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"But… you loved her, didn't you?" Iryz's soft question ca.
She swallowed because her voice ca out not as neutral as she had wanted it to be. Surely, he had noticed it and that was why he had looked at her with that now concerned expression. She should have held in her emotions a little better.
"I… I think I did but..." He suddenly sounded a little shaken. "She's an important person to . And I do like her. I care for her. I really thought I loved her. But… thinking back right now, I've… after all of the thinking I did last night as well, I found out that I am not quite sure if that was truly in love or was I just actually in pain. Maybe I've just been too damaged that I can't even figure myself out anymore. Maybe because I've been in too much pain for far longer than I could rember… more than I could bear and had been so starved for love that I just fall in love with anyone who shows the least bit of kindness and warmth. I feel like I can't even trust my own heart anymore." He sighed out heavily as he ran his fingers through his hair and looked at her with a smile tinged with bitterness. "I hope that you will still want even after you see how truly ssed up my life is, Iryz. How ssed up I am, as a person…" then he lifted his eyes and just stared at her, waiting for the verdict. His gaze was so filled with despair and a sense of lost that Iryz could not endure it.
Iryz walked around the table and stood at his side. He faced her imdiately and when their eyes held each other's, Iryz bent over and just hugged him silently, just embracing him in her arms and giving him the comfort that he needed – that they both needed right now. She honestly did not know what to say. But right now, she just wanted to hold him like this. It was enough just to be able to be with him.
She did not know everything that he had went through. But just staring into those pain-filled eyes of his was enough for her to realize that he must have had gone through unimaginable sufferings. Things that would be better off not said and recalled for the peace of both speaker and listener's mind. Thus, she did not probe.
"I don't want to cause you any more trouble, Iryz. And that's why I am being honest with you. If you are troubled that I might leave and go back to Alicia or anyone else… please don't worry about that anymore." he added in a soft but decisive tone after a long while of them just embracing each other. "When I saw her with him last night… I was a little surprised that I wasn't that hurt. Maybe I've beco numb. It's… I don't know, but after I saw them together last night, all I thought about after that was go back ho and finally take a rest. Then I found myself coming back in your doorstep before I even realized what I had done. I want to believe that that was a sign telling that I am ant to be here." He explained wholeheartedly.
Iryz' hold on him tightened after listening to him. Her heart was lting like a butter under the hot sun. The corners of her eyes could not help but sting. Her initial impression of him was right… he was a beautiful but broken man.
"That's right. I believe you're ant to be here too, with , Zeres." She declared, then she pulled away and stared into his eyes. "Don't worry. Soon enough, you will fall in love with . I will make you fall in love with and this ti I will make sure that you will have no chance to even doubt it." there was a promise in her voice as she said those words with so much confidence. "I believe that the universe must have given a second chance. So this ti, I'm not going to let you slip away like in the past. I will make you fall head over heels in love with , just you wait." Her eyes sparkled so brilliantly as she stared into his silvery gaze.
He smiled. He was speechless, and to be truthful, even a bit overwheld after hearing what she had claid so assuredly. He was not used to this – him being the one who was chased. Usually, he was the one doing the chasing. But… he could feel his heart being moved. And he did not know how to explain it, but he felt like the world was starting to brighten up. Like the sun was finally shining into that damp, dark and dreary place in his heart after years of gloominess. Finally, spring seed to be arriving.
He wondered if it was because he had finally let all of his feelings out and talked it all out with soone for the first ti. He wondered if it was because he had finally decided to let go of Alicia or because of this girl who always seed to be so full of life. Or was it because of the way she looked at him. Like he was everything that she had ever asked for. Like he was her whole world.
The way she looked at him had his heart shuddering. He was not used to anyone looking at him like that. No one had ever looked at him like that. Never once in the many long years of him being alive.
"Alright! First things first, Zeres. I think… you deserve a kiss for being so honest with ." she suddenly said, causing Zeres to blink. What…?!
"O-okay," he stamred a little, never seeing that one coming. She said it as though it was her rewarding him. But why did he feel as though it was the other way around?
And then way too soon, she crashed her lips against his.
Her heart was pounding wildly at the touch of their lips. He seed to stiffen up, but he did not pull away from their kiss.
Iryz continued kissing his lips until his hands moved closer and were about to land on her waist when a series of knocks jolted them both out of their fun activity.
Iryz jumped away from him almost violently and ran towards the door with a face that was flaming red.
Zeres saw that it was one of his n, and he imdiately walked over with a slightly darkened face.
"What is it, Mike?" he growled out slightly, and the man imdiately rattled off his report.
"Alexander wanted to deliver you an urgent ssage. He said, you and…" he looked at Iryz, "you and Miss Iryz are invited to his children's baby shower tomorrow. He insisted that you both must fly over there tonight itself. Also, he said excuses will not be entertained. Okay, I'm leaving -"
"Wait!"
"I still need to find one more pair." The man said and imdiately left.
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