The atmosphere was quite friendly. Except for , of course. I was passing the ti by just responding appropriately to their words because I was tired.
I was trying to avoid any kind of confrontation because I would be targeted here in that case. But at that mont, soones question rang in my ear.
Princess Rodenov. I have a question for you. Is Prince Physis Ortaire always that kind?
The intention of asking such a question out of the blue must be because she thinks that Physis cant be kind to a monster like .
Well, I really don't know the reason for her asking that question, however, judging from the clear jealousy in her eyes, it seems that my prediction was correct.
Indeed, after looking at her face again, I rembered that she was one of the princesses who blushed when she told Physis earlier that he was handso.
How should I answer?
The trouble didnt last long, because I was in a position to act. I wanted to break their illusions by answering the truth, but I didnt want to tell them about Physis and , and I didnt want to break the alliance that Ortaire and Rodenov were trying to carry on with my petty anger. So It was impossible.
Yes, he is always kind.
Rembering his recent attitude, I replied.
Certainly, his attitude towards has been very kind lately, probably due to pressure from his family.
Wow, really? Can you be specific? Im really curious about what happens between the two of you on a regular basis!
What kind of answer does this woman want? I was very curious about her intentions, but I decided to live up to that expectation.
Yes. There is no need to break this innocent girls dream, whatever it is, its none of my business.
I do not know. When I stopped by Enassa for this National Foundation Day, he moved one step ahead of and escorted When I attended this ball, he even held my hand when I was trembling involuntarily.
Of course, each ti I had to suppress the anger that was rising.
Also, when Physis smiles, his eyes fold slightly, and he doesnt know how cool that is.
After hearing my answer, the princesss expression beca like a girl in a dream. Im not sure, but shes probably drawing a rather romantic situation by assigning my anecdote to herself.
And that expression soon began to harden little by little, eventually, she will realize the reality. The one next to him is not her, but I am, a monster. Perhaps inside that woman, she is determined to save Physis from a monster like .
Oops. If you knew his true identity, you would thank god for not being at my place.
It would be better to leave the dream just a dream.
Wherever you are, try your best.
At that mont, Princess Lobelia spoke to all of us.
Now, since we talked a lot with each other, shall we go back to the venue soon? The prom isnt over yet. You can dance with the people you want, and you can dream of romance with soone you like. With such expectations, lets enjoy today.
Yes, Your Highness the princess.
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When I returned to the venue, the venue was sohow cluttered.
Did sothing happen earlier when we were not here?
I saw my father, who seed a little angry.
Father?
Ah, Adilun, you are here.
Has anything happened? why this is all ssed up and cluttered...
At that mont, my father thought about sothing and told .
To you tell the truth... We ended up having a great duel.
Yes!?
A Greate Duel, but why, I was confused so I asked in response.
What the hell happened?
There were so people who dared to insult you. Those who used so extrely ugly words that I couldnt even bear to say... Thinking about it again makes angry. The battle between the clan and the great warrior to which they belonged to now going to happen.
Ahh.
Yes. I could roughly guess the level of insult and ugly words they used for by seeing my father's angry expression. There must have been using the words like a monster or sothing.
I cald down my expression and asked my father with a firm face.
Which family is it?
Aiden.
Aiden. Are you talking about Aiden from the central nobles? Recently, it is said that they are increasing the tax by allying with the rchants...
Accurate.
Since it was who was insulted, we must have the right to proceed with the great duel. And the winner takes all....
Yes. No matter how much I feel anger towards Aiden, there is nothing wrong with the people living in it. So I'm not taking any money as an apology or compensation.
Understood. Then, what are you planning to buy at the great duel, father?
Everything.
My fathers eyes were cold. Looking at the scene, I could guess that my father was very angry. How long has it been since I saw my father this angry?
When is the schedule?
A month later. I plan to notify the Knights imdiately after the National Foundation Day.
I see.
By the way, Adilun.
Yes.
Physis decided to participate in the duel.
... ...Yes?
What the hell is this, what is he even thinking?
What do you an by that? Why is he in the duel...?
It was Physis who found those who insulted you in the first place. And then he pinned them to the ground right away. So, next month, if he passes my test, I plan to send him to the duel as well.
Confusion overtook in an instant. Directly punishing those who insulted , and even going to a duel with great warriors? why?
