Heyi Shengxiao Mo Epilogue 1.3: Yi Mei’s – A Person’s Flower Bloomed

Epilogue 1.3: Yi i’s Chapter – A Person’s Flower Blood

(translated by peanuts & edited by lidge)

That day, I felt restless and went to C University to look for him.

C University had an unwritten rule, which is “Guys can’t go into the girls’ dormitory, but girls can go into the boys’ dormitory”. Therefore, there was nothing to hinder from going to Yi Chen’s dormitory.

Yi Chen was not there.

Yi Chen’s roommate knew long ago, so the first thing he asked was whether I was aware that Zhao Mo Sheng had left.

I was taken aback.

Before Yi Chen ca back, his roommate had already told everything he knew. In the end, he wanted to console Yi Chen by saying that kind of heartless girl was unworthy for him to rember fondly.

After that, I did not pay attention to what he said. I envisaged a lot of scenarios, but I did not expect Zhao Mo Sheng would just leave. I kept wondering in my mind how she could simply go away? Was it really like what they said that in order to go abroad, she left without a word? Or it was because of what I said? Also, did she ntion to Yi Chen what I said?

When I was feeling restless, Yi Chen ca back from the law faculty. He appeared okay but seed a bit haggard, gloominess appeared between his eyebrows and his eyes looked dark.

I stood up.

“Yi i.” He called faintly.

“Ah, I, I co ……” I did not know what to say, for a split second even a little panic. If Zhao Mo Sheng left because of what I said, I did not know what he’ll think.

He did not seem to notice my acting strange. Like before, he asked what was the matter. I shook my head.

He did not say much, rely asked to have lunch together.

We went to the cafeteria to have our al.

If we didn’t go to the small restaurant outside, the cafeteria was the place we most frequently went. It was because Zhao Mo Sheng liked the very sugary, sweet and sour pork ribs prepared by the chef here. Every ti, she also wanted to co early to queue up for fear of it selling out. The chef here probably knew her as he always gave her more than others. When she could not finish, she would use chopsticks to give one by one to Yi Chen. In fact, he was not fond of eating sweet stuff, but it seed like he never declined.

While we were eating, Yi Chen was very quiet. Since he did not speak up, I also dared not say much. After finishing our al and on our way out of the cafeteria, he said to : “I’ll go to N University with you.”

The mont he said those words, I felt pleasantly surprised. However, his next sentence imdiately wiped them away.

“Is Mo Sheng’s library card with you?”

“What ……” I said in a daze.

“Last ti, she used her library card to help you to borrow that book “Money and Banking.” The library card was conveniently slipped inside the book.” He repeatedly ntioned her, but his facial expression was very ordinary all along and his manner of speaking was also quite stable.

“Oh.” I replied blankly.

We walked all the way to N University. The road was exceptionally quiet today. Yi Chen had always been a man of few words. Previously, the atmosphere was lively because Zhao Mo Sheng kept on chattering with him all the way.

When we arrived at my university, he waited for downstairs while I ran upstairs.

Before I’ve to write a thesis on Money and Banking subject, but the books for this subject matter in N University were very old. Therefore, I asked Yi Chen to help to borrow from C University’s library. Yi Chen’s library card quota was full, so he used Zhao Mo Sheng’s library card.

I climbed onto my bed to take out the book and flip through it. The library card was really inside, caught in the back section of the book which I did not notice before.

In the photo, Zhao Mo Sheng had a ponytail, a pair of big eyes, the curve of her smile like a crescent moon, and she appeared to glitter like the sunshine.

A very familiar smile, which I had seen often not long ago.

Probably because she was truly happy, her smile was infectious. Whenever she smiled, her dimple was partly hidden and partly visible, a bit naughty and also high spirited, causing people to unconsciously follow her cheerful mood.

Perhaps Yi Chen liked this kind of smile.

Actually, I also looked good when I smiled, but not her kind.

For a split second, I wanted to throw away the library card and tell Yi Chen that I could not find it. However, in the end, I still brought it down and watched Yi Chen put it into his pocket.

She was already gone. Looking at Yi Chen’s gradually disappearing desolate back, I kept telling myself.

What was the point of smiling even more brilliantly, she was already gone, already left. Even if Yi Chen still wanted to yearn for her for a while, he would forget her very soon.

At least, he was already very calm now.

