Chapter 59: He Tips Well
Jane’s usual mischief was still there, but beneath that was exhaustion. Her life was bruised by too many nights, too many hands, too many n. "I’d take being tied to one person for the rest of my life," Jane said, "no matter who it is, instead of getting used and abused by different n every night. The only decent gentleman I have is Lionel."
Jane lifted her chin. "He tips well, speaks politely."
"Well, I think everyone is excited too." Livia gestured toward the other girls.
They did look excited. Tense, jealous, hopeful, desperate.
Jane leaned in. "The man is quite old."
"Oh?"
"The girls he has been with say most tis he just falls asleep next to them. It is paradise," Jane whispered fiercely. "Imagine it. A husband who sleeps."
Livia’s smile faded slightly.
Jane clasped her hands under her chin and looked heavenward. "Once he kicks the bucket, freedooooom!" She sang the last word so softly and dramatically that Livia had to bite back a laugh.
"Right," Livia said. "And if he lives ten more years?"
Jane slapped a hand over her mouth. "Don’t say stuff like that. You’ll jinx it!"
"I am rely being practical."
Jane grabbed her hand. "Co on. Let’s go listen!"
"I’m not really interested, Jane," Livia said. "But I do hope it’s you."
Jane’s face brightened again with hope. "Oh, I hope it’s
too." She squeezed Livia’s hand once before releasing it, then imdiately turned back toward Nicholas’s study.
Livia stayed where she was. She told herself she did not care. She told herself this had nothing to do with her. Henry had promised. Henry had said he would find a way.
And yet days had passed.
The won gathered near the door shifted and whispered, their skirts brushing together. Everyone was trying to appear graceful while practically climbing over one another to be nearest when the answer ca.
The study door opened. Every one went still. Nicholas stepped out first, wearing his finest expression. Behind him ca a nobleman who looked to be in his late seventies, perhaps older. His back was slightly bent, his hair thin and white beneath his hat, his clothes rich but old-fashioned in cut. He carried a cane with a silver head and moved slowly.
The girls fawned instantly. Livia did not bla them. They were not swooning over him. They were swooning over escape. Over quiet rooms. Over being touched less. Over not owing Nicholas Beaumont every breath they took. If freedom ca wrinkled, and likely to fall asleep after supper, then freedom was still freedom.
The nobleman passed by them with a mild smile. He nodded at a few of the girls, clearly accustod to being desired far less enthusiastically than he was today.
Jane clasped her hands together, eyes wide with desperate prayer. Then everyone turned to Beaumont.
The corridor held its breath. Nicholas let the silence stretch. He stood at the study entrance, one hand on the doorfra, his gaze sweeping over the gathered won.
Livia folded her arms.
"Livia!" Beaumont bood.
The hallway went so silent one could hear a pin drop. Livia did not move. She did not even understand that it was her na.
Until Jane nudged her. Livia blinked, her heart dropping into her stomach. Every eye turned to her.
"Yes, Mr Beaumont."
"I guess we are getting you married off," Nicholas announced.
Livia did not understand him. The words seed to reach her from very far away, distorted by the stunned silence that had fallen over the corridor. Married off. Her. To that old nobleman.
The blood drained from her face.
"I don’t..." Her voice failed. She tried again. "I don’t..." Her eyes flew to Jane. Help .
Jane looked just as shocked. The hope that had lit her face monts ago had vanished, replaced by horror and helplessness.
"Mr Beaumont," Livia said, forcing the words out, "it couldn’t possibly be . I have never even t him."
Nicholas sighed. "Well, that’s your problem. I cannot say no to the crown now, can I?"
"The crown?" she whispered.
The king’s seal. The words from Jane returned to her with a sickening clarity. The man had co with the king’s authority. Not for the king, Jane had said. For himself. To marry the girl.
Livia’s stomach twisted. "Mr Beaumont...You... you cannot do this. Please."
