33 Uneasiness.
[Adilun's POV]
Rodenov still greeted with a cold, bitter wind.
After exiting the teleport gate, the appearance of Caltix Fortress ca into full view; A place covered with freezing ice, yet still filled with the warmth of those who live in it.
It wasnt flashy or lively like Enadeim, but just looking at this iron-clad fortress gave so peace of mind.
No matter how splendid and mysterious the appearance of the capital was, it seed that it did not evoke as much emotion as the place where I was born and raised.
'Ho. Yes, it is my ho.'
It was a peacefulness that I hadn't felt in a long ti.
My father told the mbers of Caltix Castle about Aiden and the great duel.
They were angry at Aiden for insulting and prepared to condemn them.
My father also announced to the knights that Physis had been selected as the great warrior of Rodenov, but the knights showed considerable dissatisfaction.
But soon after when they heard that he had won the hunting competition and jousting match and that, he had condemned Alan Aiden for insulting , that dissatisfaction subsided a little.
Instead, they nodded at my fathers words that father would have to test Physis' qualifications to beco a great warrior, and asked my father how he would test him.
My father said that he would judge Physis qualifications by sparring with the knights of Rodenov.
Because of that, the knights burned with even more passion and started training repeatedly to improve their skills. It was because they saw it as an opportunity to legally beat Physis, who they always wanted to beat, as well as they could get selected as a great warrior in the great duel.
anwhile, I locked myself in my room and rested.
But perhaps the servants were considerate of when I returned, because they did not make a fuss and took care of so that I could rest comfortably, and I really liked that consideration.
Because I needed ti to organize my thoughts.
It was only a short few days, but the things that happened at the National Foundation Day festival, sowed sha and relief, and anxiety and fear in at the sa ti.
He has changed. I just didnt want to admit it, but he had definitely changed.
Just by the way his family treated him, it was evident how he had been for the three months since he had been kicked out of Rodenov.
The people of Ortaire, who had previously regarded him as sothing troubleso, now believed in him.
'Can one gain peoples trust in three months?'
And being able to win back such trust from those who have lost all trust in him, proved that he had worked very hard.
Also, his attitude towards was much more different, to the point of believing that he was a completely different person.
Even when I pushed him in my confusion, he apologized to with sincere apologies and swore in front of that he would never do that again.
In fact, I didn't know how many tis I tore off the covers that night out of embarrassnt. To say such an embarrassing thing casually.
Since then he started worrying about all the ti.
He beat Alan Aiden who had insulted and said he would directly fight for , and even when monsters attacked the princesses during the hunting competition, he took care of first.
On the day we watched the festival together after the jousting match when he looked at wearing a mask, he put on a guilty expression.
He cared about enough to even think of inviting to the festival might have made uncomfortable.
I was really happy to see that expression.
Because of that, I was able to trust him more All the while, I hoped he wouldnt change again.
So I made a promise.
If he maintains a consistent attitude for the next nine months, lets erase all the wrongs weve done to each other and go back to square one.
But in a corner of my heart, there was still a feeling of unease.
'Why did he change?'
Because the root cause was still unknown.
Change always cos with a purpose. People change when they have a purpose.
But I couldnt guess even the slightest reason why he had changed.
It had only been two days at that ti since he went back with a disgusted face saying he didnt want to see right now. I couldnt understand him changing his attitude again after only two days.
That fact made uneasy. I felt like he could go back to his old attitude whenever he wanted.
The mind to trust him and the mind not to trust him collided.
'What if, after 9 months, he suddenly changed again? What if he looked at with feeling of anger and disgust as before?'
'Will I be able to stand it?'
* * *
I can see the figure of Physis in front of my eyes.
He looks at with the friendly smile that he had shown so often lately.
And I was pleased because he smiles like that for now.
The negative emotions that had always stood on his face in the past had turned into positive emotions before I knew it, and were heading toward .
We walked hand in hand. The stories that popped out were trivial, but that alone made us laugh happily.
'Happy...'
If the companion I will be with for the rest of my life is a person who cares for , I will be happy.
I grabbed him and led him. What we saw in front of us was the bell tower of Caltix Fortress.
This was my favorite place, where I could see the vast Caltix Fortress at a glance. Soday, I always wanted to introduce it to soone who would be with sincerely.
He seed surprised by the appearance of the bell tower. He smiled and look at . I also smiled and lead him by my hand.
After climbing quite a lot of stairs, we ca up on my favorite scenery; The appearance of the imagistic Caltix Fortress and the people living in it was revealed.
I set with him on the ledge of the bell tower. He dissuaded saying it was dangerous, but I told him not to worry and that I was fine.
The biting wind brushed through my scales. Even that was good. This cold wind that made aware that I was alive was the foundation of my life.
I gently revealed that it was my favorite scenery.
He also smiled and said.
Did you lead here for this plain sight? Its ridiculous.
'Ridiculous.'
He said with an audible, harsh, hateful voice.
What makes you laugh so well? Just looking at that disgusting face of yours makes feel sick. Hey, you monster..
'No. Im not a monster.'
He muttered in dismay.
Not a monster? Hahahaha. You are at least funny. Just look at yourself.
He forcibly lifted my arm and put it in my field of vision.
Does a woman have scales? Do humans have horns? No. No.
With anger ca sorrow.
Dont pretend to be a human, monster. Just looking at you is disgusting.
'Scary.'
I was suddenly scared of the abrupt change of the person who had smiled at just recently.
His denial of my existence made so sad.
Ah, uh
I started crying.
* * *
ah.
Opening my eyes. I saw the familiar look of my bedroom.
Dream. It was a dream.
I mumble blankly and soon wiped the tears flowing from my eyes.
Ah, uh.
But the tears didn't stop.
'Why? Its just a dream. Why wont the tears stop?'
'Because I hate my own weakness? Because I dont like the way I look?'
'Am I afraid of the way he might change soday?'
I didn't know. Anxiety continued to eat from inside.
Rather, the kindness he had shown recently made even more anxious. If he continued to show a friendly side, I didnt even know how would I react when he changes.
I wouldnt be able to bear it if he showed his old self again in that situation.
'If only I was beautiful. If I was more beautiful than anyone else from a human point of view...'
'Could I not have worried about this?'
Two large horns on my head. Blue-white scales covered my entire body.
Seeing a person who cant be called a human at all, I ended up having a question.
I....
.....am a human, right?
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