At that ti, I still did not understand that there was a kind of calmness called “ripples in the stagnant water.”

Without Zhao Mo Sheng, the opportunity for to et up with Yi Chen was instead less than before.

Nobody called frequently to go to C University. I also cannot find so many excuses to go there often.

Therefore, I only found out Yi Chen had been smoking very heavily a long ti later.

It was very common for boys to smoke in university, so I did not really want to associate it with another matter. For a ti, I deceived others and also myself that it was caused by the university environnt, even though this was obviously out of character for Yi Chen.

Knowing was one thing but seeing with one’s own eyes was another thing. Once, I went to his dormitory and personally saw his roommates and him completely drunk. Actually that ti, it was the birthday of soone in their dormitory, everyone also got drunk, not just him. But I did not know why, I could not stand it any longer.

Yi Chen was never like this, he always had good self-control and did everything with a great sense of propriety. I really wanted to convince myself that he was just celebrating a friend’s birthday and not drowning his sorrows in liquor. But he looked so gloomy and depressed, making unable to deceive myself.

The blind spots I did not see previously seed to beco clearer now.

Gradually, I rembered Yi Chen said when Zhao Mo Sheng pestered, her eyes had a faint smile.

Sotis when she was a little late, he would be impatient and worried.

No matter how careless she was, he would only frown and helped her to sort everything out.

……

There were still many incidents, why did I not see them before?

Unconsciously, my cheeks were streaming with tears, I did not know for who.

It turned out that he was just trying hard to maintain a calm appearance. Now that he was drunk, he could not conceal it anymore, everything was exposed into the open.

When he was sober, I had beca a lot calr but sadly said to him: “Look at you, not just my parents but if dead uncle and aunt were to see you like this, they will also be broken-hearted.”

In addition, I was also very sad. Yi Chen, did you know that?

He did not say anything for a long ti, lowered his eyes and his facial expression was hidden in the shadows. After a long ti, he dejectedly said: “You’re right, I do not have the right to indulge myself.”

Consequently, that outstanding and cool-headed He Yi Chen was back, but I still felt as if sothing was different.

I could not pinpoint what.

Yi Chen and I remained the sa.

Zhao Mo Sheng probably did not have ti to ntion what I said to Yi Chen because he did not talk about it at all.

As for , I did not have the courage to ntion it again.

I was satisfied with the status quo. At present, it seed like we had returned to before. Although the relationship between us did not progress further, there was no one extra person.

Actually, I was very weak and dared not take the initiative to pursue anything, except to wait until one day he would turn and look at .

But I was feeling more and more lonely.

I treated everyone also well, but I did not have good friends. After Zhao Mo Sheng left, nobody asked to go shopping, nobody told I looked good when trying on clothes and also nobody inford a month in advance that my birthday was around the corner……

I vaguely thought, actually I also liked this friend.

Just that there was Yi Chen between us.

Four years of university just passed by in the blink of an eye. When I graduated, I was still single to the amazent of my roommates. I had a female classmate, one hand holding the graduate certificate and another hand holding the marriage certificate. After having the farewell party, there was also a wedding feast next, so it had beco the hot topic of conversation.

When I was treating Yi Chen dinner with my first month’s salary, I told him about it. While he was listening, he seed to be having a lapse in concentration and inadvertently said: “I also planned to get married after graduation.”

I looked at him in shock.

He seed to have realised what he had just said, a trace of sadness flitted across his eyes.

For a short while, both of us did not speak.

I slowly regained my composure and said: “Yi Chen, last ti mom even asked whether you have a girlfriend. You should find a girlfriend.”

At this mont, I spoke that sentence sincerely and genuinely. Four years of university made realize that after Zhao Mo Sheng, Yi Chen may fall in love with soone, but that soone would definitely not be . I was no longer the forr He Yi i. Currently, I hope that he can fall in love with soone and this ti round, I would just wish him well wholeheartedly.

Even though my heart ached.

He lightly in a few words changed the topic.

We finished the al by talking about so irrelevant topics. When it was ti to pay the bill, although I said it would be my treat, Yi Chen still paid the money.

While waiting for the waiter to co back with the change, Yi Chen got up to go to the toilet. When the waiter ca back with the change, he still had not co back. I saw that his jacket was draped on the chair, so I reached out and took out his wallet from the coat pocket, wanting to put the change into it.

