Why?
That’s a good question.
Why else?
It’s just one word: resentnt.
Is it possible not to resent?
The past is vivid in her mind, and what she endured was far more severe than what Xiao Shiqing is experiencing now.
Now, he still has her forgiveness.
But back then, she bore so much suffering alone, with no one knowing except herself.
She swallowed all the bitterness, indescribable even over three days and nights.
She resented him, but also resented herself for being blind and misjudging his character.
All promises were re words, and not one was fulfilled.
Recognizing her responsibility, after her rebirth, she only wanted to live well and not get entangled with him anymore. But he refused to let go, dragging her back to the old pit, unable to shake him off.
She had no good days, so neither should he. She didn’t even do much to him, just let him go through so hardships she once went through, hardships caused by Mrs. Xiao, yet he asks her why.
For a mont, she wanted to reveal everything she went through, but the words got stuck in her throat.
What’s the use of telling? He wouldn’t believe it. He might even think she was defaming Mrs. Xiao on purpose.
"Why? I can’t just drop my work and co back to solve family trifles. What would people think? Besides, that’s your mother. It’s normal for elders to guide the younger generation, for their own good. Just be tolerant, and it will pass."
Faced with the difficulties from younger mbers, it’s expected for juniors to give way; these were words he once said to her, showing this was how he thought. Why was it incomprehensible when it ca to himself now?
Xiao Shiqing, of course, couldn’t understand, being tornted to the brink of madness, "But she’s gone too far, having the nanny prick with needles, locking in the woodshed, not letting eat. How is this a life?"
Even soone like Xiao Shiqing was driven to madness, showing how formidable Mrs. Xiao’s thods were.
Li Hua appropriately showed a look of surprise, "Is your mother that vicious? How terrifying! What if we switch back, and she treats the sa way? What should I do then?"
Xiao Shiqing: "..."
He didn’t even dare say sothing like I will protect you, fearing it would backfire.
He had been through so much lately, many things beyond imagination, without even a response thod.
A man can be dynamic in his career, but that doesn’t an he can effortlessly deal with won. Without personal experience, he wouldn’t know how formidable she was.
Li Hua added, "So now, what do you want to do with your mother? Tell , and I’ll do it?"
Xiao Shiqing was at a loss for words again.
He just didn’t know what to do, and that’s why he was tornted and conflicted.
After all, she is his birth mother. Can he deal with his own mother? But his mother was indeed over the line, and he really didn’t know how to handle this matter properly.
Li Hua, "You see, even you don’t have it figured out. If I had returned earlier, what difference would it have made?"
Xiao Shiqing was rendered speechless by the rhetorical question.
Li Hua never expected him to solve the problem; she had long made her decision, "Actually, there’s another way."
Xiao Shiqing looked at Li Hua.
Li Hua said, "Separate, we split up. You walk your bright road, I cross my single-log bridge, then your mother won’t trouble . As a County Princess, even if I never marry, I can live a lifeti without worries, better than marrying and being disliked by the mother-in-law, facing all sorts of sches daily, without a good night’s sleep. What’s the point of such a marriage?"
It should have been like this from the start. If he hadn’t insisted on entangling her, she would have had a good life by now. He dragged her into this, experiencing many hardships, and should now see that this is the best solution.
Xiao Shiqing stared blankly at Li Hua, knowing she was right, but... he found it hard to bear.
"There must be another way. I’ll think about it." He didn’t want to give up like this, because this ti giving up ant forever, which he found hard to accept.
He liked Li Hua. He wanted her to be his wife and wanted to treat her well for a lifeti, but his mother’s dislike was indeed a problem.
But he firmly believed that there must be another way.
Thinking of this, he suddenly conceived a good plan in his mind.
"When we switch back, I’ll petition the emperor and request to be transferred to the Border City, I’ll take you with , and there no one will trouble you."
Indeed, no one would trouble her. Mrs. Xiao is in the Capital City; with them at the border, tens of thousands of miles apart, how could she trouble them?
This indeed was a perfect plan.
Yet Li Hua looked at Xiao Shiqing and said calmly, "Why don’t you ask if I’m willing to go to the border to suffer with you? Why don’t you ask if I want to go? Or in your mind, does my will not matter? You just do as you like, and I need to obey like a puppet, without my own desires and thoughts?"
Xiao Shiqing hurriedly shook his head, "I didn’t an it that way. This was the best solution I could think of. If you’re unwilling..."
"Of course I’m unwilling. I’m doing fine in the Capital City; why go with you to the border to suffer? After the Li Family fell, I’ve been suffering all along. Now I’ve finally reached a break, and you want to go to the border with you to suffer. Don’t you think you’re being unreasonable? I’ve said that separating is better for both of us. You insist on entangling, and now that we’ve reached this point, without a solution, how dare you ask to suffer with you? I owe no one anything and offend no one. It’s only you, your entanglent, that brought into this ss. Such a simple truth, it’s not that you can’t figure it out, you just don’t want to, because it’s who suffers, not you. What you say you’re suffering is only temporary. Once we switch back, you’ll be fine, but I’ll live in tornt for the rest of my days. Letting go could an peace for , but you refuse, showing what a selfish person you are! Why would I want to suffer with soone like you? Aren’t you being too self-assured?"
If it were her in the previous life, she would have been willing a hundred tis over to go with him to the border.
But now, she’s unwilling because he’s not worth it.
Xiao Shiqing was left flustered and didn’t know how to respond.
No way, first his mother’s behavior shocked him, and now she’s saying this. She’s completely different from how she used to be.
It’s like he’s still himself, but everyone around him has changed, becoming unrecognizable.
Li Hua looked at Xiao Shiqing’s still clueless expression and felt a deep sense of powerlessness.
How had she never realized before that this man had such a procrastinating character? Where had his decisiveness in business gone?
If she could, she would prefer never to switch back; after all, she’s not the one suffering now.
Unfortunately, she can’t. The ti Jade left her is running out. She must do sothing to eliminate future troubles.
Even if she cannot eliminate them for good, she must at least make a strong stance.
The discussion wasn’t over yet when Mrs. Xiao arrived again.
Xiao Shiqing instinctively wanted to retreat.
An anger ignited in Li Hua’s heart. Facing this aggressive Mrs. Xiao, she was unwilling to tolerate it for even a mont longer. Anyway, wearing Xiao Shiqing’s body, she directly faced the confrontation head-on!
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