Chapter 612: Chapter 621: I Don’t Know What Else I Can Do Besides Leaving the Three-Foot Podium
Bai Yu knew that Ye Xiu would definitely follow through with her words, refusing to provide him with food or pocket money, so now he really couldn’t do much.
He needed money for the things he wanted to do.
So, he had no choice but to accept.
“I know,” Bai Yu said reluctantly. He was compelled by the circumstances; it wasn’t because he felt he was in the wrong, for he hadn’t made a mistake.
Ye Xiu nodded indifferently and continued to eat. She had to eat more, even more so, since this al had been prepared by Xingxing.
After the al, Ye Xiu went to help with the cleanup, Bai Zhi washed the dishes while she rinsed them again with clean water.
At this ti, they weren’t using detergent but alkali.
It was the edible alkali used for making stead buns; of course, one could also use ash from burnt plants.
The two of them worked seamlessly together. A sense of joy welled up in Ye Xiu’s heart. Was this Xingxing’s way of forgiving her?
“Xingxing, why don’t you co live with ?”
It would be so wonderful for mother and daughter to live together every day.
“No, I just ca to see you today. Uncle Nan Jin said you couldn’t eat and had lost a lot of weight because of ; is that true?”
Bai Zhi shook her head; it was impossible for her to live with Ye Xiu. “Each to his own” as the saying goes.
Moreover, she couldn’t act as if nothing had happened. That was impossible.
“Xingxing…” Ye Xiu’s lips moved, unsure of what to say.
“I’ve seen you teaching in class; you were impressive, and everyone likes you.
I think you’re happy too, so keep it going, and I wish you all the best in the future.
But don’t say you’re not eating because of anymore. After all, even if that were true, I actually wouldn’t feel anything.
I thought we had reached an understanding, to each pursue our dreams. Is that not the case?”
Bai Zhi looked at Ye Xiu with confusion, the alienation in her eyes never changing.
“I’ve never said that you were bad to , you believe .”
Ye Xiu hurriedly spoke up, truly regretting that she had not been a good mother. Even now…
“Oh, whatever. I just ca to look. I don’t think I’ll co again if there’s nothing important, and I hope you do the sa. Since you’ve chosen your own path, stride forward and don’t look back.
Because even if you do look back, I won’t be waiting for you.”
This ti, Bai Zhi was very clear with Ye Xiu.
She looked at Ye Xiu as usual, just drying her hands with a towel, the corners of her mouth still smiling.
But this deanor of hers appeared even more earnest to onlookers.
She was serious, and Ye Xiu realized that her Xingxing really wouldn’t forgive her.
She thought that as long as she acknowledged her mistakes, Xingxing would forgive her…
But she had forgotten that she wouldn’t forgive Bai Da in the sa situation.
Because harm is harm; it can’t simply be forgotten with ti. She couldn’t forget the pain and anger from that ti.
“Xingxing, I understand now. I’m sorry I wasn’t a good mother and didn’t give you a pleasant childhood.
I neglected you for other things. I’ve always been so arrogant, thinking I could make ands,” Ye Xiu thought to herself with a self-deprecating smile.
She looked at her young daughter, whose eyes harbored no resentnt or unwillingness.
She simply stood there faintly, with a smile on her lips as she looked at her.
“I asked you to do sothing I can’t even do myself, am I ridiculous, Xingxing?”
Xingxing had suffered so much and was finally able to live a good life; why should she demand Xingxing’s forgiveness and continue to wrestle with a painful past?
“No, you just took so things for granted. Everyone does—it’s easy to assu others can forgive easily, but when it’s their turn, they realize that no one can truly feel the pain of their injuries.”
Bai Zhi looked at her and spoke lightly. In fact, Ye Xiu wasn’t unreasonable; she had simply adopted the role of a mother.
Subconsciously, she felt that having co this far, why couldn’t her daughter forgive her?
“Xingxing, when you say it like that, I feel ashad. You’re right, I’ve always thought too highly of myself, believing that being a teacher, I should selflessly care for every child without considering whether they need it or not.
And even more presumptuously, I took for granted that my family should support , without considering whether my child needed her mother or not. Nor did I consider if there was another way.
I always felt you all should support unconditionally, cooperate with , understand , and in the end, still love .
How could I be so shaless, Xingxing?”
Ye Xiu was also reflecting on herself. Even though she knew where she had gone wrong, by now she was inseparable from the three-foot podium.
For Xingxing, perhaps all she could offer was an apology.
“Xingxing, I’m sorry. I don’t want to leave the three-foot podium. See, I’m selfish too. I’ve gotten used to sacrificing everything for the children. If I weren’t a teacher, I wouldn’t know what my purpose is.”
Ye Xiu couldn’t imagine what it would be like to leave the podium. If she wasn’t a teacher, what else could she do?
It wasn’t that she couldn’t do sothing else; she just no longer wanted to.
She dearly loved this podium and hoped she could do sothing for the children, so that, looking back, all the mories would be happy ones.
She was no longer a good mother, and she didn’t want to end up not being a good teacher either.
“Um, I think that’s really good. Everyone has their own dreams, and it’s great that you can do what you like.”
How many people can truly say that their dreams align with their jobs? Those who love music end up doing sothing else; those who love design beco workers.
Being able to turn what you love into your profession is a wonderful thing.
So there’s nothing wrong with Ye Xiu persisting. On the contrary, Bai Zhi envied her.
Although Bai Zhi had been reborn, before this life, she didn’t know what she wanted to do. She learned many things, all for the sake of survival.
But now, she wanted to study traditional Chinese dicine; she liked it and loved it, and she would always keep at it.
Most importantly, she would protect the Bai Family alongside Grandpa Hann, her teacher, and the Ancestor.
Because of the Bai Family’s dragon vein, she could stay again, and she had to guard it.
“Mom, in the future, I might not co here often. My injury was too severe. I need to follow Grandpa Hann to the city for dicinal baths…
I don’t know how long it will be, so you don’t have to worry about from now on.”
Although Bai Zhi seed to have recovered, she had actually been fundantally injured. It would take a long ti to recuperate, and she had to make herself stronger.
“When will you go?”
Ye Xiu hadn’t expected to hear this news suddenly; it was a bit much for her to take in.
“I might need another two months to get ready. So, I wish you a bright future and great prospects.”
She had thought about not telling Ye Xiu because once Ye Xiu knew, many people would know.
But Grandpa had said her itinerary had to be transparent. Nowadays, many eyes are on the Bai Family, even on her, and only by being open can they better protect her and draw the snake out of its hole…
This visit was to clear things up with Ye Xiu.
“I understand. I also wish you, Xingxing’s mother, health and happiness in the future.”
Reviews
All reviews (0)