Chapter 453: The Conversation 2
"How old is she exactly?"
"Four months. Almost five."
Four months. Almost five months of her life, and he hadn’t known. Five months of firsts he had missed because of pride and silence and the damaged logic of a man who thought distance was the sa as strength.
He leaned back in his chair, running a hand over his face. His fingers were trembling slightly. He pressed them against his jaw to stop it. The control he had built his image on, the composure that everyone comnted on—it was fraying. Not breaking. But fraying.
"Does she—" He stopped, cleared his throat, started again. "Has she asked about ? Does she know—"
"She’s five months old, Dayo." Luna’s voice was gentle, but there was sothing else in it too. Defensiveness. Or maybe just the exhaustion of carrying this alone. "She doesn’t ask about anything yet. She looks at faces. She reaches for . She cries when she’s hungry and sleeps when she’s full. That’s her world right now."
Dayo nodded, absorbing that. Of course. She was a baby. She didn’t know she was missing a father because no one had ever told her that piece of her story.
"Then I want to be part of that world," he said. "However you need
to be. However slowly you need this to go. But I want to be there, Luna. I want to know her. I want her to know ."
Luna looked at him, studying his face like she was searching for sothing. Sincerity, maybe. Or just the certainty that he wasn’t going to disappear again.
"You say that now," she said quietly. "But you don’t know what you’re asking for. My life isn’t—it’s not simple. I stepped back from everything to raise her. I don’t have handlers and schedules and assistants who can make things convenient. I have diapers and sleepless nights and a career that’s been on pause since the day she was born."
"I don’t need convenient," Dayo said. "I need to be there."
"And what about your life?" Luna’s voice sharpened slightly, not with anger, but with the frustration of soone who had been let down before. "Your competitions, your music, your label, your—your everything. Where does she fit into that? Where do I fit?"
Dayo was quiet for a mont. The question was fair. More than fair. And the answer wasn’t simple.
"I don’t know yet," he admitted. "I don’t have a plan for this. I don’t have a strategy. That’s not—I can’t approach this the way I approach everything else. This isn’t a race or a business deal or a problem I can solve by thinking harder. This is my daughter. And you’re her mother. And whatever we are to each other, whatever we beco, that fact doesn’t change."
He leaned forward again, his voice dropping lower, more urgent.
"But I know this. I spent a lifeti before this one learning what happens when people choose absence over presence. I saw it destroy families. I saw children grow up wondering what they did wrong, why they weren’t enough, why the person who should have been there just... wasn’t. I won’t do that to her, Luna. Not because I’m perfect. Not because I know what I’m doing. But because I know what the alternative looks like, and I refuse to be that."
Luna’s eyes had gone soft around the edges. Not fully. She was still guarded. Still protecting herself. But sothing in what he said had reached her. But also a part confused her about having lived another life but she shrugged assud it’s him talking in parables or sothing.
"You’re not the sa," she said. It wasn’t quite a question.
"I’m not," he agreed. "And I am. That’s the truth. The man I was in that other life—the detached one, the one who treated connection like it was optional—he’s still in here sowhere. But you pulled sothing out of , Luna. You made
want to be better than that. And even after you left, even after I let you walk away because my pride was louder than my heart, that change stayed. It didn’t disappear just because you weren’t there to see it."
Luna looked down at her hands. Her fingers were pressed together, white at the knuckles.
"I left because I was scared," she said, the words coming slowly, like she was pulling them up from deep water. "Not just of Alice. Not just of what that silence ant. I was scared that I was holding you back. That you were staying with
because it was easier than exploring what else was out there. I didn’t want to be the reason you settled."
"You weren’t holding
back," Dayo said. "You were the only thing that made any of it matter."
She looked up at him then, and for a mont, the wall between them thinned. Just a mont. Then she exhaled, and the distance returned, not fully, but enough to remind them both that this wasn’t going to be fixed in one conversation.
"There’s no roadmap for this," she said. "No right way to do it. We can’t just—pretend the past didn’t happen. We can’t jump back to what we were."
"I know."
"And I’m not asking you to be perfect. I’m not even asking you to be what I need right now. I’m just asking you to be consistent. To show up. To not disappear when it gets hard."
"I won’t disappear," Dayo said. "That’s a promise."
Luna studied him for a long mont. Then she reached into her bag—that bag, the one he had noticed before, the one that started everything—and pulled out her phone. She scrolled for a few seconds, then turned the screen toward him.
It was a photo.
A baby. Small, wrapped in sothing soft, eyes open and dark and unmistakably aware. She had Luna’s shape to her face, but the expression—the stillness, the way she looked at the cara like she was processing everything before deciding how to feel about it—that was his.
Dayo stared at the image, and sothing in his chest cracked open. Not dramatically. Not with sound or tears or any visible display. Just a fundantal shift, the kind that happened quietly, internally, when reality beca too real to hold at arm’s length anymore.
He was a father.
This small, serious-faced baby was his.
And he had already missed so much.
"Can I—" He stopped, swallowed, tried again his eyes were a bit red as he held the picture tightly. "Can I et her?"
Luna looked at him, really looked at him, asuring sothing he couldn’t see. Then she nodded slowly.
"Not yet. Not rushing into it. But soon. I’ll—I need to think about how to do this. What’s best for her. But yes. You can et her."
Dayo nodded, accepting the boundary. It was more than he expected. Less than he wanted. But it was real. It was progress.
They sat there for a while longer, not saying much. The conversation had reached a place where words felt insufficient. There was too much history between them, too much damage, too much that needed ti to heal. But the worst silence was broken. The question was asked. The truth was out.
When they finally stood to leave, Luna paused at the door.
"Dayo?"
"Yeah?"
"Why now?" She turned to face him, her expression open in a way he hadn’t seen in a long ti. "What changed between the last ti we talked and now?"
He thought about it. About his mother’s words. About Sharon’s push. About staring at the ceiling for hours, realizing that the only thing worse than knowing the answer was never asking the question.
"I got tired of being the man who let fear decide for him," he said. "I did that in my past. I did it again with you. I’m not going to do it with my daughter."
Luna held his gaze for a mont longer. Then she nodded, a small, private gesture, and stepped out into the night.
Dayo stayed behind for a minute, standing in the empty café, letting the weight of everything settle over him. Fatherhood. Responsibility. A second chance at connection, not just with Luna, but with the small person who shared his blood without knowing his na.
He thought about that other life. The man he had been. The defenses he had built. And he realized, with a clarity that surprised him, that none of it mattered anymore. The strategies, the control, the careful distance—those were tools for a different kind of battle. This one required sothing else.
Presence. Vulnerability. The willingness to show up without knowing if you were enough.
Dayo walked out into the night, the air cool against his skin. The city moved around him, indifferent to the fact that everything had changed. He pulled out his phone and looked at the photo Luna had sent—Jennifer’s face, small and serious and waiting for him to beco the man she deserved.
His hands were still trembling slightly.
But for the first ti in a long ti, the trembling didn’t feel like weakness.
It felt like finally waking up.
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