Nevertheless, Lucy could not easily give up her ti with Felix. The ti she spent with him was fun and happy. He is caring, kind, and he makes her laugh.
Lucy was distressed by the gap between Felixs irresistible temptation and status difference, but she was able to endure the pain whenever she saw Felixs face. The hurtful words that she overheard in the garden lted away naturally as she listened to Felixs voice.
They beca closer, and Lucy realized that she couldnt change her mind. Even if she likes him alone and gets hurt by herself, she can never stop her feelings. She just likes being beside him. She thought she could be satisfied just by helping Felix study for the exam.
Felix was never alone with any girls. But Lucy was an exception. His attitude toward Lucy certainly seed to suggest that he wanted to be with her apart from asking for help in studying for the exam. Lucy believed so.
But
What? Are you going out with her?
What are you talking about? Why should I?
Well, theres no way youre going to et a kid who doesnt fit your level.
As soon as she heard what he said in front of the library, Lucy in her dream ca back to reality.
Oh, yeah. Level.
It was once again a mont when she realized how far the distance was between her and Felix. She was poor. She herself had expectations that she would never receive an answer. She couldnt help but be ashad of herself.
She decided to wake up completely from this dream. Before she knew Felix. If she could go back to before she got to know him, she wouldnt be as miserable as she is now.
Late at night, Lucy went in front of the boys dormitory. She sat in the flower bed in front of the dormitory and waited for Felix. Felix, who appeared in the dark, looked surprised as soon as he saw her. Soon a deep shade fell on his face.
As expected, Are you feeling uncomfortable now?
Its okay to et alone, but its difficult to et in public.
When she stood in front of him, she was worried that what she had to say would not co out of her mouth, but she was worried for nothing. When she t Felix, she was able to say that she should not see her personally any more easily.
Along with that, she was also able to say her innermost thoughts.
Ive enjoyed spending the last few weeks with sunbae. We went to town together, and we studied together.
Yeah. Maybe its the last ti Ill be able to talk to him.
Lucy spoke frankly of her feelings that she had endured. It was hard to see what Felixs expressions were. Only his blurred figure, standing in the darkness, remained in her mory.
After saying everything, Lucy ran away from the boys dormitory.
After returning to the girls dormitory, Lucy sat down leaning against the wall. She buried her face with her knees together.
She had never felt such pain before. This autumn seed to be unforgettable.
* * *
It hasnt been a long ti since she fell asleep, but she felt the dawn rising over her eyelids. Lucy woke up and blinked slowly.
She still feels tired. Maybe she wasnt able to get enough sleep. But sohow, she couldnt seem to get back to sleep, so she got up from bed.
Jemima yawned loudly when she opened her eyes to Lucys movent.
Lucy..you can sleep for another hour or so.
Today is the first day of the examination.
A hoarse voice ca out of Lucys mouth. She staggered to the desk and pulled out a chair. The dragging of the chair filled Jemimas face with anxiety.
thats what Im saying. Studying now wont change much. Youre always working hard; youre really going to die. So, when you take the exam, believe in your usual skills, and for now, just sleep well.
Jemima got out of bed and approached her, lifting Lucy up from her chair. But Lucy insisted that the important part should be reviewed one last ti. However, Jemima, who saw her bloodshot eyes, did not let it slide this ti.
Youre really going to faint if you keep doing that. Whats the point of studying so hard if you faint?
Eventually, by Jemima, Lucy was forced to lie on the bed. Contrary to Lucys expectation that she would no longer be able to sleep, she fell asleep faintly.
As a result, listening to Jemima was a good choice. Just getting another hour or so of sleep seed to make Lucy feel much better. Her eyes were still red, and there was black shadow under her eyes.
Lucy has had to spend more ti studying than ever in recent days. This is because she had trouble concentrating and could not spend her ti efficiently.
She was definitely reading a book, but the words didnt co into her head. She read the question, but she couldnt understand it at once. But she couldnt just skip it, so she spent more ti pushing the letters into her head.
