I should have known what Tactus would do. He killed his first Primus, Tamara, in the Institute. He only ever followed strength. Only ever sought victory. I knew he was a beast, but I thought he was my beast. I thought I could trust him. No, I thought I could change him. I curse myself. Arrogant fool. I stalk back to the cockpit, where Augustus addresses the Blue pilot.
“Pilot, will you be able to take us clear?”
“No, dominus . Geot models don’t show a probability of escape.” Her response is fittingly Blue—emotionally distant, efficient, and declarative. Her body is thin, faintly avian. Like she’s made all of twigs, neck long, bald head slightly smaller. Eyes large and as uncannily azure as the digital tattoos of her skull. When she moves, it’s as though she’s subrged in water. Asteroid born, judging by her flat accent.
“What is the likely scenario?”
“They will destroy our engines with ripWing fire. Precipitating a hull breach that will kill all aboard. Alternatively, precipitating a leechCraft assault. Capturing all aboard.”
“Or they’ll just blast us from the gory sky,” Sevro adds.
“Blue, deliver to my ship and you will receive command of a frigate,” Augustus offers.
“I would prefer a cruiser,” she notes.
“A cruiser, then.”
“Very well.” The Blue adjusts several knobs. “I will fly well, but the paradigm must be altered before they engage our vessel, if we are to survive.”
The stork climbs toward the edge of Luna’s atmosphere. This ship is a big-bellied beast. Fat with storage room, because all they’re ant to do is birth soldiers out of the tubes in their guts. n like would tear her apart in our ripWings. We used ships like this at the Academy to launch n in starShells at enemy asteroid bases.
Friction fire wreaths the ship.
“If the hull is breached, hold your breath, dominii ,” the pilot instructs. “We don’t have sufficient survival helts aboard.”
Victra frowns. “Our lungs will explode if we do that.”
“Then exhale,” the Blue replies. “And have thirty secs of life while eardrums explode and blood vessels swell like inflated balloons. I will hold my breath.”
Sevro looks back at , wide-eyed. “I hate space.”
“You hate everything.”
We pop clear of Luna’s atmosphere. The fire fades and we slip into open space, where the armada’s capital ships glide like behemoths of Europa’s deep sea. Gun turrets dot their hide like barnacles, and hangar bays slice their undersides like great gills. Comrcial ships float slowly along the shipping lanes. RipWings and wasps go about their patrols. None pay heed to our presence except those that escort us from Luna. The Sovereign would not broadcast this. Ti ticks away.
There is nowhere to flee. We thought to pass just under the guns of the Scepter Armada when we had Lysander. But now we’ll have to run the gauntlet.
Our pilot is calm as tal.
She said the paradigm must change.
What can I do? Think. Think.
“We will open communications to one of the ships,” Augustus says. “Bribe them into sheltering us. Every man has a price.”
“We’re jamd. Can’t even broadcast,” Mustang reminds him.
We’re going to die. We all know it. Augustus doesn’t panic or surrender resolve. I don’t know how I thought he’d handle death. Maybe I hoped he would wail about and turn pale. But for all his faults, he is stalwart. After a mont, he sets a bony hand on Mustang’s shoulder. She flinches, surprised.
“Whether missile or boarding craft co, die like Golds,” Augustus says solemnly to us. Not because he wishes us to think him strong in his last monts, but because he believes in what he is—a superior being, a master of his human frailties. For him, death is rely the ultimate frailty. Humans whimper when they die. They claw for life even if there is no hope. He will not. Death is not grander than his pride.
Golds, in many ways, are so like Reds. Helldivers go to their deaths for their families, for the pride of their clan. They do not whimper when the mines collapse around them or when the pitvipers co from the shadows. They fall and their friends weep and sweep their bodies aside. But we have the Vale to look forward to; what have the Golds? When they perish, their flesh withers and their na and deeds linger till ti sweeps them away. And that is all. If anyone should claw for life now, it should be the Aureate.