The great duel was a life-threatening place. Taking the life of the loser in a duel is the right of the winner. Going to a place like that ant risking your life.
As far as I know, his strength was poor. It seems like hes been training quite a bit lately, and his physique has grown quite a bit, but it doesnt seem like he is right to duel directly with the knights...
Did he really act for ? Wasnt it simply because of family pressure to be nice to ?
My head got complicated. Is he sincerely repenting for his mistakes? Or is he just pretending to sympathize, not wanting to hear that his fiance is a monster?
I dont know. Really, I dont know. Why?
Involuntarily, I began to look around. Not far away, he was talking to his brother about sothing.
I move my steps and approach him, and he smiles at with a slightly bitter but welcoming smile.
Why are you making this face?
Don't you hate ?
I dont know if that expression was sincere or if it was because of his promise to do an act with .
It would have been nice if there was at least so kind of magic that could understand peoples minds. If that were the case, I wouldnt have to worry so much.
Then suddenly he tells .
Adilun? what happened? Do you need sothing?
I grabbed his arm and whispered.
Co, talk to for a minute.
He seed flustered but was ekly drawn to .
Is there a place where the two of us can talk quietly?
Terrace. Yes, the terrace would be nice.
There was no one on the terrace. Maybe its because its still too early for young nobles to have a tryst. The view through the open windows was too beautiful.
Contrary to the beautiful scenery, I felt like I was stuck in a gutter.
Why did you do that?
Yes?
He looked at with a bewildered expression, but I repeated what I said.
Why did you want to participate in the great duel? Did you have a reason for that?
Yes. Because I'm angry.
I took care of my embarrassnt and said to him with a calm expression.
Why are you angry?
Because they insulted you.
Lie.
... ....
When I say that it is a lie, his expression twists miserably. Why, why are you making that face? Isnt that the expression I should rather have when Im really miserable and rotten?
Anger surged through my head.
I dont know why you are doing this now. Rather, it was like that from the first ti we t. Why are you confusing so much? Are you angry that they insulted ? So, then, you insulted too? Werent you mad at yourself too then?
... ...
He hung his head and said nothing. I still shouted at him with anger.
Answer ! If you hate so much, why are you acting like this? Did your family pressure you?
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[Physis's POV]
In front of my eyes, she was angry. In this situation, what should I do to get rid of her anger? How can my sincerity reach her?
As she said, I dont know. However, there is only one thing I have to say now.
I dont hate you anymore. I have abandoned all of my hatred and contempt for you. I didnt know why I'm changing, and I dont know either. I just wanted to do that.
A choking sound was heard.
Lie...
Is it my imagination that her pitiful trembling voice sounds overly sad?
Ive said it before, dont forgive , and that is still true. Dont forgive but you just need to be happy. I will never insult you in the future. I will not say anything or shalessly ask for your trust.
At that mont, her expression twisted sadly.
Why, why co now? why! I lost my pride because of you, and I lost the I loved because of you! But now, if you show that attitude, what are you going to do to I cant think of myself as a person anymore. Im just a monster. But since you, who made like that, say those words, its disgusting, I hate you...
There was a sense of misery and humiliation in her words, thats what caused by because I was the one who broke her self-esteem, which was higher than anyone elses.
Im sorry
All I could do was make this pitiful apology. Anything else I say will only hurt her.
Hearing my apology, she suddenly raised her head and looked at . As if revealing my sins intact, the golden eyes shone most brilliantly and illuminated .
Do you know what I hate the most?
I do not know.
She nodded as if it were natural for to shake my head.
It must be so. So let tell you. What I hate most is... ...My heart wants to believe that you have changed even when we are in such a situation.
This ti I was out of breath. Does she still have hope for who insulted her so much?
Even though I hate myself so much, I cant let go of this pitiful hope .I wont be able to endure it if I dont even have the hope of living happily with a companion who will walk with .
At that mont, she brought out so of the words that she had been hiding in her heart.
That would have been her last hope. I couldnt bear to throw it away in the rotting misery.
... ...Yes.
Therefore Last, at last, I will not trust you in the future, and I do not intend to forgive you easily. But if you continue to honor . And if thats how you behave consistently... ...I will trust you.
Thats how she looks at with a ray of hope in her misery. An ultimatum fell to .
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