The girl was sowhat anxious and uneasy, timidly placing the two bottles of beer in her hands on the coffee table, slightly raising her head to glance at her expressionless father.
He didn't seem to mind her.
The girl relaxed a bit and lifted her foot to retreat toward her room, but suddenly heard her father ask: "Have you eaten dinner?"
She was startled like a rabbit, quickly answering: "I've eaten."
Her father turned to look at Lin Nan, his gaze sweeping her unfamiliar daughter from top to bottom, his brow furrowing tightly, his face showing so disgust.
This expression was heartbreaking, making Lin Nan's breath catch.
His gaze stopped at the curves on Lin Nan's chest: "A perfectly good man... Go cut your hair tomorrow. Going out looking half-male, half-female is embarrassing."
For the first ti being directly stared at her chest, Lin Nan felt no sha, but rather a mix of embarrassnt and guilt. Any father probably wouldn't want to see his son who he'd raised for eighteen years turn into this appearance, right?
She fidgeted helplessly, not knowing what to say, her nose feeling sour.
Her father lowered his head and began drinking, waving one hand and saying: "Go find your mother at your grandfather's tomorrow."
Clearly, Lin Nan was being rejected.
But she actually felt relieved. Although her grandfather and grandmother's attitude toward her was still unclear, at least her mother's protection would be there, and her mother at least wouldn't hate her.
Turning back into her room and locking the door behind her, Lin Nan slumped powerlessly against the door.
She couldn't muster much resentnt toward her father, only feeling wronged that he couldn't accept and understand her.
I didn't want to beco like this either. I also hate the way I've beco a girl.
Previously, when she beca female, it coincided with the critical period of final exam review. Lin Nan tried to suppress her anxiety about becoming female deep in her heart, but now, it exploded uncontrollably.
Like a volcanic eruption, unprecedented sadness instantly enveloped her.
She slid powerlessly to the floor, heartbroken to the extre, yet unable to cry no matter what. She stared blankly at the bedroom curtains, unable to say a word for a long ti.
The cold seed to spread outward from her heart, covering her entire body, as if it would freeze her whole being.
She despised everything about herself.
Despised her protruding chest,
Despised her snow-white delicate skin,
Despised her refined features,
And even more despised her constantly escapist and avoidant mindset.
She even wished she could cut her chest flat,
Ruin her skin back to its forr rough state,
Cut her hair into a buzz cut or even go bald.
But no matter how she changed now, she was essentially a girl.
If possible, she would rather face the pressure of finals constantly. At least then she lived fulfillingly, her mind wouldn't wander, and she could indefinitely avoid all troubles.
She had always cared greatly about others' opinions of her. So as a male, he wanted to be as masculine as possible, and as a female, she also wanted to beco a qualified girl, at least to beco soone who wouldn't attract attention on the street, to blend into society and groups.
But this idea seed to have failed. Even with desperate struggle, she couldn't resist magic's transformation of her body.
Could she take male hormones and have surgery to beco a man again?
A strange thought suddenly appeared in Lin Nan's mind, but on second thought, a man transford that way would only be male in appearance and wouldn't have reproductive ability.
Just let it be, go with the flow wherever it leads...
She felt sowhat like a withered leaf, trembling as it hung on a branch, enduring the howling cold wind, not knowing when it would be blown to an unknown distance.
Her emotions were very low, and Lin Nan's thoughts uncontrollably developed in a pessimistic direction.
Mom had already divorced him, split the house, left this ho... Why didn't I know anything? Is she also disgusted with , or does she simply not care about at all?
Lin Nan curled up sitting by the door, leaning against the door panel, her gaze vacant. In the end, no one would care about , right?
Her father treated her as an embarrassing eyesore, an anomaly. Her mother had sohow suddenly lost contact. Her grandfather and grandmother, those old-fashioned people living in the countryside, couldn't possibly accept her. If her roommates knew about her situation, they might only look at her with disgusted, revolted eyes.
Chen Yao...
He's only nice to because he's attracted to my body, right?
Lin Nan had been a man after all, and especially now that she'd beco a girl, her way of thinking had also changed sowhat. She could naturally sense Chen Yao's sotis fervent gaze.
She sighed softly, turning to look at Cola, who was crouched on the bed watching her.
Although Cola was very smart, it wasn't to the degree where it could comfort her. Lin Nan pouted and lowered her head, burying her face between her knees, her body trembling slightly.
Why did things turn out this way? Why did I beco a woman?
Very suddenly, knocking ca from the front door outside.
Lin Nan, sunk in sadness, remained unmoved and continued curling up there. Her originally sensitive and tense heart seed to have beco particularly numb.
The sound of her father getting up ca from the living room. After a mont, the iron door was opened, followed by her father's voice.
"Who are you?"
"Lin Nan's friend, here to take her out to play."
The familiar voice entered her ears. Lin Nan showed no reaction, only silently getting up and dragging her tired body back to bed.
"Co in."
A series of movents ca from the living room. Chen Yao seed to be eagerly chatting with her father about sothing. From their tone of voice, they seed to get along quite well.
After a mont, the bedroom door was also knocked, then the door handle was turned, but because it was locked from inside, the visitor was still blocked outside.
"Lin Nan, let's go out and play?"
"I'm sleeping, not going."
"I'll treat you to barbecue."
"Not going."
"Co out quickly! What are you doing in there! Really planning to be a virtuous wife and loving mother housewife?"
Her father's sudden voice startled her into trembling. Like a seriously ill patient, she weakly and slowly got up, as if moving in slow motion, reaching for her coat to put on.
Perhaps seeing her father's extrely bad tone, Chen Yao outside the door began arguing with him.
The noise was unconsciously blocked by Lin Nan's brain. She could only hear a chaotic racket and cursing.
Lin Nan didn't know what there was to argue about. Although her father's tone was indeed very bad, this was her family matter.
The bedroom door was pushed open by her. Looking up, she saw Chen Yao gritting his teeth while holding an empty beer bottle, his eyes red with anger, veins bulging on his neck and arms, his body trembling slightly.
Her father had been pushed and fallen against the wall, sitting there, pointing at his own head like a madman: "Hit ! Aim here and hit! Son of a bitch!"
The scene was chaotic. In just a few minutes, the living room had beco a complete ss, with glass beer bottles shattered all over the floor.
"Let's go! I really stepped in shit today!" Chen Yao saw Lin Nan co out, gave up continuing the argunt, stepped forward and grabbed her wrist, dragging her toward the door. "How can there be such a person!!"
"Huh?"
Lin Nan was still sowhat bewildered. Before she could say anything, she was pulled out of the house.
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