I claw because I carry the torch of sothing that must not die, must not go out. That is why I grab Sevro on the shoulder and, with a horrible, eerie laugh, tell the pilot to take us closer to the deadliest ship in orbit, one which now has angled itself to intercept us.
“Take us near the Vanguard ,” I repeat to the Blue.
“That would cause our chances of survival to decrease by—”
“Never tell the odds, just do it,” I command.
Everyone turns and looks at . Not because I’ve said sothing strange but because they’ve been waiting to turn and look at . They’ve all been silently praying I would marshal a plan. Even Augustus.
Eo said people would always look to . She believed I had so quality, so essence that gave hope. I rarely feel it in myself. There is none in now. Just dread. Inside I feel such a boy—angry, petulant, selfish, guilty, sad, alone—and yet they look to . I almost break underneath their gaze, almost wither away and ask soone else to take the reins. I can’t do it. I’m small. I’m just a liar in a carved body. But that dream must not be extinguished.
So I act and they watch.
“You gone space mad?” Victra asks. “When they realize we don’t have the boy …”
“Draw an angle toward the Vanguard ’s bridge,” Mustang tells the Blue.
Augustus gives a curt nod, guessing what I plan. “Hic sunt leones.”
“Hic sunt leones,” I echo, saving my last look for Mustang, not the man who hanged my wife. She doesn’t notice. I leave the bridge with Sevro at a dead sprint. Sothing hits our ship. Her hull shudders. They know we don’t have Lysander.
“Howlers! Get up!” I shout.
Harpy throws up her hands. “I thought you said—”
“UP!” I roar.
Red secondary lights bathe the launch bay in bloody hues as Sevro and I load ourselves into the cold starShells. It takes two Howlers each to help us slip into the robotic carapaces. I lie in the armor as Harpy buckles my feet into the stirrups and closes the armored legs over my at and bones. The Howlers are fast in their movents even as the ship lurches with another near missile strike. A siren howls, reporting a hull breach. I try to slow my breath as Victra fits my head into the starShell’s helt.
“Good luck.” She leans her face close. Before I can stop her, she presses her lips to mine. I do not recoil, not this close to death. I let her lips part and cling warm and comforting around mine. Then the human mont is over, and she’s gone, lowering the massive visor of my helt. My Howlers howl and hoot at the sight. I can’t help but wish it was Mustang who sealed in this tin can and kissed goodbye; but then the digital display owns my vision and I disappear from my friends into the tal launch tube. I’m alone. And scared.
Focus .
I’m cocooned, belly-down, in the spitTube. This is where most would piss themselves, separated from friends, from the warmth of life. There’s no gravity in the tube. It isn’t pressurized. I hate the weightlessness of it.
I can’t look up or my neck will break when they launch . I can’t move side to side. My starShell is latched into a thousand toothlike magnetic hooks. They click into place like tiny insects, chattering.
In monts they’ll shoot into space. My breath rasps. My heart rattles against my sternum. I drink in my body’s terror and smile. They said this was suicide at the Academy when I wanted to launch myself. Maybe they were right.
But this is why I was made. To dive into hell.
I’m a beetle of a man in a carapace of tal, weapons, and engines that cost more than most ships. I’ve got a pulseCannon on my right arm. When I need it, it will bloom like a haemanthus blossom.
I think of the ti Eo laid a haemanthus before my front door, the ti I plucked one from the wall on the night that I was supposed to win the Laurel. How far away those warm days seem from this cold place, where petals are tal instead of soft like silk.
“We’re getting pinned in. Boarding parties imminent,” Mustang’s voice cos over the com. “Priming your launch.” The ship moans as another missile almost claims us. Our shields are shot. Just the rickety hull holding us together.
“Aim true,” I say.
“Always. Darrow …” Her silence says a thousand things.
“I’m sorry,” I tell her.
“Good luck.”
“This is not fun,” Sevro groans.