"I don’t want to either," he said. "You are still in your pri," he continued, with appalling practicality. "Look how much you made
in just a month. Do you think I am eager to hand that away? It’s not
this ti. Orders are orders."
Livia turned to Jane again, her eyes wide and burning. "Jane..."
Jane looked trapped between wanting to fight and knowing exactly how little power she had. Her hands curled uselessly in the folds of her skirt. "I’m sorry, Livia," she whispered.
"No," Livia said.
Nicholas frowned. "Do not make a scene."
"No!" Livia barely heard anything. All she could feel was the walls closing in, the watching eyes, the terrible weight of being chosen without being asked. "No! No! No!" she cried, backing away. "I’d rather die."
"Suit yourself," Nicholas said with a shrug. "You are of no use to
anymore."
Nicholas turned and went back into his office. The door closed behind him. Livia stood in the corridor, stunned into silence.
The girls did not offer comfort. The mont Beaumont disappeared, the gathered won broke apart in a storm of hisses, eye-rolls, and muttered complaints. Their disappointnt had curdled into spite, and Livia, unfortunately, was standing nearest to receive it.
"Leave one for so of us," one girl snapped under her breath.
"She always gets the good ones," another muttered.
Livia was barely able to believe what she was hearing.
"She is a witch, I tell you," soone else said.
The girls dispersed, swishing away in offended little clusters, grumbling. Livia felt like she had been slapped.
Were these girls out of their minds? Could they not see her face? Could they not see she was clearly distressed at the thought of being handed over to a man who looked one foot in the grave and the other considering whether it was worth the journey?
But then, perhaps they did see. Perhaps they simply did not care. That was another cruel part of Beaumont’s house. It taught won to envy another woman’s cage if the bars looked pretty enough.
"Co on," Jane said softly, taking her hand. "Let’s go upstairs. Ignore them."
"I don’t understand," Livia murmured.
"I know."
"He does not even know ."
"I know."
She let Jane lead her back up the stairs. When they reached their room, Jane shut the door behind them.
"It will be fine," Jane said, the words lacked their usual confidence. "Beaumont is being honest this ti. He cannot say no to the crown."
Livia looked up at her, eyes bright with panic. "Why is life so cruel? Why is it that when sothing good is about to happen to , the devil thinks ’not on his watch’?"
"There is always a silver lining," Jane said. "You just have to look for it."
"Jane, I am being handed to a man old enough to have courted Eve. I’m not doing it. I’d die. I would die before I let him touch . I need to talk to Henry."
Jane’s face tightened with helpless worry. "How will you reach him?"
Livia collapsed to the ground, her bones had given way, her skirts pooling around her. The room blurred through sudden tears. "God!" she cried, hands clasped so tightly her fingers hurt. "God, please help . Please send help. Please!"
Jane moved toward her, distressed beyond words. She knelt and reached for Livia’s shoulders, but what comfort could she give? In Beaumont’s house, prayers rose often and answers ca rarely. Girls prayed to be chosen, prayed not to be chosen, prayed for gentle n, prayed for sickness, prayed for escape, prayed for death. God, Jane thought bitterly, must be very tired of hearing from Pudding Lane.
"Livia," she whispered. "Breathe. Please. Look at ."
Livia tried, but panic had its claws in her chest. Then the door opened. Nicholas Beaumont stepped in.
He filled the doorway with his usual oily confidence, his face set in an expression of irritation. His gaze flicked from Jane to Livia on the floor.
Livia scrambled to her feet at once, wiping at her cheeks.
Nicholas looked her over coldly. "Since you have only a limited ti left here, I would like to make sure I get my money’s worth before you go."
The fear in Livia’s face vanished.
"Your money’s worth?!" Livia snapped.
Nicholas’s brows lifted, surprised that the lamb had found teeth. Livia had found more than teeth.
"How much more do you want?" she demanded, stepping toward him. "Exactly how much did you pay for ? For three years, I have served as a servant without pay! And then you decide to sell my body to n!"
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