could I look at him? How can I bear to look at him in such proximity? When there is but a hair’s breadth between us.
“Tell , what can I do to get you to look at .”
He kept pleading, but I found it too much to even think to look at him. This mont, at this instant, I just couldn’t bear to do it. Not at this distance.
“I knew it.” he hissed to himself, “You don’t want to be here. You don’t actually want to see , don’t you?”
I could hear the tremble in his voice, the tears threatening to fall the more he insisted. I couldn’t bear to see him. But that isn’t why. But I can’t tell him...
I can’t tell him how I didn’t want to see him if he was just going to send to an early grave. When did he beco so comfortable to the point he’d let himself be so vulnerable in front of ?
I let out a shaky breath.
“That’s not true.” was all I could offer him right now.
“Then-”
“Shh,” I hushed him, “Let it go for now. Okay?”
Ricdorian hesitated, I can tell, even as he began to back away from . The warmth I felt from him went away as well, spreading a chill through my body.
I’d heard before that an animal’s body temperature normally ran higher than a human’s. Was this it? Was Ricdorian’s body naturally hotter than mine? I couldn’t tell.
I rarely saw him shiver in this cell whenever I ca by the visit, even when it’s supposed to be a cold underground. Except maybe that ti he was ill due to the beatings he got from his father.
But even when he began pulling away, there was sothing in that wished he wouldn’t. When I looked at him, and stared at his eyes, it was like he was beckoning to hold on to him...
To not let him go, as he won’t let go of either.
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