Chapter 1016: 1016 The Other Shore’s Sea of Flowers, Selway (40)
Li Sinian’s expression was unreadable as Command of the left, Freddie stepped forward and said, "Chief, I can testify that Lucia has been with
the whole day discussing staffing adjustnts within our ranks, and she has not stepped away even for a mont."
Worried he might not believe her, Lucia insisted, "Chief, if it were
who did it, I would definitely admit it. I, Lucia, am not the sort of person who would dare to act and not own up!"
"Then, if I give you the task of investigating Miss Sevry’s disappearance, do you think you are up to it?"
How could Li Sinian not understand Lucia.
Since she had denied any involvent, it definitely wasn’t her doing.
"As long as it’s the Chief’s order, I will give it my all!"
"Chief!" Lake called out as he rushed over, handing over sothing, "Chief! This is a letter found in Miss Sevry’s room. I found it under her pillow while looking for clues—it seems... to be in the sa handwriting."
Li Sinian imdiately took it. As soon as he saw the words "For Li Sinian’s eyes only" on the envelope, he recognized it, that was her handwriting!
Without even opening it, a sense of ominous premonition rose in the pit of his stomach.
Looking at the solemn expression on his face, everyone held their breath, no one daring to speak and interrupt.
In the end, he opened the letter, and on it was a long confession from Heather:
May I call you Ah Nian, just this once?
For so many years, I’ve called you Mr. Li, keeping a respectful distance to remind myself constantly that you’re nothing but a phantom in my life, that there would be no happy ending for us.
I love you, truly and sincerely.
Ah Nian, I want to love you, but I’m too scared.
All these years, I dared not tell you my true identity. I’m not afraid of you killing ; I’m afraid that after you do, I will no longer be able to stay by your side.
So I never let anyone know, not even myself, that I truly love you, deceiving myself over and over again.
In a relationship that could end at any mont, how could I allow myself to lose my heart? I’m afraid of the pain I would endure if I left you. I’m scared that when you look at
in anger, my heart would shatter into pieces.
I’ve acted in so many television dramas, played so many leading ladies, but at the end of it all, I’ve been unable to locate my true self in this world.
I think the only way I could leave without feeling so distraught is if I didn’t love you. When I die, I won’t be so overwheld with longing that I cry until I lose control.
You are my only attachnt to this world—so if I don’t love you, am I free to leave this world without worries?
So I keep thinking... lying in the sa bed as you, yet entertaining these sorrowful thoughts of separation, thoughts of one day...
I also think, if you were just Li Sinian and I were just Heather, and we were far removed from all disputes, like Gu Liancheng and Qianxun, despite parting and reuniting along the way, we could still be together in the end. How wonderful that would be.
But this is precisely what we can’t change. Our identities ultimately do not allow us to love each other like ordinary people, to marry, have children, and slowly grow old together.
I love you, Ah Nian. Last night as you slept, I gazed at your face, wanting to etch every detail into my heart. In that mont, I believed in reincarnation—I hope to find you in the next life, where I would be just an ordinary person, and it wouldn’t matter if I pursued you, longing to live an ordinary life alongside you.
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