The mont I opened the wallet, I saw that photo.

It seed to have been torn from a docunt, as there were traces of steel marks on it.

In the photo, the girl had a ponytail, a pair of big eyes, the curve of her smile like a crescent moon and she appeared to glitter like the sunshine.

A very familiar smile, which I had not seen for a long ti.

When Yi Chen ca back, I was still holding onto his wallet and staring blankly in a daze. It was too late to put back the wallet, so I might as well put the money into it and return it to him in an easy-manner.

“That’s your change.”

“Okay.” He nodded and took it with a calm expression, just like that year when Zhao Mo Sheng just left.

At this mont, I suddenly realized the implied aning behind this kind of expression.

He was calm because he already made his decision.

He decided to continue waiting.

So people’s wound will heal slowly in ti, like mine.

So people’s wound will fester slowly in ti, like his.

Actually all these years, he healed only outwardly. There is a kind of wound that penetrates the bone marrow and ravages areas that cannot be seen.

After leaving the restaurant, we walked to the bus station. At that ti, he had just worked for a year, whereas I’ve just started working. Thus, both of us also did not have much money, so we chose to use the bus which was the cheapest mode of transport.

While waiting for the bus, we did not speak. My bus was turning into the station and when the bus was about to stop, he suddenly uttered to :

“Yi i.”

I turned my head to look at him.

The brilliant colors of the city’s night lights reflected on his body, making him looking all the more lonely.

“You will understand later, if in this world that person once appeared, other people will just be a compromise. He said, “I do not want to compromise.”

The bus was driven further and further away, his silhouette slowly beca blurry in my line of vision.

My mind kept thinking about his words – you will understand later, if in this world that person once appeared, other people will just be a compromise.

Why later, I knew all along.

I also did not want to compromise.

Thus in this crowded tropolis, both of us with the sa fra of mind, stubbornly waiting in loneliness.

Busy with our respective careers, we gradually has less contact with each other compared to the university days.

Before, I used to be afraid that this day would co, but this day still ca.

In fact, it seed like nothing.

I was not sad.

Because I was already used to it.

Yi Chen gave a very long ti to get used to it.

Later, he once ca to my office to pick up to go back together to Y City to visit my sick father. While waiting for downstairs, one of my female colleagues t him.

The next day, that female colleague asked who he was and even brazenly asked if he has a girlfriend.

I replied he already had a girlfriend in the United States.

Her eyes revealed her disappointnt and sowhat dissatisfied, she said: “Foreigner girlfriend? Most long distance relationship will break up and a foreign girlfriend is very dangerous.”

“No, they’ll end up together.” I did not know where my persistence ca from, “She’ll co back.”

My colleague was probably surprised by my firm expression: “He Yi i, you’re not her, so how do you know?”

I did not answer again.

I rely said over and over again in my heart, how could she not co back?

He was always waiting for her.

However, we did not expect such a long ti. Waiting was not frightening. What was frightening was not knowing when it would end.

One year, two years …… five years, six years ……

On the seventh year.

That day, I brought mother’s homade to him. When I put it into the refrigerator, I discovered there was no food inside, completely empty. Hence, I asked him to go to the supermarket.

The supermarket was crowded on the weekends.

While walking, I chatted with Yi Chen about each other’s current situation. The last ti we t was more than two months ago.

Then, I seed to hear the sound of sothing collapsing.

I casually turned my head.

In the midst of the collapsing sound, I saw her.

From the last ti I t her in KFC, up until now, it had already been more than seven years. I suddenly felt this lengthy ti fra seed like I only turned around for a mont.

The blue sea turned into mulberry fields. (The world is changing all the ti)

The change was rely my gradually aging heart. The change was rely Yi Chen’s increasingly hard shell.

As for her, she seed to have not changed one bit.

Still continuing to smile without a care and without worries.

That night, after I arrived ho, I sat on the sofa and watched the sky gradually brightening up.

Because I was busy with work, I had not been tidying up my rented small apartnt for a long ti. That flower pot on the balcony, after I bought it back, I just left it there, not knowing when the flower blood before. I also did not know when the petals withered by the rain and wind, only leaving a red petal swaying in the morning breeze.

Suddenly, I felt as if I was like this unknown na flower.

A person’s flower blood. A person’s flower withered. All these years from start to finish, nobody asked about it.