Chapter 1709: Chapter 147: A Different Story (2)_2
This state of being is excruciatingly painful, for he feels he should be angry, he should be panicked, even afraid!
But there’s nothing at all. The hatred before his death was so deep, the mories of his two lives as a human were so profound, he could recall every scene of his life with precision, yet he just couldn’t summon any emotion, as if he was an indifferent bystander.
This feeling is terrible, he wants to roar but doesn’t know how to start, he wants to smash this world but is powerless to do so.
“Even after becoming an astral body, I’m still the sa piece of trash!”
After a calm self-mocking comnt, Tang Luo began a long silence, passively experiencing the “life” of an astral body.
He should be alive, because he can still think, he can still see, although this perspective is very fixed, even immobile.
Apart from this, he could move, or rather say, in this starry sky, the vast majority of his companions are moving, so spinning in place, so orbiting around other celestial bodies, but all without exception, they are following so specific trajectories.
A cycle of reincarnation, long or short, without any change.
Overall, the main features of this astral life probably lie in solitude and order.
Such a life experience is utterly aningless!
Even though he has now lost the thing called emotion, Tang Luo despises this state.
Because he once
This is the three-thousandth ti he, as an astral body, has seen that unattractive celestial body.
Yes, because astral life is just too boring, he has already started to record all the “companions” he encounters from his fixed perspective, and given them nas.
For example, the one he’s encountering now, covered in craters, is called “Celestial Ugly.”
And the one that looks like an upside-down goose egg shape that he’s about to et is called “Celestial Swan.”
Besides these, there is the smooth “Celestial Hero,” the one surrounded by a chain of teors called “Celestial Sage,” the crimson “Celestial Killer,” the huge “Celestial Fat”…
After sixty-four rotations, from his fixed perspective, he would see a total of four thousand and ninety-five celestial companions.
This is the final conclusion after thousands of cycles. Perhaps there are more celestial bodies beyond his fixed perspective, but this is all he can see.
He does not know if among these celestial bodies there are others like him, capable of thought, capable of sight.
But based on the information obtained so far, even if there are companions with consciousness like him, it doesn’t matter.
In the long years of revolution, he has tried countless ways to control himself, even to just briefly stop during the course of his orbit.
But no matter how hard he tries, the result is in vain. Such a life is worse than death.
This is not a rash remark, for since he beca an astral body, he has been devoid of emotions.
A him like this would not joke or get angry, so when he says living is worse than dying, it is a very considerable living is worse than dying.
Putting it simply, after the novelty of the fixed perspective fades, he feels that living this way is pointless.
Either end this current state or end himself.
After carefully weighing the difficulty, he chooses the latter – to end this astral life journey.
So, how should an astral body end its own life?
Turns out it’s simple, collide with another star, burst into beautiful light in the void, such a funeral should be considered grand.
But what sounds simple is often not that easy to execute.
Never mind the rest, he can’t even do sothing as simple as moving his perspective right now, let alone how to break free from a predetermined orbit and attempt such a difficult task as a “hit-and-run.”
Look at what you have now, a vivid mind and a fixed unchanging perspective.
With only these two useless abilities, how am I to self-destruct?
Thinking…
…
Since becoming an astral body, the only thing Tang Luo has left is ti.
Not the ti of his previous life when people would self-deceivingly say they only have ti but really only a lifeti of thirty thousand days, but a potent confidence in units of billions of years.
With a calm brain unaffected by emotions and careful analysis, Tang Luo believes that saying he only has ti left is an appropriately considerable judgnt.
And with strong computing power and prolonged thought, he actually found the reason for his current helpless situation.
The reason he can’t control his celestial body is because his current consciousness is too weak.
Compared to his life as a human being, his consciousness has beco much stronger.
He does not get tired, is not swayed by emotions, his computational ability is trendously strong, and his mory far exceeds ordinary people by countless tis.
But compared to celestial bodies, this kind of strength is obviously not enough, even negligible.
Just like the human body, all your actions are initiated by commands from the brain and then carried out by the body’s organs.
The original him was just an ordinary person, controlling nothing more than the body of an average person that weighs over a hundred pounds.
But now he has transford into a celestial being, and what he needs to manipulate is no longer the human body, but a planet that potentially can bear everything!
To command it just like moving one’s arm with thought alone?
This is not akin to an ant shaking a tree—it must at the very least be like shaking a mountain.
However, from another perspective, this could also be an avenue to consider.
What if this ant were to grow large and strong?
An ant as big as a mountain, could it shake a mountain?
It seems that there would still be a chance, right?
So, can the mind be strengthened as well?
It should be possible, just as muscles can be trained, the mind can be exercised and fortified.
The simplest thod is naturally ditation or breathing exercises, but these are designed for the human body and obviously wouldn’t suit him.
But in addition to breathing and ditation, ntal strength can also be trained using the five senses.
Zen has a practice called mindfulness, where practitioners fixate their thoughts on a particular object and concentrate on observing it, and this is called focus (ntal strength).
By intensifying the stimulation of the five senses, one can achieve the effect of exercising ntal strength, until supernatural abilities are unlocked.
At the mont, he still retains a fixed point of view akin to the human eye.
Perhaps this could serve as a tool for him to exercise his ntal strength?
Having identified a direction, he began to try to invest his consciousness into this fixed point of view.
Perhaps because it strips away other senses, he is able to concentrate more.
This process went on very smoothly, as his focus kept on intensifying within the fixed point of view, he felt as if everything around him slowed down.
More importantly, he could feel that tireless consciousness, during such intense concentration, begin to fluctuate and change.
From this perspective… This path, it’s viable!
…
ntal training is an extrely long process. The first ti he trained, he persisted for thirty-six entire orbital periods until his focus was exhausted and his consciousness diffused, resulting in an unconscious state akin to fainting.
He didn’t know if it was his imagination, but after waking up, he found that his fixed point of view seed to have broadened slightly.
Without hesitation, upon waking, Tang Luo once again invested his consciousness into the vision, engaging in ntal strength training.
This ti, he persisted for nearly forty orbital periods before he fainted again.
Ti after ti, he was able to endure longer and longer, and the fixed point of view seed to have changed ever so slightly.
After two hundred sixty-six thousand one hundred forty-four training sessions, Tang Luo discovered that his focus had beco so strong that he could now turn off that fixed point of view!
Joy—although he could no longer experience intense emotions, Tang Luo stubbornly believed that he ought to be very pleased at this mont.
Because this was the first ti since he beca a celestial being that he gained a power of control other than thought.
This proved that his approach was correct. Strengthening ntal power indeed had the ability to affect reality!
That day, he was like a child with a new toy, ceaselessly turning the fixed point of view off and then back on again.
Until he exhausted his consciousness to nothingness, once again entering a state of deep sleep.
…
The hardest part is always the beginning, which refers to the process from zero to one.
Two hundred sixty-six thousand training sessions in ntal strength allowed the celestial being to gain the ability to toggle the fixed point of view on and off, and also led him to a new training thod.
Compared to the old routine of channeling consciousness into vision, the thod of continuously switching on and off clearly consus more ntal energy.
Greater consumption ans that he will exhaust his energy quicker during training.
Although celestial beings have an almost infinite lifespan and need not chase efficiency excessively, when such an opportunity arises, the resolute Tang Luo determined to die has no reason to let it pass.
To hasten his self-destruction!
On, off, on, off… fainting… awakening… on, off, on, off, on, off… repeating this cycle again and again, his consciousness kept growing stronger.
If soone could see his spirit now, they would notice that the previously pitch-black sphere had begun to exhibit so subtle changes.
Reviews
All reviews (0)