The ship’s hydraulic system hisses and the tal teeth jerk forward in the tube, loading into the chamber. Inches before my head, the magnetic stream of the railgun hums dreadfully, daring to glance its way.
They say that many Golds can’t take this, that even Peerless can panic and scream and cry in the spitTube. I believe it. Pixies would have heart attacks right now. So cannot even ride in a spaceship for fear of small places and the vastness of space. Soft-bellied fools. I was born in a ho smaller than the cargo bay of this ship. I made my life at the end of a clawDrill that makes this tube look like a child’s toy, all while sweating and pissing my soul away in a frysuit cobbled together from scrap.
Still there’s the terror.
“Watch how a pitviper strikes, my son.” Father once clutched by my wrist and made play this ga. “Watch it coil upward and upward till it reaches its crest. Don’t move before then. Don’t strike out with your slingBlade. If you do, then it’ll get you. It’ll kill you. Move just when it’s coming down. Do that with the terror in life. Don’t act till you’re as scared as you’ll get, then …” He snapped his fingers.
I’m at that point when the music of the machines takes hold. The clicks and the clacks, the hisses and the hums reverberate through the hull. A countdown begins.
“Ready over there, Goblin?” I ask Sevro over the com.
“Cacatne ursus in silvis?”
Does a bear shit in the woods? The ship spins and shudders. More sirens howl.
“Latin, now?”
“Audentes fortuna juvat,” Sevro chuckles.
“Fortune favors the bold? You deserve to die if that’s really going to be the last thing you say in this life.”
“Yes? Well, you may suck my—”
My heart sticks to its downward beat.
The tal teeth jerk forward into the tube’s magnetic stream. And it happens. Even through my suit, g-forces hit like the backhand of the Obsidians’ thunder god. My vision flickers black. Stomach rises into throat. Lungs constrict. Blood slows in my veins. I snap forward. Lights flicker in my eyes. I don’t see the walls of the tube I’m shot through. I don’t even see the ship that brought here. I see Eo’s face in the darkness. I black out. Bodies can’t take this. Too fast.
Darkness.
Then the darkness has holes.
Stars.
There’s no anti. One second I’m on the ship, the next I’m ripping through the deep of space at ten tis the speed of sound.
Many shit their suits at this point. It’s not a fear thing. It’s biology and physics. The human body can take only so much. Mickey the Carver made sure mine could take just a little bit more. I hope Sevro’s can too.
I rip soundlessly through space. Trust that Sevro is near . Can’t see him, even on the sensors. All too fast. Toward the greatest ship in the Scepter Armada—the one we should avoid. It all happens in six seconds. Ergency missiles streak past us. The gunners see us now. Know what’s happening. But we’re not using thrusters, so the missiles can’t lock. Flak can’t detonate on so short a fuse. The unspent canisters fly past us, nearly hitting . Our pilot took a perfect shot.
Railguns miss us. Projectiles flash past. Sevro is howling in the com. Their shields are down. They can’t bring them up fast enough. It takes ti. Iridescent blue flickers over their hull as the pulseShields power up. Too late, you sons of bitches .
Too bloodydamn late .
I can’t think. I’m screaming inside. Laughing like the flas of a wildfire. Laughing because I know it is my madness that these logical warriors cannot fight.
The bridge is close. I spare a look up. See Golds inside roaring at one another. Rushing to their evacsuits or escape pods. Staring at us approach like Mustang did when my horses of House Mars crashed into her and Pax in a muddy field. Our rage is sothing unique. Sothing these Luneborn don’t understand.
Blues scatter. Obsidians pull their weapons. Two Golds don breath-masks and unfurl razors, readying for the kill. The second before we hit, I shoot my pulseCannon. It thumps on the thick glass. I shoot again and again and again. Then I curl into a ball and smash into the thick bridge glass with the full velocity of my launch as well as a last-second burst from my thruster boots.
Out of roars a madman’s scream.
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