When she gets distracted a bit, her thoughts go straight to another place. Her eyes went to the empty seat.
They only studied together a few tis but Felixs absence felt too great.
It was not once or twice that she wanted to take back what she had told him. In fact, she never ant what she said about not studying together.
But Felix Berg was a very distant man, a person from another world who would never fit in or blend in with her world.
All the more reason Lucy tried not to think of him. She had to wake up from her dream and co back to reality. Keep the Top position and secure the scholarship until graduation.
This was the only reality Lucy had to accept.
Eat a little, said Jemima, looking at Lucy, who had no appetite even when she arrived at the restaurant. From the side, Rita looked at her with a worried look on her face.
Im fine. If I eat a lot before the exam, Ill feel sick.
Eventually, Lucy finished her al without eating half of the food.
When Lucy arrived at the classroom, she sat at her desk, took a deep breath, and waited for the teacher to co in. Mr. Peter, who appeared shortly afterwards, handed out the test papers to the first line.
I need to pull myself together.
She repeated that thought countless tis. No matter what the situation was, the top position had to be kept at all costs.
Lucy cald down her unusual throbbing heart and read the examination paper before her.
* * *
The three-day examination was over.
A few days later, second graders gathered in front of the bulletin board on the first floor. It was because of the ranking table stuck in the center of the bulletin board. All the students who stood in the front and checked their rankings first looked surprised. They exchanged glances and murmured.
Lucy and Colin, who were standing in the back, also dug forward to check their performance. Lucy, who stood in front of the ranking table, checked her na from the top row as always.
1st place, Eric Roman.
The mont she saw a na that wasnt hers, Lucy hardened like a stone statue. She stared blankly at the strange na for a long ti. No matter how many tis she looked at it, she couldnt understand.
Colin, who was standing next to her, grabbed her by the shoulder before she could respond.
Lucy
It wasnt his usual cheerful voice, but his sad voice. But Lucy was not in the mood to answer. Her gaze shifted down a line.
However, her na was not next to Top 2. The sa was true of Top 3. Lucy looked down in disbelief.
Top 4, Lucy Keenan.
It was a rank she had never received before.
Top 4 murmured Lucy, with a vain face. The shock was so great that she couldnt think of anything. She couldnt even feel Colins slight shaking her shoulders.
Lucy, are you all, right? Colin asked her quietly. Only then did Lucy wake up and look around. Then the students, who were secretly looking at her, hurriedly turned away.
Yeah, Im all right. Lucy smiled awkwardly and replied, because she could not let other people see her tearful face.
Lucy walked out in front of the bulletin board and said to Colin, who was following her.
Ill walk alone for a while.
At Lucys words, Colin looked at her with a pitiful look. However, he thought it would be better to leave her alone, so he just stood there.
It was the eyes of the other students that followed her instead of Colin. Everyone looked at Lucy and was busy talking about her finally coming down from the top spot.
Lucy escaped from their sight and ca out to the campus. As she was trudging, she fell down on the bench that she saw in front of her.
Before she was disappointed, worries and fears flooded in like waves.
Fourth place was also high, but the problem was that Lucys score and Eric Romans score were quite different. Even if Lucy wins the final exam again, it is unlikely that she would be able to take the top spot in the second sester of the second year. As long as Eric doesnt completely screw up his final exams.
The scholarship for the next sester was moving away from Lucy.
What should I do?
Lucy bit her lips with a nervous look.
Of course, even if she didnt get a scholarship next sester, she will still be able to continue attending the Academy. This is because Baron Connor would have offered to provide tuition fees if he knew.
But Lucy knew that the baron and the estate were not very rich. In addition, this sumr, heavy rains and floods hit Brom, and the situation of the residents was not so good. Baron Connor would offer to provide Lucy with tuition fees, even in such a situation. Lucy wanted to avoid it as much as she could.
She felt soone sitting next to her while in agony.
Lucy-sunbae,
Before she knew it, Noel was sitting next to her.
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