Chapter 836: 836 I Can’t Go Back Anymore (2)
"Congratulations for what..." Eleven smiled awkwardly, "I don’t even know if I passed because of him, it doesn’t feel good at all."
"What does it matter, silly girl," Xiao Man, taller than Eleven, easily patted her head like an elder sister without a trace of awkwardness, "Haven’t I told you before, no matter how you started, as long as people see your radiance in the future, who will care?"
"I always feel like I’ve lost sight of my original intention."
"What is an original intention? Can you eat it?" Xiao Man laughed, "I won’t lie to you, the reason I had the confidence to speak to Dong Yan like that wasn’t because I felt I had great abilities or that I was destined for fame, but because of a promise Li Sinian gave me."
"You knew him back then?"
That being said...
Had Xiao Man been with Li Sinian longer than she imagined?
"Yeah," Xiao Man nodded, "He told me, as long as he lived in this world for one more day, he would keep me safe for one more day. Whatever I wanted, he’d give it to me."
"That’s so nice..." Eleven sighed unconsciously.
"Nice?" Xiao Man smiled faintly upon hearing that.
What Eleven didn’t say was, she didn’t know what Xiao Man and Li Sinian were to each other, if there was love? But she knew that this was also very nice.
There was nothing bad about it.
"I told him I wanted Dong Yan to be alive, but to live without a future," Xiao Man said with a smile, "and then Dong Yan truly lived like a walking corpse. She used drugs, fell from grace, sold herself... and so on, she had been with many rich and powerful men, but none of them could save her. She must really hate me, as more than once I told her that she became like this because of me."
"In previous years, she also wanted my life, to die together with me..." Xiao Man’s voice faltered a little, "She shouldn’t have done that, why would she break the rules of the game? She shouldn’t have thought she could touch me overestimating her strength. Would Li Sinian let her go? He remembered his promise to me, once the game started, it wasn’t something I could end. I couldn’t stop him... Dong Yan’s parents had a car accident, and without asking, everyone knew what had happened, right? For a long time, Dong Yan really lived a life worse than death, she even tried to commit suicide but was saved. She’s probably still alive in this world because of her child, I guess."
"Sister Man..." Eleven was a bit worried, "Don’t talk anymore, we’re on the first floor now."
The memory box she had opened was not filled with good memories.
Eleven couldn’t stop her, Xiao Man was lost in her own memories.
"If I had known sooner... whatever a person does comes with a price, Dong Yan was living a life worse than death, but do I live any better than her? No... I almost fell into the abyss too, overwhelmed by the mental stress of the lives I carry, I’ve also touched those dirty things..."
Xiao Man was crying, leaving Eleven at a loss for what to do.
"Sister Man, don’t say it, don’t think about it, it’s all in the past now."
"But I can’t go back..." Xiao Man looked at her, cheeks streaked with tears, "I can’t go back, Eleven... Meng Yao won’t wake up, she’s also my sin... She ended up like this trying to save me..."
She crouched down, crying helplessly like a child.
Passing medical staff and patients all watched her, Eleven squatted beside her even more helplessly, not knowing what to do.
She took out her phone, thinking of calling Su Qing for help, when she looked up and saw a man standing at the hospital doorway.
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