"I don’t hate you." ng Qi did not push away Chen Wenyu, but instead held her tightly, gently patting her back and answering decisively.
"But I hate myself to death." Chen Wenyu opened her mouth and cried out loud.
The past few hours were truly torturous for her. She had tried to escape, she had thought about seeking help from others, but on the way to the hospital, she realized that, after seven or eight years in Jin City, she didn’t even have a single true friend.
Although, when she worked at the law firm, she had two colleagues her age who she got along well with, but after her relationship with Song Guotao beca known, they began to distance themselves from her.
She knew they looked down on her. Though she wasn’t a completely evil person, in their eyes, she was always a ho-wrecker who ruined soone else’s marriage!
She lost her friends and her job; during that period, she was completely dependent on Song Guotao to live. So, even though she had many grievances against him, she tolerated them, humbly stayed by his side, hoping he would change his mind.
However, a selfish and greedy man will always be selfish and greedy. How could he possibly change for her?
Not to ntion, he didn’t love her. Even for Mi Wan, whom he once deeply loved, he ruthlessly humiliated her.
But she was too stubborn. She wouldn’t admit that Song Guotao loved Mi Wan instead of her, nor would she admit her own mistakes, let alone let go. Even when she realized Song Guotao didn’t love her, she was unwilling to leave. So, the harm she suffered today was self-inflicted. She could only bla herself for not loving herself enough in the beginning.
Chen Wenyu was awakened by Song Guotao’s actions. She kept self-reflecting but lost the courage to escape.
Although she didn’t want to lose the baby in her belly, she also didn’t have the courage to give birth to it. Ultimately, she was selfish, initially wanting to use the baby to bind Song Guotao. Now that she wanted to sever ties with him, she was afraid the baby would be a burden.
At the mont she walked into the operating room, Chen Wenyu was filled with both resentnt for Song Guotao and deep self-bla. Her tears were uncontrollable, like an untightened faucet, endlessly pouring out. Her pitiful appearance made the doctors and nurses feel reluctant to perform the surgery. Because of this, she had a chance to escape, but she gave it up. Like Song Guotao, she ruthlessly took away the baby’s right to live.
However, after making the decision, she didn’t feel relieved. She was still in pain, still blaming herself. She wanted to find soone to talk to, soone to accompany her. Moreover, she didn’t want to see Song Guotao again, so she had to find soone to help her. Hence, she borrowed a phone from a nurse and called her ex-boyfriend, ng Qi.
In fact, she didn’t hold much hope. They had broken up a few years ago and rarely contacted each other. Plus, he worked out of town. It was unlikely he would have ti to co to Jin City after receiving such a sudden call. But he still ca. The mont she hugged him, she finally understood that apart from her father, ng Qi was the only man in the world who ever truly loved her.
"I should have gone with you, ng Qi. I regret it so much, really regret it." Chen Wenyu’s tears flowed down her cheeks, swiftly soaking ng Qi’s clothes.
"Yu, don’t think about the past. Now, the most important thing is to take good care of your body." Even though his shoulder felt wet, ng Qi didn’t mind. He patiently comforted Chen Wenyu, hoping she would calm down quickly.
"I don’t want to live anymore. I just aborted the baby in my belly. I killed him."
"I believe you must have had your reasons for doing this. Don’t bla yourself too much. Just think that the baby ca at the wrong ti. Perhaps he will find a better place." ng Qi said.
"No, he won’t find a better place. He just ca looking for . He hates to death. He wants to pay with my life!"
Upon hearing this, ng Qi’s body stiffened. He didn’t believe in ghosts or spirits, so he wasn’t scared of such things. However, from Chen Wenyu’s words, he sensed that her psychological trauma was far worse than her physical pain.
"You must be overthinking this. How about you lie down on the bed for a while? If you’re hungry, I can go get you your favorite pork trotter noodles." ng Qi gently pushed Chen Wenyu away and said softly.
"You still rember that I like pork trotter noodles?" Chen Wenyu looked at ng Qi in amazent, suddenly feeling touched.
"Of course." ng Qi suddenly smiled, saying lightly, "During college, I accompanied you to eat pork trotter noodles at least twice a week."
He hasn’t changed!
Looking at ng Qi’s sunny smile, Chen Wenyu suddenly forgot her sadness and self-bla. She rembered many beautiful monts. At that ti, they were both simple and always easily satisfied. Just a al of a few-dollar pork trotter noodles could make them happy.
"If there is a chance, will you accompany to eat pork trotter noodles again?" Chen Wenyu wiped her tears and asked.
"Of course." ng Qi said, laughing heartily.
"Hehe." Chen Wenyu felt much calr, and a smile broke through her tears. She gratefully said, "Thank you, ng Qi, thank you for coming to see ."
"You’re welco." ng Qi slowly stood up, gently holding Chen Wenyu’s arm and smiling, "Co, let help you to the bed."
This ti, Chen Wenyu did not refuse. She followed ng Qi’s lead, slowly standing up and then step by step, moving toward the nearby hospital bed.
"Why did you get out of bed?"
Just as Chen Wenyu’s hand touched the bed, a questioning voice suddenly sounded behind her.
"..."
It was the voice she hated. Chen Wenyu did not turn around. With ng Qi’s help, she climbed onto the bed and then turned her face away, looking out the window, completely ignoring Song Guotao.
"Who are you giving attitude to?" Seeing Chen Wenyu’s clear expression of disdain, Song Guotao angrily threw the bag in his hand onto the bed and loudly demanded.
"Sir, this is a hospital. Please speak softly. Also, Yu’s mood has just cald down, so please don’t upset her." Although ng Qi hadn’t t Song Guotao before, seeing him holding a bag of won’s clothes and appearing here, he imdiately guessed his identity. So his tone inevitably beca more serious.
"Who are you? What gives you the right to lecture ?" Song Guotao was already in a bad mood, and ng Qi’s words made him even more irritable.
"I am Yu’s friend. As long as I’m here, you won’t bully her." ng Qi, though not tall, spoke with considerable montum, standing straight and showing his resolve.
"Which eye of yours saw bullying her? Even if you’re her friend, our matters are none of your business!" Song Guotao bellowed, looking like an enraged rooster, his neck stretched long and eyes glaring fiercely.
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