Nan Hou Xiang has beco numb by now.
There was no point in concerning about this matter because the more he thought and pondered about it, it would only cause more pain in his heart.
And over the years, Nan Hou Xiang learned to accept it.
Accept that his life was no longer the sa as before and that he had to live by himself without anyone caring for him. Because if Nan Hou Xiang couldn't accept it, he would only be full of grievances, hatred, sadness, and even madness. What kind of life could he have with such heavy feelings burdening in his heart?
It was definitely not a good one.
And Nan Hou Xiang had no energy or ti to plan for the so called revenge.
What kind of revenge does he want?
Destroy the Nan Family?
How many years did he have to work hard for him to be able to reach their height?
Or should he destroy his own future for the so called revenge?
No.
Nan Hou Xiang didn't want to.
The main reason why he continued going was for the sake of his dream, to beco a capable official.
As for his family's na and so on…
Nan Hou Xiang had no ti to care about it in the slightest bit. His father's na had been sared so badly that there was no good point left. Perhaps, only he could think that his father was not that bad because he had been given favor by his father when he was young.
But by now, Nan Hou Xiang could barely rember any of those things.
His parents had never been present in the following steps of his life and Nan Hou Xiang didn't think that it was necessary for him to do anything to cleanse his na. Because if it was possible to cleanse his na, his grandfather would have done that many years ago. His own grandfather gave up on his father.
And it was only after learning various etiquette and ethics lesson in the academy that Nan Hou Xiang realized why his grandfather chose to give up on his father. A person who could kill his own wife…
What kind of person is he?
Nan Hou Xiang tossed the thoughts away from him.
Becoming an official should have been soone full of virtue but the reality was the complete opposite. No matter how polite and good they looked like, the reality was that they were all scheming b*stard who only knew how to take advantage of others. While so of them did their work properly, so others only wanted the power they could get from this position.
Nan Hou Xiang had t with several officials when he was in the academy.
And the short interaction with them told him the true nature of these people. But even if it was that way, Nan Hou Xiang still wanted to beco an official.
For his dream and for his own life.
"When will the result announced?"
"It should be in a few more days. Are you sure about your result?"
"I will definitely pass!"
As Nan Hou Xiang walked out, he heard the conversation of the people around him. He looked around for a mont before turning his head away and slowly made his way back to the academy.
Once the result ca out…
He hoped that he could finally go.
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