Chapter 1224: Chapter 54: Silent Affection
“Alpens… lollipop…”
In front of Tang Xin’s grave mound.
Lin Xian closed his eyes after Du Yao finished speaking, sinking into deep thought.
“For a long ti.”
He took a deep breath:
“I rembered.”
Du Yao was incredulous:
“You… you really rembered? Just with such a simple keyword, you recalled the past between you and Tang Xin?”
“Yes.”
Lin Xian slowly opened his eyes:
“Indeed, it was at the side gate of the school playground, not far from the small store in the corner. It was there I took off my school uniform, wrapped it around Tang Xin’s waist, and then… she squatted down in pain. I gave her an Alpens lollipop.”
“And I also… I also told her…”
He clenched his fist:
“I told her… [Eat a candy, and it won’t hurt anymore.]”
Du Yao froze in place.
She truly couldn’t understand.
Amazingly.
Lin Xian had actually managed to rember, recalling every little detail so vividly!
“Unbelievable.”
Looking at it scientifically, she struggled to understand:
“Honestly, Lin Xian, I’d prepared myself for you hearing ‘Alpens lollipop’ and still being unable to recall the events of the past.”
“I assud that when you said you’d rembered, it might be to comfort or to not leave any regret in front of Tang Xin’s grave, but… even that one sentence you said was retrieved word-for-word. How is this possible?”
Du Yao furrowed her brows.
She couldn’t quite comprehend this mory chanism:
“The chanism our brains use to search for mories is incredibly vague, and forgetting is a natural defense chanism of the brain. Over ti, people inevitably forget many things… the more distant the mory, the cleaner it’s forgotten, without any sense of tangibility.”
“But you, who had clearly forgotten everything, couldn’t rember even when Tang Xin explained it to you so clearly—why, then, was hearing just the words ‘Alpens lollipop’ enough to make you rember instantly?”
Lin Xian sighed:
“Because it’s a deeply ingrained mory. I even have psychological trauma from it.”
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Du Yao was increasingly confused:
“How can such an innocent mory be described as psychological trauma? Isn’t it because of Tang Xin that the ‘Alpens lollipop’ is so morable to you?”
“Not really.”
Lin Xian shook his head:
“When you ntioned the lollipop, what first ca to my mind wasn’t Tang Xin, but…”
“Gao Yang.”
“Then, through my mories of Gao Yang, it extended, extended, extended… and eventually, it was like tracing a thread through a warehouse, leading to a corner and retrieving the dusty mory of Tang Xin.”
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Completely baffled, Du Yao turned to look at Lin Xian:
“What is all this nonsense? Can you explain everything to from the beginning?”
“Sure.”
Lin Xian also turned, facing Du Yao:
“The reason why the ‘Alpens lollipop’ left such a strong impression on isn’t because of Tang Xin, but because I did sothing utterly disgusting at the ti. Even now, thinking about it makes nauseous [hauntingly vivid mory].”
He began recounting to Du Yao:
“Back then, it was during a PE class. Gao Yang only had one yuan in pocket money left. He handed it to , saying, ‘Buy two Alpens lollipops; I’ll treat you to one.'”
“So I went to the small shop to buy the lollipops. They were 50 cents apiece, and I bought two. Since I gave one to Tang Xin, there was just one left. I unwrapped it and put it straight into my mouth, then lied to Gao Yang, saying prices had gone up and the money was only enough for one lollipop.”
“Of course, Gao Yang didn’t believe and started chasing , insisting I give him the lollipop. But I’d already been sucking on it for quite a while—would he still want it? That’s what I was thinking at the ti. But… I really underestimated Gao Yang’s shalessness.”
“Gao Yang chased across half the playground, then lunged and tackled onto the grass. And then… damn…”
Lin Xian covered his forehead, feeling ntally violated again:
“Then Gao Yang forcibly pried open my mouth, pulled out the lollipop, gave it a quick shake, and popped it into his own mouth, happily sucking away.”
“Ugh—”
Du Yao recoiled in disgust, an expression of disdain on her face:
“That’s revolting! How could he even do such a thing?”
“I was shocked, too.”
Lin Xian spread out his hands helplessly:
“That incident truly nauseated . I had just been sucking on it, and then he started sucking on it—it would have been slightly less gross if he’d rinsed or wiped it, but no, he plunged it straight in with my spit still on it… At the ti, I honestly felt like I’d been violated.”
“Enough, enough.”
Du Yao interrupted Lin Xian:
“You don’t need to describe it with such vivid detail. The image is already clear in my head.”
“Your friend… I an your class monitor, was definitely a bold one.”
“I understand now. It’s because that event was so ntally scarring for you that the re sight or ntion of an ‘Alpens lollipop’ triggers an extre reaction, imdiately connecting your mories to Gao Yang.”
Lin Xian nodded:
“So, ever since then, I never ate another lollipop. It was just too nauseating. That’s why I say this incident is a psychological trauma for .”
“Earlier, your prompt triggered my mories again, and that feeling of disgust ca flooding back. The mory was so vivid that as I retraced the visuals, I was able to recall the events with Tang Xin—the entire scene, including giving her the lollipop, all ca back to .”
Afterward.
Du Yao said nothing.
She crouched down, gazing at Tang Xin’s grave mound and the swaying bouquet of lilies in front of it, contemplating.
“Considering this…”
“[Lost mories can indeed be retrieved through visceral, intense emotional resonance.]”
“Tang Xin explained everything to you in detail, yet you felt no sense of connection. But with ‘Alpens lollipop,’ you rembered Gao Yang, recalled that deeply scarring incident, then rembered Tang Xin… instantly and vividly reconstructing mories you’d completely forgotten.”
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